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MOVIE!!!

2009-01-29T14:07:00.001+08:00

Hello people !! hahaha.. its been a long time since i blogged.. haha.. its like almost a year or something.. lol.. but recently i just feel like returning into the blogging scene once again.. hahaa.. There's just so many things around revolving.. haha.. and i guess we won't get to talk about every single one of them to everyone.. hahaha.. well.. wanted to blog yesterday, but then i was like so tired la.. i typed half way, den suddenly my laptop battery ran out.. so it shut down.. so i was a bit lazy to turn it on again and do it all over again la.. lol.. but anyway, yesterday was a pretty good day (well.. to a certain extent i guess).. lol !! I woke up at around 7.30am in the morning leh.. CAN YOU BELIEVE IT ?? and i woke up just to go to school.. hahaha.. i didn't wake up on my own will.. hahaha.. my mum was like screaming at me to wake up, but guess i was caught in the hangover of CNY.. lol.. so i was like literally dragging myself off bed, onto the floor and into the toilet.. i was like crawling la.. hahaha.. looks like i'm possessed or something.. hahaha.. but washed up and changed.. den just realised that i finished using my wax.. i mean my hair wax.. I MEAN my HAIR STYLING WAX.. hahaha.. please dun anyhow think.. lol.. so i just went to my dad's room see whether got any hair styling products a not loh.. den i reluctantly used his gel.. its those expensive type la, but i just dun like using gel.. hahaha.. so i went to school for dunno wad reason.. go there also nothing to do loh.. i feel so purposeless there.. haha.. so i was like there using my laptop surfing the net and talked around loh.. den also dunno how 3 hours have passed.. then went home for lunch, and just fell into the curse of my bed.. i was there and i can't move (like real..).. hahaha.. so i really just blacked out there la.. and i slept for a few hours.. den cat called me loh.. so i was like "hello".. that's all i remembered.. haha.. i dun even know wad was i talking to her.. all i know is something about watching a movie with pst in the night.. so i guess i was like sleeptalking la.. haha.. den went back to sleep a while den got another disruption.. my mum came into my room and asked if i wanna go to the tampines mega courts to go buy a new microwave, cause our house's microwave spoiled before CNY.. just great huh ?? My mum prepared the pineapple paste and then it crashed on her.. hahaha.. so no pineapple tart for me this year.. hahaha.. so i went with them loh.. its like a family fellowship.. its abit different from what i always do with my friends.. apart from them paying for everything that is.. hahaha.. we talked abit and joke as well.. hahaha.. den we came to the massage section.. everyone in the family went crazy.. my mum and my bro went to the massage chair den can squeeze your butt to make it look smaller.. den i was like laughing la.. hahaha.. den we went to the different chair to try out basically everything !! hahaha.. so fun la.. den got one so painful.. den my bro said very shiok.. and he commented that its because i got no meat in the back; all bones.. so very pain for me.. den i'm like sian.... hahahahaha.. but overall it was a good time.. den we went to ikea to eat loh.. we ordered 25 pcs meatball, 6 pcs chicken wings and my dad ate the baked chicken leg.. and we ordered drinks as well.. POWER la, the meatballs !! hahaha.. so i left the place around 7.50.. and the layout of the place was so irritating.. you need to walk one whole round den you can exit the building.. hahaha.. so i walked to the bus-stop to take bus to tampines station den can take train down to city hall to watch movie.. haha.. den i walk and saw bus 168 there.. but i was like so full to run and chase the bus la.. so i just slowly walked.. luckily there got bus 27 as well.. den can go tampines.. haha.. so took a train down loh and walk to marina square.. only to realise that no one was there loh.. so i was like sian.. hahahha.. den i wanted to go walk around.. den i saw peng, wayne and pst.. so okay loh.. we just stand there and talk loh.. hahaha.. and soon after, pst zhuang came.. so we went into the cinema to watch the show "xing fu wan sui".. very nice and funny show.. although i was expecting a bit more.. but it was funny.. lol.. so after that went to rocher there to eat loh.. and den went back home and sleep le.. yeah.. so basically tt's all.. hahhahaa..

XING FU WAN SUI !!!! (:

PaTH

2008-03-04T11:41:00.002+08:00

I'm currently working at PaTH for my attachment.. So far so good.. but of course i broke one of their art pieces, which totally turned that whole day around. Other than that, I am quite satisfied with whatever that i am doing right now. It is a great honor and privilege for me to be able to participate in the appreciation dinner held at the parliament house on this coming saturday. I'm so proud of myself. I was the one who did the food catering. Hope nothing screws up on that day.. I'm really looking forward to it.. Anyway, if you guys are week. Do drop down to PaTH market on every first and last weekend of the month. Its held at Vivocity from 11am to 10pm. Its location is at the Concourse, which is outside the Sentosa Monorail and Food Republic. Do support Social Entrepreneurship where we can start shopping for a good cause for society. Social Entrepreneur is a new business project that allows people to do businesses for a good cause, helping the society and needs in the country.. It is a great privilege and honor for me to do something like that.. I still remembered on Jan 26, DC actually saw the President.. My GOSH !!! The man was like right in front of me and before my eyes.. BEAUTIFUL !!!

hahaha... talking about BEAUTIFUL, i finally found my BoA Made In Twenty Concert at MJ in causeway point.. It was like released in August 2007.. and only now was it imported to Singapore.. haha.. But the concert was good.. haha.. See ya people !!

CIAO !

LOPPPYYYY

2007-10-23T18:17:00.000+08:00

Hey guys.. Its been such a logn time since i started blogging once again.. Haha.. probably i dun really feel like, cause i know when i start typing, i just write and write and write.. it'll be a never ending cycle.. so sometimes, it becomes so tiring.. lol.. but everything looks pretty good on the surface, but on the inside, you'll feel like there's the crumbling feeling.. not a very good feeling, but its good anyway.. As in.. Something is happening, its moving, be it good or bad.. everything needs to move forward, even if my life were to crumble, and if i were to become a small crump, i believe i would still want to move on until my very last breath.. that's what i think.. and its definitely gonna be a struggle.. a picture that i can put in my head is like a snail and a human walking.. we will both reach our destination, but its just the amount of effort that is put in moving the same distance.. but anyway, a slow paced life sometimes relax me, sometimes i just can't put myself into the calm state.. on the outside i may look very calm, but on the inside... HAHAHAHAHAHA... everything is running.. i can feel all the cells in my body cranking up and turning all the gears, and making sure something happens.. But recently things dun really look good.. I always feel that i need a break that every single time i crave on going overseas.. probably somewhere i can be alone, or maybe with someone close with me.. definitely not my parents, no nagging when i wanna rest.. lol.. But i just feel that a break is really necessary.. I really feel like going to korea once again, or even the states.. somewhere that i can breakaway and pick up my pace and steps once again.. i feel that every single time i'm stumbling.. gotta find the right pace and continue moving.. haha... i know some of you will ask me to go malaysia.. but i dunno why, i just dun feel for malaysia.. or even china.. lol... its not the atmosphere that i'm looking for.. i want a place that do snows and just looking around at beautiful nature and rearings.. haha.. Just need a break..

Anyway, i need a new direction.. Something's not quite right about it..

PUMP IT UP DENNIS !!! PUMP IT !~!!!! WOOOOOOOOOOOO !!!!!!!!!!!

So many people's birthday just passed and so many people's birthday are coming.. lol.. its so crazy.. lol... gotta watch my budget man.. haha.. take care guys.. see you soon.. (:

Anyway, i just happened to see BoA's blog.. go take a look if you're interested.. haha... (:

http://blog.oricon.co.jp/boa/

Its in japanese, but i think google has got a direct translation feature.. not very accurate, but who cares anyway.. haha... SMACKS !!

DC

Lab TEST ???!!!

2007-05-27T23:15:00.000+08:00

ARGH !!!!!!!!!!!!!

I thought i only had 1 lab test... den matt called me at night to tell me that the bluetooth lab test has been pushed forward to TML !!!!!! AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
how could anyone bear with that ?

MAN... when i heard it, i'm like pissed off... haha.. I'm like DUDE !!! WHERE'S MY CAR ???? I wanna run and hide from those teachers.. they are so mean... haha... man.. its driving me nuts..
and amanda messaged me to remind me of lab test.. i'm like, dun talk about it... haha.. so all in all, i'm sitting for one unprepared lab test.. well.... see whether we can push back the test.. well.. it did happened before, and it may happen once again.. HAHAHA... but now the class is divided.. Gosh.. really miss those guys as well.. but man !! at a crucial time like this, there's no unity.. haha.. this is totally insane and crazy.. lol.. alright alright.. i wanna go study already.. cya guys !! LOL... ~~~

THIS IS DRIVING ME NUTS !!!~~~~~~~~~~~~

Live Life Five !

2007-05-25T00:26:00.000+08:00

haha.. i know everyone's talking about me.. Dennis, lazy to update... lol.. seriously, i do ok.. i really do !! lol.. last time i can write everyday, but now just lost the fire to do regular updates.. lol.. but hey, its great to know so many people comes into my blog, dun worry.. I'm updating now alright ?? HAHA.. and whenever i think about the students, i'll just get so turned on and excited ok.. Those people really brightens up my life.. I'm seriously, you guys rocks !! HAHA... i'm not trying to bootlick or anything, but its seriously true.. Teaching you guys had been one of my privilege and honor.. haha.. wad do you expect from a guy with just an O level cert dude ? Hope i make a great friend as much as a great teacher.. lol..

Went for the bbq on wednesday, gosh !! i thought it was like some big party.. haha.. you know like people dancing and eating... HAHAHAHAHA.. maybe i've let my imagination run loose a little bit.. haha.. but gosh.. everyone looked so emo la.. lol.. den i'm like looking at everyone, they've got those skeptical look, and everyone's feeling down.. haha.. guess it should have been their result.. but guess wad yun yi got first in class la.. lol.. sad for wad sia... HAHAHA... but guess she didn't expect it as well.. haha.. but i'm proud of her.. Happy for her as well.. lol.. She's been pretty serious with her work.. haha.. Great job.. I just learned this new word "GREATO !!!" haha.. its a japanese trying to say Great in English.. It becomes GREATO !!! Haha... sounds cool alrite.. lol.. but ya.. Ate 3 chicken wings.. haha.. And I finally got to see hong yin.. haha.. really thank you for inviting me down, really appreciate it, sorry i didn't join you guys upstairs, cause i was downstairs doing some stupid stuff... entered the gym and left the gym.. sat at the sofa and had a real good "discussion"... haha.. basically we just talked crap.. lol.. but its really fun ok.. its been long since i had the opportunity to talk crap.. haha.. and finally there's open ground for me to just enjoy myself.. wooo !! Thank God.. haha.. I've been pretty stressed up recently, but ever since i left school, many things happened isn't it ? lol.. well.. wad do you expect without cheoky around ? HAHAHAHA.. Well.. you people made my life.. now its my turn to spice up your life... LOL... its fun ok !! to hear all the stories and all, makes me wanna go back to my younger days... haha.. But great hearing so much from you guys...

Hey people, you guys ROCKS !!!! Rocking off my socks, my trucks, and my... my... Shoes ??? HAHAHA... anyway... ya.. you guys are just amazing.. its great knowing you !! WAHAHAHAHAHA...

WOOOOOOOOOOOOO !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Everytime i just think about it, i get so excited !!! LOL....

It finally ended...

2007-04-14T22:56:00.000+08:00

probably i wanna start everything from the morning..

7.30 in the morning, "Riiinnnnggggg !!!!!!"... you may have thought that it was my handphone's alarm.. but its not... my phone rang... haha.. hui wen called me and ask me go to school now... haha.. so damn early la.. lol.. den i told her that i was very tired and wanna sleep a while more.. haha.. and there was nothing she could do, so i went back to sleep.. lol.. i'm quite a sleepy fellow, just in case some of you dunno.. haha.. i love sleeping, but it doesn't mean i'm lazy ok.. I just enjoy every single moment sleeping.. its like a bliss from Heaven.. haha.. Its an art to sleep.. lol..

yea.. den i woke up at 8.30am.. quickly bathed and changed.. then my dad drove me to school.. lol.. but i forgot to bring my handphone, hahaha.... so my dad drove me back home and back to school once again.. haha.. but its fun.. lol.. had some father to son talk... men's talk.. haha.. den i straight away went to 1/2 classroom.. haha.. and the whole carnival was like so tiring... but fun la.. lol.. i spent my money firstly on a tatoo.. haha.. it is a picture of a skull with some vines.. pretty cool.. lol.. basically i was like slacking the whole day.. i did do some work la.. haha.. but its like 30%.. lol.. then i took a walk around to see wad was there.. haha.. den spent some money.. lol.. basically i spent them like nobody's business, as if its free... haha.. den i went back to classroom.. haha.. and i took some pictures with eugene and jie yang.. lol.. eugene is totally gay.. can't stand it.. really reminds me of ernest man.. haha.. I shall declare it one more time, Eugene is GAY.. LOL... and soon, jonathan an wei qi came.. den i brought them around to look at the carnival.. den played basketball as well, cause zhen wei keep asking me to play.. den we played lohz, and we won, basically it was like a totally unfair match.. 18 & 17 years old guys playing against 13 years old guys.. lol.. It was totally crap, so i played quite slack as well.. Jonathan was like so hot la.. chiong like nobody's business.. haha.. i'm like crap, they're 13 years old.. please have some welfare.. lol.. den after the match, went back to the classroom, wanted to get my tissue, but i cut myself, i left my shaver in my bag... LOL.. maybe now you know how i cut my finger.. some of you were like asking me la, but it was just too embarrassing to say the reason out, it was like a crappy reason.. haha.. but it was great.. lol..went to the first aid room to get some.. well.. basically, AID... haha.. got a plaster and wrapped it around my finger.. it was pretty painful and the bleeding was like so profuse.. didn't know that the cut can cause so much blood to flow out.. the whole tissue was like filled with blood.. den they said i had a nose bleed, cause the area below my nose were red.. haha.. but usually when i exercise really hard and when i perspire, its quite a common thing..i'll turn like red.. haha.. den basically after that, i wasl ike slacking all the way.. cause i was like so freaking wiped out and tired.. didn't had enough sleep and here i am exercising and tire myself out.. haha.. such insanity.. LOL.. but its great.. had lots of fun.. soon after, the rest of my ex-school and classmates came.. haha.. and we talked a little and took some pictures and they all left.. lol.. and i brought them around to walk and look.. haha.. went to the ice cream store... HAHAHAHHAA... the machine broke down.. all the ice cream are like melting.. LOL... New zealand ice cream... hahaha... making a loss... lol.. but i'm actually quite suprised many people still queued up for it.. people are like so desperate for it.. there is really a lack in drinks during the end of the carnival.. lol.. but anyway, after that took a few pictures with the people in the classroom, cause it was so boring.. need to take some photo to keep some precious memories.. haha.. and the carnival was like coming to an end soon, so i went to spend all the money.. lol.. went to visit 1/2 store to buy a diluted milo.. haha.. and went to 1/1 and ate some... some.... really weird marshmallows... lol.. it was first being dipped into a chocolate "fountain".. and later it was brought into a tray of really weird and pretty disgusting mixture.. and it looks like nuts, which almost drove me to nuts... cause the way how i saw the person make the thing.. I was like totally blown off in another manner.. haha.. i was like.. am i going to eat that ???!!! HAHA... but when i ate it, it was pretty delicious.. the marshmallow was very nice.. so i went to buy another one.. lol.. den i went back to class and esther soon gave me a few more tickets and asked to get drinks and food.. haha.. basically there was like nothing left there.. LOL.. so i bought melted ice cream and some brownies from 1/9 if i'm not wrong.. haha.. den i brought it back to class.. ashley ate the ice cream.. and wanted to give esther the brownies.. but she was like so busy... and after everything is done, i gave it to her.. she said she dun wan.. HAHA.. i was like diao.... totally !!! LOL.. but its so fun man.. haha.. actually i wanted to write a small note to everyone.. but i really didn't have the time.. i reached home at 1am last night.. so i really had no time.. maybe i'll sms you guys.. but i dun have some people's numbers.. crap.. alright.. i better stop.. need to do some things.. See you guys alright !!! please take care.. :D

I'll be back.. real soon.. believe me.. Please study hard.. and i will too as school is starting for me.. =)

It draws closer..

2007-04-12T10:42:00.000+08:00

Time is approaching closer and closer to the end of my current career.. dunno wad this feeling is, but it feels like i wanna stay a while longer in school just to spend time with the students.. Well.. The students are fun.. the job is not as hard as i thought, and it just great to be able to teach and spend time with the students.. haha.. Teaching is such a professional job.. I'll feel relaxed with the students around me, although sometimes they drive me crazy.. haha.. but its fun.. so so so much fun.. lol.. anyway, haha... some china people came to the staff room.. lol... den i had to pretend like i'm working.. and i had no idea why i entered into the NUS website.. probably, its a dream to always enter university and to pursue and degree and get my honors.. HAHA.. it sounds cool.. But I know its hard work.. But i'm working towards it..Hopefully I'll be able to further my studies.. Haha.. But now they're gone, so i'm really relieved... Lol.. They were speaking cantonese, so guess they may be from Guang Zhou.. HAHA... China men and women.. lol.. Wanted to appraoch them to speak to them.. But better not la.. later say the wrong things.. haha.. well.. let's get back and carry on.. lol..

Maybe recently i've been quite pulled down by many things.. haha.. its just pretty tiring, and sometimes, you just wanna give up.. haha.. but you can't.. so i have to just keep on keeping on.. i know its hard.. but i i really have to go on.. so people... if you're facing a real problem.. just face it.. if you wanna run away, dun take too long to run back and face the problem.. i understand how it feels.. but never runaway from it totally.. you have to face it.. we gotta come to a stage of maturity and know where you stand.. if its a relationship problem.. take it at heart, listen to where you heart leads you to.. dun rush.. I rather people face it, den runaway from it.. because if one runs away, the the other person won't be able to catch up, cause he/her has his/her own things things to deal with.. we're not superman or superwoman.. we're all made of flesh and we'll all go through things in our life.. face reality.. haha.. ya.. so recently, i'm really feeling kinda weary.. That's why it has come to a stage where i cannot lean on my own strength.. Its by His strength that I'm strong.. I'm now listening to a song called Every Little Thing by delirious?.. wow.. just a song in season.. the chorus goes something like "Every little things gonna be alright.." haha.. love the song.. lol.. hmmm... now in the staff room also nothing much to do.. next lesson is gonna be in around 20 mins time.. haha.. really looking forward to it.. AHHHH~~~ haha... just feel like screaming and walk a little.. lol.. so emo.. HAHAHA... but really feeling very tired.. haha..

Anyway, this week is Benny Hinn.. lol.. also dunno wad time i must reach there sia.. lol.. must be like pretty early.. haha.. if not cannot get any seats.. lol.. woooooo~~~~~~~~~~!!!!!! ok.. i'm tired liao.. haha.. ByeEEE~~

Schools been the last days..

2007-04-09T10:09:00.000+08:00

Haha..so great to have so much time while being a teacher, haha... it gives me good money, and it gives me much free time as well.. so i'm in the staff room, most of the time and well.. i get payed.. HAHA.. There's so many things to do as well.. This week will be like jammed packed.. feel that only today i would be free.. the rest of the week are fully booked, and this friday is my mum's birthday.. WOOO... ~!!! oso dunno how should we celebrate.. friday is benny hinn's conference.. sigh.. how ar ? I want to go, yet i do not want to miss the conference with benny hinn.. hmmm.. probably, i'll make arrangement, to go eat dinner on thursday.. lol.. den its after easter, there's many things to do.. haha... all i can say is I"M BUSSYYYY !!!! wahahaha... damn damn damn... i want to feel more relaxed.. haha.. hopefully, when i start school.. i'll have more time.. lolx.. cause this coming semester's timetable is really cool.. pretty slack.. HAHA.. not that i celebrate in slackness, but i'll have more time to do more things.. LOL.. alright.. write again.. i need to do many things.. haha.. :D

New Adventure..

2007-04-02T12:48:00.000+08:00

Probably Dennis never learns.. haha.. because people are crying and whining asking me to update my blog.. well.. i really do want to.. but sometimes, you just dun really get the feeling or the urge to start writing.. haha.. but anyway.. life's been... well... up and down ? I dun believe in a smooth sailing life.. lol.. cause everyone probably will face challenges in their life in different aspects of their life... sometimes, whatever you are trying to get to, it just gets harder and harder.. all i can hope for is that I'll overcome all obstacles and not ask that the obstacles stop coming.. It just makes me stronger and stronger.. and i like that.. gotta always grow from strength to strength.. but somehow or another.. i really miss some people.. especially my sec 4 peeps.. even back in Christ Church, it just brought me back to think all the times we spent together and how we really "irritate" the teachers.. haha.. and we had so many experiences together.. And it was just so fun, peeps that i'm missing is probably kyler, esther, shu ying, shri puki, charis, sherry, jie qi, jannah and so many many more.. its just so horrendous to live without you guys.. not that i dun have any other friends.. But its really those times that i enjoyed school life so much.. haha.. I know that its not gonna be back to how it always used to be, but we better not lose contact man.. gotta keep updating one another regarding our lives man.. and one day when we get married, it'll be like so CRAZY !!! haha.. i'm looking forward to the day.. maybe shri puki cannot find girlfriend la, i understand.. so to shri vicky : Do not rush, it takes time... HAHAHAHAHA !!!

I can still remember how i always irritate and disturb shri.. haha.. and he would always get so fed up... lol..

But recently, this relief teacher job is pretty fun.. i'm enjoying it every single moment of it.. although must wake up very early.. lol.. but ya.. its great ! you guys should try to be relief teachers as well.. haha.. its very fun.. and it pays you good money man... and cheap food in the canteen.. alright.. my stamina running low.. feeling quite bored already.. wanna go back home and sleep.. talk to you guys later !! miss you guys !!

Hey Hey hEY= !!!

2007-02-07T14:06:00.000+08:00

Hello fellas !! I know I know.. its been 4 months and its getting quite boring, but ya ya ya.. Been very busy and i really do mean very busy. Just completed my semester examination yesterday. And also went for my first leader's admin meeting last night. So cool !! Everyone feels and looks like a leader. haha.. its really fun. you guys should really rise up to the occassion and go take a look and experience it yourself man. haha.. you should really have the desire for such things. You must always have the desire to breakthrough. And you need to pray boldly in Faith about it. And then you need to believe that it will come to past. If you pray and still have doubt that it will not happen, then what for pray ya ? So we must always believe what we are desiring that it will come true. And after believing, you gotta work towards it. Faith without work is Dead. That's the message that i preached last June. One example that we can really take from the bible is the woman with the issue of blood. All of us should really have productive Faith. And the whole meeting was so good. So many things came revealing upon me. I saw a vision of God taking His heart and placed it into mine. And this verse saying that "Jesus came that we may have life and life more abundantly." Then I'm like totally blown away. And now I could have the same heart beat with the Lord. Everything I do, I would want to walk in His will. Sometimes we may have drift away from our calling, but really yesterday's meeting just straighten me up and put me back on my path. It was just awesome. :D

Pastor Ulf also just came last week. It was so awesome, especially saturday's service which he talked about the mission mandate upon China. Amazing !! We are all called to be missionary. And sunday, he talked about the upcoming charismatic revival, and he was preparing us for it. It was just so awesome and amazing. He really brought us to a whole new level as a church.

Cell group is gonna multiply on 3rd March. 3 days before my birthday. How amazing and on 6 march, there would be a combined churchwide PM. haha... Charlotte's group and our 2 cg will split up 5 ways into 5 cell groups. 3 new upcoming leaders coming. Here we come !!! Actually I dun really feel sad or anything, and yes, many things can't be the same. Everyone needs to have a changed and renewed mindset. especially those that are closer to us. And i really cannot start acting like any ordinary member. It just takes a step over the boundary. I'm really gonna miss everyone, but I think my heart has been set forth upon my calling, that's why i do not really feel anything. The bible says that seek ye first the kingdom of God, and all things shall be added to you. It will naturally come, i have no worries about it. haha. :D

Alright, got to go already, need to pack my room and prepare for my Year 2. haha.. see you guys ! enjoy ya ? oh ya.. 4/1 people, going out must let me know ok ? haha.. that time i miss the time when you all went to sentosa. sorry ar. exam ! haha.. :D

Take a hold of me..

2006-10-10T10:29:00.000+08:00

man oh man... i know it had been a long time since i've blogged.. lol.. maybe i've lost the fire to blog.. haha.. but dun worry, my ang moh still very good one.. but sometimes i feel the reason why i dun blog of some of the really hype up moments of my days is because we live in a broken down world.. bad things do happen to good people. always when something good happen, something not so nice will happen and it just spoils the mood to blog. haha.. and always, thinking of a solution is the head cracking part which you feel so tired if you have to go thru it every single day. so i thought maybe it was better if i just took a break and ignore everything. but.... anointed ignorance is still ignorance, and i definitely do not want to be an ignorant person. sometimes people do struggle with whether they should face the problem face to face or whether they want to just take a break and after a while, it may get better.. but wad i feel is that you need to know which season you are in. if you think you're in a warfare, den i encourage you to walk thru the valley. not an easy task, but you should know who'll stand victorious in the end if you just know how to press on and not live just for the sake of living. I recently read a magazine and there's a girl's name called Destiny. SUDDENLY, this word came so alive. I started to see what true destiny is.. If you want to know what destiny is, i have no answer for you. cause the answer is within you. but a few points to take note is, where do you think you are going? if you cannot even see where you are going, how are you going to walk properly, no wonder you are staggering on every step you take which cause every single day to be up and down. But of course, i'm not trying to say that you dun struggle with problems anymore. problems are still going to come, but if you just press on, you'll definitely overcome them. its about how you handle them, not how you see and watch them.. do something !!! dun just watch it.. you'll know it when the time has come.. Everything is in your mind.. Know it and you'll have control of most of the situations. probably sounds a lil complex for some, but actually its quite easy to catch.. its just all in the mind.. :D

Anyway, last saturday was our mid autumn festival celebration. It was so fun.. lol.. so many friends came and we took the wrong bus.. haha.. we thought macson's house was bedok court, then the security stopped us.. lol.. den when we called him, we just realised that we took the wrong bus.. den we walk back to tanah merah station den took a bus there.. lol.. den finally reached there.. haha.. den when we reach le den start le.. den we gather and we made lantern lohs.. lol.. den my group got first prize which is 50 dollars..haha.. under the generosity of macson's relative.. lol.. den later got the food competition.. wah... raymond's grandma was like so nice la.. lol.. eat until so shiok man.. not bad raymond !! good job.. lol.. den later we have to guess riddles.. haha.. their riddles quite easy la.. lol.. i think our one too difficult.. haha.. den very fun lohz.. lol.. but anyway, we went home by cab lohz.. haha.. then the someone stepped on dog poo.. lol.. which was like so smelly, i keep thinking it was me, because the smell was so strong.. haha.. but.. i know who is it.. but better not say..lol.. den the uncle in the taxi funny lohz.. haha.. say in the haze for indians rite, they cannot see each other, they only show their teeth to the others to recognise each other.. HAHA... super funny la.. lol.. den we gave the uncle a mooncake.. haha.. :D yup.. it was super fun.. den actually sunday oso got event one, but see whether i got time a not la.. lol.. now need to eat lunch le, later got school.. haha.. see ya dudes !! take care.. :D

Sentosa

2006-08-28T15:21:00.000+08:00

haha.. wad a great day i had yesterday.. lol.. let's start from where i woke up..haha.. basically i set up alarm at like around 8.30am.. which i can always delay to around 8.45am.. haha.. but den received some not so plesant messages.. haha.. so i couldn't get back to sleep.. cause i was thinking about it.. and of course when something bad happens, you need to see to it and make sure that everything is settled and no problem arises.. haha.. so i got my brain cracked up like around 8am.. lol.. nonsensical man.. haha.. early in the morning ask me to crack my brain.. lol.. i oso sianz lohz.. haha.. so i just made a few phone calls to make sure that everything is ok.. den i went to wash up and bathe... den left le.. haha.. met up with pam and joanne cheoky.. haha.. it was drizzling a little la.. but i just walked la.. haha.. but joanne had an unbrella.. lol.. winnie the pooh i supposed.. lol.. so she kind of like sheltered pam for a few moment.. haha.. den we met up with the rest at woodlands mrt station.. haha.. quite a few was there already, cause we were a lil late.. lol.. as always.. haha.. den i went to bought a packet of snack and 2 cans of drinks for cat.. lol.. den soon after i came back, we left pretty soon.. haha.. den we took a train to outram park den change to NE line to harbourfront.. lol.. we spend some time there lohz.. cause we were waiting for everyone to arrive mahz.. haha.. den as soon as everyone arrived, including all the new friends, we left lohz.. lol.. on the bus, i was like ZEN-ing.. all the way.. cause i was like totally wiped out.. cause we reconfirmed everything on the previous night.. so slept quite late.. haha.. so was really tired physically.. lol.. so bought the tix, and took the bus le lohz.. den settled down near the bridge at palawan beach.. den we started out with introduction of everyone.. den i claimed myself to be sexy Dennis.. haha.. cause everyone had to think of one word to describe themselves.. lol.. den i'm always the one trying to be funny la.. haha.. den we started playing our first game called tarzan, jane and gorilla.. haha.. den got forfeit called muah chee.. HAHA.. funny man.. they had to soak themselves in the water, den roll on the sand.. lol.. den after that my group had to all go down and make themselves as "muah chees" within 50 seconds.. then lk pushed me down la.. alamak.. my phone still in my pocket la.. den drop into the sea.. den spoil le.. haha.. i needed my phone for ppl to call me for those who haven't arrived yet.. lol.. but never mind la.. hopefully i can buy a new and better phone.. by the grace of God.. haha.. den after that it was free and easy.. lol.. den we played water polo la.. haha.. so fun la.. lol.. terence lk and me all played well man.. we were like passing between us and a few others.. haha.. den ben also played very well.. haha.. water polo is fun man.. lols.. den after that we played wolves' dinner.. haha.. first time playing it, but i think its very fun la.. haha.. super fun.. den after that got 2 small kids come join us.. ang moh kids.. haha.. so cute la..lol.. but the small boy is so naughty.. haha.. den after that we played marketplace and also hide and seek.. lol.. first time i played hide and seek in sentosa... haha.. very fun.. den after everything we went back to eat lohz.. haha..some snacks and drinks.. haha.. den funny la.. alvin still hiding.. we cannot find him.. haha.. den after we finish eating, den he called us.. HAHA... den we went to play a little while den go and bathe le..

after that, we went to marina south to eat lohz.. quite fun la.. haha... but was really tired to eat.. lol.. and we also went to the arcade to play daytona.. lol.. and jaden played world combat and house of dead 4.. haha.. but cat and pam go and distract and disturb him.. lol.. funny la.. but i really had so much fun last night.. den we took photohgraphs with oranges in our mouth.. haha.. so funny !! whahaa !!!! :D

:D

2006-08-08T23:27:00.000+08:00

whoa whoa whoa.. HAHA.. Festival Of Praise(FOP) was superb man !! lol.. this is actually seeing Don Moen for the very first time.. second day I sat at the 3 row from the stage lehz.. whaa.. SUPERB man.. haha.. can see them so closely.. CCC band was also like shiok lahz.. Wild, cool, funky but yet still carry the anointing of God in the songs.. Man !! I wanna do something like that.. of course, that's a dream.. I'm now still studying.. haha.. but its ok, its good to dream once in a while.. its good to dream, but not to DAYDREAM !!! WAKE UP people !!! lolx.. But the first day of FOP was quite good, cause I manage to pull esther and charis along with me.. LOLX.. That esther ar.. a bit like backslided already.. Woops.. haha.. no la.. lol.. I keep saying she backslide.. haha.. like very bad like that.. then if esther got go, den charis oso going lohz.. lol.. den we met up with esther at woodlands mrt first lohz.. haha.. cause charis ends school late.. But I was very late meeting esther.. lol.. almost half an hour.. haha.. trump lahz.. lol.. no lahz, not his fault.. haha.. den esther violent sia.. message me until so fierce, also say she backslide liaoz.. haha.. That Chong ar.. must go anger management.. haha.. but we really had a great time lahz.. fellowshipping and doing all the stuff together.. and that day I dressed a bit like a small boy, just to suit esther's yellow tee.. if not i'll be like wearing black top and jeans.. haha.. but esther wore yellow mahz, den jeans with yellow top a bit gay for guy.. so has to change to canvas longs.. LOL.. den also saw "kimchi", jabez and their group of friends lahz.. haha.. how cool man.. Christ Church really revival man.. haha.. but maybe because its a Christian school.. LOL.. but anyway.. I really love the people in chr.. but not the principal and vice.. haha.. see the face wanna laugh one.. lol.. talking about ms FOO... haha.. you know the school magazine hor, she... LOL... better not say, you wanna know then go see the school magazine, the first few pages.. HAHA.. Er xin man... I see liaoz oso wanna puke.. haha.. den when I enter the SIS.. Joanne called me and told me her mum is lost.. but in the end she found le.. lol.. den she oso joined me for the FOP lohz.. haha.. the whole thing is just fun lahz.. haha.. den saturday night reached home like at 3am.. LOL.. cause I went to hougang to eat.. haha.. at around 2 plus sia.. lol... wad late dinner.. haha.. but enjoy the time la.. lol.. den took a cab home and reached home around 3 lohz.. lol.. den that night li ping msg me and ask me whether i going the morning anniversary session or night session (FOP).. den i got shock lahz.. she suddenly told me she wanna come.. haha.. Praise the Lord man.. He really provides.. then 17th anniversary was like superb lahz.. lol.. enjoy it very much.. pastor looks so funny lahz.. esp pst aries.. HAHA..den everything very fun lahz.. really enjoyed it.. den went to this prawn noodle shop.. and saw pst Tan.. den i was like... wahhh... pst pst... haha.. so near me.. lol.. but when we came, he was going to finish already.. lol.. den after that went home lohz.. haha.. spend some time with my family lohz.. cause they just came back from bangkok.. lol.. den had some great time lohz.. :D

Now school like already end sia.. most of the syllabus end already.. haha.. that's why monday can meet up with li ping and yi shan for dinner.. haha.. then they very funny lohz.. one talk alot, then the other so quiet.. HAHA.. den very funny lohz.. liping and cat like keep shooting each other in a very friendly way.. haha.. den i was like diao.. like that also can ar.. haha.. I just kept on laughing lohz.. lol.. but it was great spending time together.. haha.. Great is our God, and greatly to be Praised.. haha.. :D Wow !! Love you guys !! lol.. :D :D :D :D

Life's moving on..

2006-07-11T22:39:00.000+08:00

haha.. ok la.. finally i decided to spend some time to blog and talk about life.. lol.. sometimes juz a little bit tired and lazy to write.. haha.. anyway.. i juz completed my MST already.. anyway its Mid Semestral Test.. haha.. i never really study much lahz.. juz study a bit only.. lol.. but its really fun and exciting man.. first time test i like so slack lohz.. haha.. i kena decepted by amanda lahz.. haha.. she like my ex-classmate sharon lee lahz.. haha.. never study never study.. den in the end can score like 80+ or at least 70+.. lol.. she use tactic man.. decept me.. lolx.. den recently.. There was this oral communication presentation.. haha.. i did not really prepare for it.. and basically all i did was like picture intepretation.. my slides were like 80% pictures.. haha.. so it was really quite retarded and funny.. i was juz trying to be humourous when its not even funny at all.. juz act and laugh when the audience thinks its funny.. haha.. den i felt that it was pretty good especially for the first few groups.. well done guys.. the last few groups was probably we tired already, den dun have the strength to listen.. feel very tired.. haha.. but you guys did well too.. :D but teacher asked deva and i to stay back.. den she juz compliemented us and ask for our permission to allow her to enlist our names for the graduation ceremony speaker.. haha.. so i was like honoured lahz.. haha.. feel so special.. lol.. but really wanna thank God for the favour upon me.. heee.. :D

haha.. basically dennis didn't really watch world cup.. all he watched was only the preliminaries round of the 2 matches of england.. haha.. the rest i juz see results only.. lolx.. i even skipped the finals.. was juz too tired and i oso had to prepare for the DCS PBIL... haha.. i was late for it lahz.. lolx.. den jasmine never wait for me.. so fast go in.. den someone told me that teacher wanna penalise me for being late.. haha.. den i faster chiong in man.. lol.. but the train alwasy very slow one lehz.. muz complain already.. the driver should move a bit faster man.. haha.. den recently they always close the door, den open.. close den open.. waste time man.. lol.. always when i'm late den they must do such things.. haha.. but actually poly oso quite fun lahz.. but what i hate most is tuesday man.. 3 hours of mathematics.. can die man.. you guys never see me when i was in secondary school.. 1 hour i already complain like dunno what lohz.. haha.. den now 3 hours sia.. really can die man.. haha.. but still ok lahz.. still can survive.. if only my course no maths one.. haha.. but like all the courses got maths one.. lol.. sianz.. kinda dumb lehz.. haha.. but who cares.. its the government policies or something.. haha.. There's definitely more to life.. lol !!

Anyway, my beloved Cat has left for taiwan already.. sent her off today.. i've reached around 2pm.. and i managed to accompany her only around 10 mins.. haha.. den after that the rest went to see aeroplane fly off.. haha.. den i need to rush off to suntec church office to put the offerings and evaluation forms.. lolx.. i today so malu lohz.. i dunno where to put the offering.. haha.. sister grace always point to me there there.. haha.. den i cannot find where.. but finally i found it, its under the table.. lol.. den muz scan den put in.. haha.. funny man.. lol.. then after that i went home lohz.. reached home around 4+pm. . haha.. den practiced my guitar lohz.. lol.. cause got pm after that mahz.. so juz practice lohz.. den oso prepare some sharing.. but in the end never share oso.. lol.. cause we were running quite tight on time... haha.. but den the fellowship was quite fun lahz.. lol.. really enjoyed all the people.. oh man.. love you guys so much.. please pray for cat k ? cause she's not feeling well when she was aboard the plane and she even vomitted.. oh man.. feel so.... feel so... man.. can't find the word.. its like you can't describe it out.. haha.. its like a crunch in your heart.. haha.. yeah.. juz hope that she's having fun there and that she'll be able to take the temperature there in taiwan and hope she'll be used to the food there.. haha.. and of course, hope she'll be able to minister to the people there for the taiwan emerge.. hope that pastor jonathan and the rest will be able to meet up with her and take good care of her.. cause i believe they will take very good care of her.. haha.. cause i believed whatever she had sown in their life, she will definitely reap a harvest of manyfolds.. so... hope you take care of yoruself there cat !! haha.. hope you'll touchdown on singapore safely next week.. haha.. hope to see you soon.. lolx.. :D

today had prayer meeting.. haha.. i played guitar.. lol.. screwed up at a few occasions.. i dropped my pick.. wahh.. den very sad lohz.. haha.. but never mind lahz.. life still moves on.. juz gotta learn from experience.. haha.. so really thank God for the opportunity.. lol.. feel so tired man.. tomorrow must do a write up for the personal presentation for the oral communications... lol.. ok la.. i wanna go prepare already.. take care guys !! really love you too.. HAHA..

And i won't forget the patrick starfish.. !! HAHA.. love you too.. Bye bye !! :D

Lagging Dennis..

2006-06-13T13:43:00.000+08:00

HAHA.. sorry guys.. i didn't know you guys wanted me to update so badly.. as you can see.. i'm quite a busy man.. lol.. but.. i'll still take time to try to blog some nonsense out even if i dun have anything to blog about. guess wad.. pastor said that i'm an emotionally locked-up person. I dunno whether that's really true.. den my cgl asked me whether i have any secret sins, or even past hurts that i've not let go yet.. HAHA.. den i'm like... errr.. are you sure you're talking about me ? But i went back to really think about it.. definitely i have no secret sins.. LOL.. but past hurts.. I've let it go in a sense that i've lost complete authority over those relationships. But i dunno.. maybe people do change.. what would an emotionally locked-up person know about such stuff huh ? HAHA.. For my case, i always do what i believe in.. I dun really care about what people think. If you ask me, i can't really rely much on Man alone.. Cause the wisdom of man alone could never be compared to the higher thoughts that's above. But i dun wanna always look back at the past. I never liked history... HAHA.. WE really live in a broken-down world. I can't expect much from this. You can't always have great times every single moment. Cause there'll definitely be ups and downs in life that'll stop you from having all the fun. But that is just life.. Hmmm.. anyway.. just finished the emerge conference like 2 weeks ago.. lol.. it was just awesome and phenomenal.. HAHA.. got taufiq, got kelly poon, got jun yang.. LOL.. although i not their fans lahz.. lol.. but alamak.. the people around me all girls.. den they keep screaming and shouting.. esp when the junyang.. alamak.. HAHA.. Sun also came !!! WOOOO !! lolx.. and her new album was just realeased on last friday.. i bought it already.. LOLX... and pam entered the talentime finalists.. i'm very proud of her.. The whole thing was just phenomenal.. lol.. anyway.. sch is going to start soon.. and my exam us like really going to start real soon.. so sianz lohz.. haha.. i oso dunno wad to blog on lehz.. haha.. i've lost the touch of blogging.. lol.. i still remembered how i always blog so much.. HAHA.. dunno lehz.. liek suddenly nothing to really talk about.. haha.. oh.. i suddenly remembered.. that my cg is going to have a mini-emerge for the both cell groups.. HAHA.. i'm a leader for one of the team, and i'll be leading praise and worship... Alright man.. that's wad i really want man.. to lead praise and worship.. how awesome is that man.. lol.. singing to me is everything.. i really do believe that something is in me.. I really aspire to be a worship leader one day. Leading the congregation in praise and worship.. Usually your first step would be in choir, and then proceed to back-up vocalists.. and then to.. Worship leader i guess ? LOL.. not too sure.. but all i know is that its definitely not going to be easy getting there.. HAHA.. I love you guys ya ? take care.. i really dunno wad to blog on.. LOL.. next time got better things den blog k ? HAHA.. miss you guys alot..

Cracked Up !

2006-04-27T12:28:00.000+08:00

Schoo's started fro about 1 and a half week i guess.. tomorrow's gonna be the last day of the week.. and ya.. things aren't really going as smooth as it seems to be.. lolx.. but well.. i think i'm probably quite an optimistic person.. lolx.. i can still smile in times of pain and trouble.. kinda proud of myself huh.. haha.. maybe indeed.. i focus on the promises, rather than the problems.. so many things probably happened.. and i feel that some things shouldn't even happen in the first place.. lolx.. but never mind..its probably some misunderstandings and miscommunications.. haha.. as long as that issue doesn't bother me or being raised up again, i guess it should be pretty fine.. haha.. but ya.. one sad thing happened on Sunday.. well.. may not be sad for you.. but.. ya.. its quite a personal perspective.. haha.. erm.. my rabbit passed away on early sunday morning.. and my mum came crashing through my door with tears in her eyes.. i was still sleeping then.. and i was like in a shocked.. i thought to myself, wad happened ? And she juz told me the sad incident.. in my heart, it crushed.. but.. ya.. things just come and go and you will learn not to harbour on those thoughts.. we all need to learn how to give up at times.... life doesn't always flow smoothly.. i was like meditating on some things.. like.. if you're walking in trials and tribulation, that's a good sign.. as in.. Sin is pleasurable.. and if things doesn't look as pleasurable as it seemed, den it should be probably quite ok i guess.. But of course.. God has something better for us.. so i think we should come with a great expectation to Him and believe for something better.. But at the same time, stay strong through the trials and tribulation.. lolx.. And ya.. my role as a helper in the cell group also hasn't been very good.. you know ? sometimes you always feel that you are something, but others come to you and say you're not.. I always thought that I was a mature person, and i always see myself as a leader, but then.. haha.. people dun see it that way.. and i'm like... err... haha.. how true that sometimes things may not be as how it seems to be.. we live in a broken down world where good things may not happen to good people.. haha.. but still.. I thank God for everything that He has done.. haha.. So guys.. never ever look at the surface of matters, and never ever jump to your own conclusion.. cause that may cause a misunderstanding an lead to a sour relationship.. haha.. so just take note !! haha...

gtg now.. haha.. can't believe that i blogged in school.. lol.. take care ya you guys ! miss you lots 4/1 ! haha.. God bless.. :]

Crazy

2006-03-21T22:45:00.000+08:00

gosh... things had been going so bad that i dun even know who i am.. i mean.. like people around me.. i mean like really close ones, juz seem to shut the door.. and it seems like the past experiences juz start all over again.. this world is definitely so unfair.. how often are you give the opportunities to get angry ? well.. definitely not for me.. i'm probably deprived of anger.. and i've noticed that recently, i'm starting to lose my patience on certain issues.. and its really quite hard to vent it out.. cause there's no open doors.. try picturing a scene where it was snowing at night, and your mum shut the door and leave you outside of the house.. that's how it feels like.. and all you have is juz a torn and tattered blanket and a lamp at hand.. and you have to survive the night by yourself.. make the wrong move and you're dead.. ya.. that kinda feeling.. hmmm.. i dunno why, i juz got that picture in my head.. hmmm.. ya lohz.. its always the same thing.. you always feel like there's a hope somewhere lingering in the air ? and you always want to have what we call a miracle.. ya ya.. miracle do exist.. but when you want it, it dun happen, and when you least expect it, a miracle happens.. i just want to have a comfortable life that doesn't let me worry about anything that cracks my head around.. but a headache always come by when you always give me so many stuff which i have to make a decision whether i want to stay on the path with you, or whether i want to take my own path.. cause i wanna walk your path.. but your paths has got tributaries.. and you always make me guess which path you are going to take.. and whenever i make the wrong path, i regret.. cause it wasn't the path that you chose.. and i have to walk this lonely path alone and hope to meet you again at a link.. but i was juz wondering, wad if the path you had chosen could never end up in a link that we could meet.. and that means that whatever i had sow in you had all gone down the drain.. and i definitely do not like the feeling of it.. cause i never liked wasting so much time and effort in it, and all i know, it juz didn't tingle anything.. that means whatever i'm doing is dead, and i know that its gonna cause quite a big hole in me.. its really true.. you call me, only to get certain information and give assignments.. no further than that.. and its really quite crappy to know that you dun even sense anything wrong with it.. its like you live your own life and i live my own life.. and ya.. that shouldn't be the way.. you juz gotta know that sometimes whatever i'm doing, it had been considered carefully before making that decision.. but sometimes you juz dun seem to get it, and you always react like nothing happened and it really quite saddens me.. you juz come and go.. i do like your company, but den.. this has to stop.. i've been going through this over and over again.. its like never ending.. and now i have to make another decision, whether to cut the line and let you flow in your own river, or to continue to face this humiliation.. but ya.. i oso do understand that i only see things form my own point of view.. maybe you're facing some things in life too.. and i juz dun get you, and you juz dun get me.. and that's THAT.. quite frustrated about it, cause its not the first time.. it is happening simultaneously.. and its quite irritating to a certain extent.. but maybe its oso about my expectations.. cause i always have visions of wad's going to happen next, but instead, it always happens the opposite.. and that kind of feeling juz totally feel so screwed up.. you know, like how you always screw up in big and major events, and break the vibe that everyone is feeling.. that's how i'm feeling.. Ahhh.. juz so irritating.. cause i juz dun want to fall into the same trap again.. that kind of pain is unbearable.. and it always take time to heal.. and time would be wasted.. I just thought of this idea.. why am i always walking in someone else's tributaries ? and not someone trying to walk in my lane ? why arz ? Life is just so ironic and contradicting.. that even your closest friend walk out on you and you juz suddenly feel so cold about the situation.. and you always have to take comfort all by yourself.. I always walk my life in Faith.. juz hoping to find something that could give Love.. and that's where i had the aconyms FHL.. Faith, Hope, Love.. I always have to run back to that one person and asked him to place me back on my own path.. and its really like a cycle over and over again where i step into someone else's path and thing dun turn out well, and i have to start from scratch, Point A.. it is never ending.. and its so sickening.. Why is it always so hard to comprehend ? its always when one point of your life turns out well, the other part of your life juz got screwed up.. another example which popped into my mind.. its like you juz got a promotion at work.. and when you reach home, your parents are quarreling, even mentioning about a divorce.. ya.. that's the kind of feeling man.. and its really quite irritating.. and you are like thinking when will this ever stop ? Because there are juz so many things that i have to worry about and sometimes, some problems are not even supposed to be solved by me ? why does everyone always throw everything to me.. i need a break somehow or another.. i juz feel like moving out of house, and juz be alone, cut out from all my communication and juz ya.. be alone, and live a peaceful life for a while, and not be bothered so much about relationships, family, finance and stuff.. gosh.. its quite irritating. . why can't there be someone by my side and help me out, you always think that you're helping me out, but you're not.. you're juz not wise enough.. and i juz feel that you're definitely not in my league.. but..

The Feeling Of Losing It Away Seem So Unbearable.. But The Chance Of Holding On Seems So Slim.. And All I Can Do Is To Watch You Go By..

Maybe i should be like you.. someone with less words and more focus in the things that you do.. and you do seem to be quite strict.. and maybe i should be a person like that too.. hmmm.. juz wondering.. :__)

TOTALLY OFF-GUARD

2006-03-03T12:25:00.000+08:00

hmmm... haha.. you guys must be wondering where mr Dennis has gone to huh.. so long never blog.. well.. i've been so busy with NOTHING.. haha.. i had been going out with my cgm.. Fellowship with them.. lol.. then recently oso went to partyworld with yang sheng and ernest.. haha.. it was fun lahz.. lol.. we sang chinese new year song which was super hilarious.. haha.. i think yang sheng recorded me singing freestyle.. haha.. i listen to the music then anyhow whack.. haha.. but not bad ok.. but ya.. so much for the good stuff.. haha.. but there's so many things inside me that i wanna say.. But i really do not know where should i start from.. I'm really caught off-guard of everything surrounding me.. it juz banged... everything juz came by.. and seriously speaking, i'm really shocked by wad's happening to things around me.. hmmm..

First and foremost.. its really gonna be my posting to Singapore Poly.. I've been posted to Information Communication Technology.. I was so disappointed that i could not even enter Business.. gosh.. and then my JPSAE application oso wasn't successful.. i've put so much hope on it, but then ya.. it was so disappointing.. AHHHHH !!! No tourism for me.. and worse.. NO BUSINESS even still.. why... tp cheat my feelings.. call me for so many interviews den nv accept me.. haha.. think i so free arz ? lolx.. but never mind... i think maybe its all part of moving me into my upward calling.. haha.. :)

Secondly, gosh.. you guys gotta pray for my dad.. He went for a medical check-up yesterday and it was scanned that he had something in his stomach.. But next week, he need to go back to the clinic to check whether it is an ulcer, a growth or something.. so please pray for my dad k ? I'm like super worried.. but of course no one really sees it in the family.. haha.. but dun worry mom ! Dennis will stand tall in the family.. When everyone says no hope, Dennis will say "There is a still a beautiful path ahead of this family".. haha.. so dun worry too much mom ! :)

Thirdly, haha.. its really about me playing guitar during cell groups.. gosh.. i've been screwing up and breaking the atmosphere whenever i play praise.. and its really quite discouraging.. haha.. you should have seen my leader's face everytime i screw up.. haha.. i know it, but then i always choose not to look at her.. lol.. and i'll juz continue playing.. and later when we evaluate the cell group, then i was like oh no.. every week's praise cannot make it.. i mean, this shouldn't be the way.. its impossible that i screw up every single time.. sometimes juz wanna feel like breaking down and give it all up man.. but then.. ya.. my dream of playing in cell group was suddenly like shattered.. cause if every part of the cell group is good and only praise wasn't good, man.. i really do get put down.. lol.. vut ya.. Dennis always stand strong under every circumstances.. :)

But in some way, i still do feel excited about school.. cause i think its really going to be different lahz.. and i think i quite accept my fate already lahz.. haha.. cause all the other courses are like so difficult to enter lahz.. lol.. i oso dunno whether i should appeal a not.. haha.. what do you think ? but i oso lazy to go down to the institution lohz.. haha.. i never even stepped in SP before.. oso dunno how it looks like .. haha.. man.. ok lahz.. i oso dun wanna think so much lahz.. lol..

take care guys.. hey if you guys happen to see my post.. tag k ? Esp those taken their O's in 2005.. tell me which institute and which course you enter lehz.. haha.. =)

Happy Chinese New Year !!

2006-01-29T20:16:00.000+08:00

haha.. Kong Hee Fatt Choy.. Happy new year to all.. lol.. well oh well.. life's been pretty quiet huh ? Although things are happening to some of our lives, but i can sense that everyone is moving on.. :) that's really a good sign.. good news to all.. i've found a job and i've juz recieved my pay yesterday.. haha.. first time in my life i've held so much money on my hand.. haha.. i only work 8 days den got 475 dollars.. wahaha.. that's quite good money.. lol.. but then its quite torturing oso.. especially the times when chinese new year was approaching.. there was like two nights that we went home at like 4am.. wahaha.. that one is super scary man.. den some more everyday start work at 9am.. its quite bad lahz.. deprive me of my sleep.. lol.. oh ya.. i haven't said what i was working as.. haha.. i'm a multi talent guy.. during chinese new year period, I wrap hampers.. haha.. although quite "throw face" (for a talented guy like me.. :P).. haha.. but ya.. no choice lahz.. at least its a decent job and quite stable temporarily.. lol.. den now we are starting a new project for valentine's day.. They said that we are going to do like 2000++ bouquets of flowers.. whaa.. i think i will get flower phobia.. lol.. i dun really like the smell of the flowers man.. haha.. it feels kinda weird.. haha.. they said we are going to learn all the flowers name.. lol.. oh man.. feels like i'm going back to school and learn biology man.. haha.. and i hate plants in bio man.. lol.. and now they are like making me think back of my studies.. lol.. ohhh !! how irritating.. but i kinda miss school.. and i kinda miss you (whoever is reading this and if you know its you..) too.. haha.. i've been so busy with work that i dun have a life man.. lol.. everyday its juz work, eat and sleep.. no time for any other activities man.. quite pathetic.. and now i oso cannot work till so late le.. latest is 12am den muz go home le.. lol.. but working there quite fun one lehz.. can see the mediacorp celebrity.. lol.. that day i saw 2.. haha.. den got flamingo to see.. and quite a few other birds to see... lol.. that owner muz be like super rich lahz.. lol.. one day i'm gonna own a big big house man.. haha.. wad a dream.. lol.. and ya.. i'm gonna start playing as a guitarist during the next cell group.. wahaha.. yes yes yes !! one of my goals had been achieved already.. lol.. so ya.. anyone knows piano ? i wanna learn piano.. ok lahz.. quite lazy to blog already.. haha.. you guys have a good CNY k ? free den ask me out.. den maybe we'll have a meal or something.. haha.. take care ya ? cyaz.. =)

SLEEP ROCKS !!

2006-01-07T22:19:00.000+08:00

man oh man.. so many people's been complaining about me not blogging.. gosh.. like i know wad to write lahz.. lolx.. all i know is that i'm jobless.. and i'm sleeping every single day.. HOORAY !!! haha.. but sleeping is not bad.. sleeping is good for your health.. cause when you are sick, you take a rest ritez ? and when you wake up, you will feel better.. rite ?? haha.. so sleeping heals sicknesses.. WOO HOO !! wahaha.. i jux love sleeping so much.. lolx.. well.. for students out there who are studying in secondary school now.. i bet you're probabaly jealous and juz feel like punching my face right now.. haha.. i understand how you feel.. cause i felt it before.. haha.. but juz a piece of advice from me to you.. i mean.. TIME DO FLY.. haha.. trust me.. with juz a blink of your other eye, its the next year already.. lolx.. so.. study hard !! haha.. your time will come one.. SOON ENOUGH.. haha.. man oh man.. the o level results is said to be released on the 15th of February... haha.. i think now still not scared lahz.. but wait till that day come, haha.. everyone will be like so scared lahz.. I PROPHESY... haha.. sure got people cry one... lolx.. trust me man.. haha.. i can juz sense it.. lolx.. well well.. wad's done is done.. although i always say i not scared of the results ritez, but i think i fear it so much lahz.. lolx.. but den i remember someone once told me that what you fear will happen to you.. haha.. so dun really need to fear lahz.. lolx..juz need to face reality.. lolx.. what i get den get lohz.. i juz hope and I PRAY AND I PRAY that i will not break down if the result is poor man.. haha.. but never mind.. God is with me.. lolx.. YAY !! I'm jobless.. that means i can sleep !!! and sleep !!! and SLEEP !!! WAHAHA.. man.. does anyone has any job to offer this kind man right here ?? i mean poor man.. haha.. i've been looking for job.. got is got lahz.. they accept me, but i pang seh them.. lolx.. sorry.. that's juz me.. haha.. you give me low pay, i won't go.. cause its juz wasting my time.. i think that's juz me lahz.. haha.. cause i wanna spend my time with more purpose.. lolx.. man.. i think FORT MINOR juz totally rocks man.. M. Shinoda juz stole away all my ideas man.. if i really get famous one day in the music industry.. I think he's the second person that i wanna collaborate with.. haha.. the first person is BoA !!! lolx... i will find her no matter what man.. lolx.. i'll track her down !! haha.. cause in 'The Rising Tied'.. there's this song called 'High Road'... haha.. that was the kind of song that i wanted to do.. haha.. but Mike stole it all away.. lolx.. but its ok.. losing to such a talented man, i'm all cool with it man.. And i oso like "where'd you go'.. but pam likes 'Believe Me'.. haha..cause it sounds quite street !! lolx.. but i prefer like a song that describes life.. haha.. i oso like 'mockingbird' by eminem.. haha.. 'Kenji' is also another song that i recently juz started to take interest in.. lolx.. oh no man.. i'm starting to lose my voice.. haha.. this kinda time is quite torturous for a person like me.. lolx..

haha.. yesterday talked to kim till like around 2.30am ?? lolx.. den today got badminton in the morning some more.. lolx.. i woke up late lahz.. haha.. i woke up at like 8.30.. lolx.. when the training starts at like 8.30.. HAHA.. den i reached at around 9.30.. lolx.. cause muz bathe and eat and do everything mahz.. lolx.. so ya.. lolx.. alamak.. den yesterday we talk.. den she suddenly reminded me of the Russel Peter thing.. whaa.. pengz man.. lolx.. but i feel she can imitate quite well lehz.. her tone.. haha.. den we were oso differentiating between American and British speaking.. lolx.. den she was like singing too.. haha.. although she didn't want me to hear it, i still manage to hear a little.. haha.. sounded a little like a young girl singing.. den she said she sounded old.. LOLX.. man.. that's like totally opposite lahz.. haha.. den we talked alot of crap lahz.. lolx.. oso dunno how come can talk until so long.. haha.. but ya.. its quite an interesting conversation.. lolx.. den today went for badminton.. gosh.. so shiok man.. lolx.. i won every match that i played today.. haha.. den can help out in the sec 1 selection.. finally got the coach feeling.. wahaha.. den like quite fun lahz.. but ah.. now the badminton team like not united lehz.. haha.. got like quite a few conflicts between the members.. for example like this person dun like that person.. WAHAHA... i mean.. our first batch where got this kinda thing one ? lolx.. but its juz funny to watch them quarrel and "fight".. HAHA..

but actually today's blogging is not really to talk about all these lahz.. its like i noticed something about myself.. i'm like returning to the "old" dennis.. did anyone notice that ? I juz feel so uncomfortable with myself recently... i've been like pondering.. what went wrong ? why is this feeling so familiar.. only to realise that i've turned back to "old" self.. I won't say its a good thing, but i oso wun say that its a bad thing.. haha.. everything has got its pros and cons.. so ya.. but i doubt anyone noticed it lahz.. lolx.. alamak.. how ??!!!! its like when the good becomes the bad and the bad becomes the good... lolx.. do you get it ? haha.. maybe its juz a little complicating.. but ya.. please do take notice of me and i really welcome any comments.. please tell me directly.. cause sometimes i juz get out of hand.. haha.. so ya.. well.. that's about all.. i'm super tired.. and tomorrow i have to wake up at like 6... ??? LOLX.. take care guys.. see you real soon !! :D

Everything's NEW..

2005-12-14T14:01:00.000+08:00

hi guys.. i juz changed my blogskin.. haha.. its kinda stupid but ya.. lol.. well.. O levels is finished like so long and i've blogged only now.. haha.. sorry.. but i've been like lazing around for quite a while and there's nothing much to do too.. i juz like to fellowship with my cg members.. its juz fun.. actually there's so many to talk about.. haha.. maybe we're juz start from prom night.. haha..

PROM NIGHT

wow !! everyone looked so gorgeous that day.. especially the ladies.. haha.. but of course, you dun expect me to say that a guy is gorgeous ritez ? haha.. but ya.. everyone looked great.. only some people.. they looked juz a bit weird.. haha.. got one guy some more wore a tshirt and jeans.. i was like.. Err.. this is prom night.. haha.. oh gosh.. but never mind.. hmmm.. we took a few photographs.. i forgot to bring my camera.. can you believe it ? haha.. i was like rushing lahz.. 4.30 i still at home lehz.. i was playing guitar with my neighbour.. haha.. cause i was like waiting for my hair dye to "dry".. haha.. you know the waiting time thing ? haha.. ya.. den i was so engrossed in guitar playing, so i forgot the time.. lol.. and i was supposed to meet my friends at 5pm.. haha.. den i was like late lahz.. but when i reached there, no one was there.. they were even later lahz.. haha.. but never mind, i went to 77th street to find them.. haha.. den got one friend went to drink before hand.. den he was like "drunk".. haha.. dunno whether is real drunk or fake drunk.. haha.. he looked drunk to me.. haha.. lol.. anyway.. we took the train to orchard.. den we duno how to go lahz.. den we anyhow walk.. lolx.. den I saw Hui Lin and company at far east there.. lol.. den we finally saw the Yorke Hotel.. alamak.. so lc.. its the far far, end end, hidden hidden hotel.. haha.. den everyone was there already lahz.. lol.. but not bad lahz.. saw so many people.. its like so happy lahz.. haha.. den we waited for like so long to enter the function room lohz.. haha.. den we juz talked lohz.. haha.. den take photographs.. lol.. den finally everyone settled down.. haha.. den we were like talking lahz.. lol.. den finally the MC came up.. den i was like diaoz.. this guy again.. we always get the same MC one lohz.. our school signed contract with him huh ? haha.. den he talk and talk lahz.. den he announced that Ang Chee Seng could not make it because of some foreign matters to settle.. den we all cheered !! Lolx.. its hilarious.. haha... den finally the food arrived.. the cold dish was pretty good, especially the octopus.. lol.. never sit on the same table with Dennis, cause all your food will be gone before you even know it.. haha.. that's juz an advice.. when i'm outside, i eat alot.. At home.. i ALSO eat alot.. LOLX.. den some more my table only 2 guys.. the rest all girls.. den i was like YES !! girls tend to eat lesser.. haha.. So i was like excited lahz.. lolx.. den we eat and eat den got games lohz.. haha.. den i entered for one of the games.. haha.. den got one stupid key chain lahz.. cheapo na na man.. lolx.. give this kind.. haha.. but never mind.. not bad lahz.. at least got something.. haha.. den got man hunt.. lol.. i wanted to go, but den.. better not lahz.. later spoil my reputation.. i wanted to show them my butt pose lahz.. haha.. but.. no lahz huh.. got all the teachers there.. dangerous.. muz keep my reputation.. lolx.. so ya.. den after that got this disco floor dancing lahz.. everyone went high.. especially KYLER.. haha.. you should have seen her... so wild.. lolx.. like some kind cow girl from the western world of america.. lolx.. den i even imagined her wearing a cowboy suit sitting on the horse saying "I'll be back ! ".. haha.. its so hilarious.. lolx.. den after that.. i went back home.. haha.. didn't went to drink with them.. lolx.. juz not my style of life.. haha.. so ya.. overall it was quite fun.. And actually God spoke to me when we were having the disco thing.. When it hit the slow songs and sentimental part.. He spoke to me.. He said this, and i dun really mind sharing with you guys.. "Dennis, can you see that? This world is lacking of something.. Look deep into everyone's heart.." and then i saw it.. This four letters L-O-V-E.. and den i told the Lord that it was Love.. and then He said.. "Yes.. its Love.. So Dennis, if you can meet this need, I am going to make Heaven opened for you.. you will see a way that i am going to open to you.. walk in that narrow way, and you will see salvation in all your friends.." I WAS LIKE WOWOWOWOWOWOWOWOWOWOWOWOWOWOWOWOWOWOWOW !!! haha.. of course, i didn't act so wild back then.. but my inner spirit was like dancing in joy !! lolx.. its juz something good.. den Pastor Audrey reconfirmed what the Lord has spoke to me was true.. during the bible study lahz.. den she talked to me about love once again.. haha..so it was like.. YES !! haha.. yip.. that's all for prom..

ok.. since i've gotten into such spiritual things.. den let's enter into another realm of Spirituality... haha..

Phil Pringle & Robin Harforche Weekend Service

Well.. I went for service 4,5 & 6.. haha.. den on every service, something new came upon me.. haha.. on service 4, there was no altar call.. so it was more of preaching the word.. so i went there.. and i learned something from the Word.. so it was more of learning something new from the Word of God.. den on service 5.. ok.. this impacted me harder.. During the altar call, God gave me a vision.. A vision of me laying hands on the congregation.. it was juz something very powerful that hit me.. and i was like wow lahz.. haha.. it was juz something amazing.. and every now and then.. I would get the same vision.. of me laying hands on people.. and its really amzing if i was laying hands on people i know.. cause you'll be like so happy that people are being ministered by God.. and on service 6, it moved on to the next level.. God spoke to me.. You know.. we always wished and hoped that someone would come and lay hands on us and pray for us.. and when we dun get it, we'll get kinda disappointed.. So God spoke to me once again, He told me that the reason why Pastor did not lay hand on us is because we are not ready for it.. When someone lay hands on you, its like God is preparing you to move on to the next level as he gives you new revelation and new thinking.. And if you did not build your foundation right on God, and when the Devil attack you, you'll collapse.. so wad's the use ? It doesn't make any difference.. haha.. so ya..
And it came to Robin Harforche service.. haha.. oh.. wad a powerful testimony.. lolx.. and i brought my very very good friend Justin to church.. He was my primary school friend.. He's an anti-christ !! haha.. after reading the Da Vinci Code.. he became an anti christ.. but after listening to the testimony, I can feel that he is touched.. and he received salvation !!! WOO HOO !!! lolx.. yea.. you dunno how it feels to bring someone to christ.. lolx.. its juz great.. haha.. so ya..

Sentosa Outing with North Cluster and Prayer Meeting at Expo..

haha.. on the wednesday, if i'm not wrong 7 december.. haha.. we had our POS outing at sentosa.. lolx.. i never really entered the water lahz.. but got people pour water on me.. haha.. super cold lahz.. haha.. den we go there eat, play.. dance.. lolx.. and i sang.. LOLX.. it was juz fun lahz.. den we also build sand castle.. lolx.. den as always.. we took photos.. haha.. den we had lots and lots of fun.. den we go and bathe le.. cause some people need to work and some need to go and serve ministry.. den the rest of us went to Simei's Pet Safari.. haha.. cause pamela's crazy over that place.. lolx.. den we go there.. den we saw this super cute angora baby rabbit.. haha.. and it cost 150 bucks.. LOLX.. den pamela was like diaoz.. haha.. but it was really cute lahz.. lolx.. ya.. den after that.. we went to expo to line up.. lolx.. den have to wait for everyone.. haha. den we went to line up.. whaaa.. so many people ah.. lolx.. but we managed to get seats in the front front row.. haha.. ya.. den we prayed lohz.. until 10pm.. haha.. den sing the RAIN DOWN.. whaa.. sing until no more voice ah.. lolx.. sing so many times man.. den poor brother poh... haha.. funny man.. Pastor always give the signal to repeat chorus.. lolx.. den brother poh was like diaox.. haha.. but he still did it willingly lahz.. lolx.. so ya.. i reached home kinda late.. den my parents as always.. scold me again.. haha.. but nvm, used to it.. lolx..

Expo Service..

haha.. finally we had our first service at expo.. lolx.. i could not wake up lahz.. haha.. i set my alarm clock at 6.15am lahz.. haha.. den i dunno why i nv hear it lehz.. lolx.. den when pam called me.. "Dennis, where are you?" lolx.. den i was like coming coming.. haha.. den i quickly hurried up, change and brush my teeth.. i skipped breakfast lohz.. haha.. den i called Justin, he never pick up.. den suddenly he tell me he dun wanna go because he very tired.. den i was like.. WHAAA.. dun like that ah.. den Jack rejected my call so many times.. den finally he messaged me.. haha.. den luckily both came.. haha.. den my dad drove me to expo lohz.. cause i told him that i was going to be late.. haha.. den he drove me and justin to expo lohz.. haha.. den we were the first two to reach expo.. lolx.. den we went to buy some things to eat.. haha.. shiok lahz.. lolx.. finally can eat.. haha.. den we went to meet them lohz.. lolx.. its juz fun to eat.. wahaha.. den we queued up lohz.. haha.. den wait so long man.. lolx.. finally the door opened.. lolx.. den we got a seat in the centre row... haha.. den shiok lahz.. after service, we went to orchard cineleisure to eat BEEF NOODLES.. lolx.. so nice man.. haha.. den after that Cat wanted to go to heeren to get something for Sun and Dayan.. cause they had this dunno wad Sun Fan Club thing.. haha.. den they were like so excited lahz.. lolx.. den they dunno wad to buy oso.. haha.. funny man.. lolx.. den after that, we never wait for them lohz, we went home first.. lolx.. so ya.. den i slacked the whole day already.. haha.. so ya.. that's all lahz.. den yesterday i went to eat this indian restaurant.. whaa.. horrible man.. some more vegetarian.. lolx.. den i was like diaox.. no MEAT.. haha.. but the curry was nice.. den oso had fruit juices.. lolx.. den after that we went to play lan.. den go home liaoz.. Wahaha.. yup.. that's all folks !! haha.. take care ya ? and ya.. if you happened to come to my blog, and managed to read thus far, HAHA... please tag and tell me your bog address k ? cause i lost all the links as i previously said.. haha.. so ya.. take care ya guys ? god bless.. =)

O levels..

2005-11-14T11:19:00.000+08:00

O LEVELS !!! To worry or not to worry ?? That is the question.. lolx.. sorry guys.. not been updating cause of my o levels.. but ya.. this week i only got geography MCQ and history paper.. so can slack a bit lahz.. kinda wiped out from last week's major examination.. haha.. all the main paper.. it was easy.. but then wad i'm most worried about is that they'll moderate the marks and my grade will drop... ahhh !! how ?? i even dreamt that i've gotten 19 points !!! NOOOOOOOO !!!!!! I want 15 points.. So near yet so far.. i juz really wanna get this over and done with man.. i'll suffocate under Cambride's mental torture chamber if i go on like this every single day... lolx.. I juz wanna get it done, and trust in the Lord already.. I'm juz gonna enroll myself into bible college probably right after my army man.. can't wait..think of army oso sianz ah.. 2 years, wasting my time.. I want to do like some easy job man.. not those infantry.. i'll die man.. its so boring !! We need to get a life man.. Enjoy life cause it is scarce.. One day you'll never know !! GAME OVER !! haha.. get wad i mean ?? So i always dun regret the things that i've done.. lolx..

prom night is coming.. oso dunno wad to wear.. lolx.. den 2nd week in december going to China then to Washington DC.. got some thing to settle in my hometown.. man oh man.. so many things coming on by.. i oso dunno when i'll be coming back, if everything is settled quickly, probably 1 week is enough ? oh man ! den i'll miss church.. oh boy !! better rush things there asap.. come back, and its chalet period.. haha.. den we'll all play.. and have fun !! and soon.. NEW YEAR !! woo.. probably go for the countdown !! lolx.. gonna have some fun man !! and chiong all the way.. haha..

yea.. and recently i've been doing songwriting, music composition and picking up a few more instruments like the guitar and piano.. lolx.. i think the gift in me is really all about music.. i've oso been going for dance practices.. and ya.. its really cool.. one day i'm gonna hold a concert man !! lolx.. My music is gonna blow you guys away man.. Someone heard my song and cried.. woo !! wad do you expect huh ? bringing a feel into music.. are you feeling me right now ? haha..

ok guys... that's all.. since some people complain that i write so long.. so better keep it short and simple.. take care ya !! cyaz !! lolx.. :)

Girls On Top !!

2005-10-03T23:58:00.000+08:00

haha... sorry guys for not blogging.. was really busy man.. and prelims totally "ROCKS" !! lolx.. at least i can enter nursing course ? LOLX... wooo !! at least its poly.. haha.. i really did horribly k ? my L1R4 was like 27 ? Actually seriously speaking, i'm quite satisfied with my results.. you know why ? Cause i did not even touched my books at all.. seriously !! haha... i did not study a single thing for my examinations.. I was busy doing my D&T stuffz.. lolx.. And i always believe you reap wad you sow.. haha... so ya.. My D&T scored the highest among all my subjects.. if only i studied harder for the theory paper.. A grade "A" should not be quite a problem.. =) Actually seriously, life had not been really doing very well for me.. So many things had been occuring and i really dunno who to turn to.. cause even the person that i turn to is now facing like a crisis and a bad time in her life.. She's facing what i faced like 7 months ago.. i think time heals.. so i think i really need to give her some break to reminisce ? Its good to turn back and look at all the good times..HOW ??? haha.. really dunno wad to do man.. What if B Don returns back to Singapore ? I really dunno how things will turn out to be ? I wonder whether they will face what i'm facing.. hopefully not.. haha.. moreoever, i think... haha.. i really have no idea !! nevermind !! I have FAITH !! woo.. lolx.. Sigh.. Why always people around me are always the losing party like me ? This world is really so ironic.. why can't we be like so carefree and no problems at all ? but by asking for that, you know that you are like asking for the impossible.. all these things will always come back to you.. your past will bondage you.. you will face hesitation in the present, and also the future where we will face fear.. Temptations will come, and relationships will be broken down.. And sometimes we also face a lack of "resource".. How ah ? This world is like super evil lahz.. Really can't stand it man.. I've got many plans ahead man.. haha.. after my O level.. but then i still fear the O level.. lolx.. its like a life changing stage lahz.. lolx..got the prom night.. got chalet.. den got so many outings.. and i'm going overseas.. To..... CHINA !! AHHHHH !!! so many place in the world dun go.. purposly muz go China.. sigh.. want me to go there and harbour on my past failures izzit ? lolx.. some more go with my family.. die liaoz lahz.. i sure very quiet one.. i'll bound to reminisce.. I wonder how long it takes to really breakthru from this.. I really really wonder.. I remember Pastor saying that "If you wait for the Perfect conditions to come, it will never come, unles you take the first step.." If you guys dun really know me, i always have the talent and habit to predict the future thru visions in my mind.. But when you have these visions, you expect more.. and if those visions dun come to past, you will feel disappointed because of the expectations you have..I tried to stop thinking ya know? But it juz comes naturally.. you can't stop it..

OH BOY !! how arz ? my world is like circling round and round.. anyway.. something came into my mind.. do you think we can change the future ? because of something small that you did, do you know that it can change the whole picture? Have you guys ever thought.. If some events did not happen, what would be the outcome be ? It would be different too ritez ? I really wonder, if some events did not happen in my life, would the outcome be different ? think about it right now.. take some time.. lie down on your bed and think ? Can you see another vision or picture in your head on wad will happen? haha.. =)

And i love Bitbit !! haha.. he's my rabbit ! lolx... he's really cute man.. its time i help him cut his nails.. so long.. always scratch me.. naughty boy !! but he became my best buddy.. cause i talk to it like when there's no one to talk to.. haha.. den he will will stare at me like its really listening to me.. and because of that.. lolx.. i prayed a salvation prayer for him.. haha.. talking about salvation.. haha.. we printing class t-shirt.. den under the dogtown logo, i decided to print Dennis, Salvation in Me.. woo !! lolx.. Anyway.. my cell group leader said that i could preach well !! yeah !! haha.. and i need to prophesy on this coming cell group.. lolx.. looks like i really need to soak into the presence of God to receive new revelations so that i can discern on that day man.. now i know the real purpose of prophesying.. haha.. and i know wad is a successful prophecy.. lolx.. looks like i better take note man !! haha.. ok lahz.. i want to sleep already.. super tired !! take care ya guys ? i won't be updating quite often because of the O levels !! lolx.. anyway.. school now ends at 12.45 everyday !! woo !! shiok man.. lolx.. its my turn to call pam.. you know wad she did ? lolx.. she called me this afternoon when i was having lunch break.. den she told me she is going home and expect me to say wow... ok nevermind.. wow only wad.. den ah.. she keep pretending cannot hear and ask me to say louder.. lolx.. i say so loud already den she still say not loud enough.. you think wad, this school my house arz ? lolx.. scream here and there.. haha.. anyway.. i think church is really great man !! lolx.. it like so fun lahz.. thus, today's conclusion is, never laugh at someone who ends school later than you.. lolx.. cause i am going to end school by 12.45 and i am going to call her and laugh at her.. hhaa..bleah !! Xp

Life's Great !

2005-08-03T18:23:00.000+08:00

yo guys !! haha.. sorry for not blogging for such a long time ? had been busy with schoolwork and so much stuffz.. and sometimes didn't had the mood to blog too.. lolx.. but i think i'm fine now.. today is super depressing lahz.. haha.. my form teacher say that i'm sliding from my results.. whaa.. i hear that ah, i super depressed man.. I study so hard den you say i sliding.. lolx.. den i oso lost the motivation to study liaoz..its hard to comprehend either.. haha.. but i think now school is like quite interesting without the work part.. lolx.. as long as there are mock exams and difficult homework, i'll be like super bored lahz.. haha.. den dun have the mood to really do it lahz.. haha.. ya.. i oso like running out of topics to talk now ah.. lolx.. life's kinda simple for me now.. well.. that's good in a way.. but the feelings gone.. haha.. Dunno why either.. Just feel bored now.. lolx.. Anyway.. today is Lee Kian's birthday.. haha.. i wanted to wish him happy birthday but not till we were in mac juz now.. haha.. i oso dunno why.. but i feel kinda awkward when i do this kinda thing.. haha.. maybe i'm a shy person.. lolx.. you'll never know.. but anyway, ya.. i'm really feeling much better now.. juz wanna encourage those who are feeling troubled.. Have faith in God.. You definitely won't get instant results, but as time goes by, you will see that the situation will have a 180 degrees turn for your benefit.. haha.. You need to stay strong in your prayers and God is gonna bless you in a certain way which your naked eye can't really define.. Look deeper and you will find out ! Take care ya ? God is going to bless you if you put your trust in him.. With God, ALL things are Possible ! =)

Oh ya.. anyway.. i'm going for FOP this friday.. maybe saturday too.. lolx.. will depends on my schedule too.. lolx.. so if anyone wanna come along for the event please let me know.. haha.. so maybe we can meet up or something.. haha.. and.. Sunday is my church's anniversary.. would really appreciate and glad if you can come join us.. juz drop me a message or call me.. i'll be here 24/7 ! XP
cyaz !! =)

Keep moving on..

2005-07-09T11:11:00.000+08:00

hmmm... yesterday had my cell group.. oso dunno why muz change to friday man.. lolx.. i got tuition one lohz..den i nv go for tuition.. i chose god first... haha.. yesterday's cellgroup was marvellous.. the presence of god was really there man.. everyone was weeping and crying and moaning loudly.. its like wow ! the presence of god juz came and BAMMM !! it hit us.. i wasn't crying when everyone started.. but instead.. i opened my eyes and looked at every single one of them.. I smiled and thank god for touching people lives.. I dunno why i opened my eyes and smiled too.. haha.. its like i'm loosing my focus.. but everytime i see God moving around us, i juz feel happy.. that means that i'm not worshipping a dead god.. he's still moving and is still living among our presence.. It was really great man ! Den yesterday my cgl, sister catherine said this.. "I wasn't a very good counsellor.. Because all i ever said was, Our God is a good God.." den this kinda speaks to me when i counsel people.. haha.. All i could ever say is.. Have faith in the Lord.. Den Lee kian got kinda "irritated" by it.. he says that it doesn't really helps.. haha.. but wad else could i say huh ? lolx.. If you juz renew your thinking, Faith can bring you through anywhere.. Dun forget that Faith can moves mountains when you speak to it.. It was my brother's birthday last week.. and i sent a message to him and encouraged him that Faith is the foundation to all truths.. Have faith and God is gonna bless your life greatly.. Speak to the mountain and it will move whenever you ask it too.. isn't it great ? haha.. den during worship that time i oso got cry lohz.. sometimes i juz feel like crying every single time.. but i dunno why.. i would juz hold back.. But images do flash in my mind and it kinda disturbed me.. Its not about the recent thigs that bothers me.. I even had images that flashes when i was young.. What i didn't shared last night was.. The reason why i cried was because i regret living a life like my own.. There are so many people around me that supports me.. but then i juz ignored them.. I tried as hard.. but my flesh always wins.. its hard to comprehend.. Words can break a person's heart.. but it can oso brighten someone's day up.. it all depends.. hence.. i juz received a revelation.. its from ephesians 4:29-32..

29Let no corrupt word proceed out of your mouth, but what is good for necessary edification, that it may impart grace to the hearers. 30And do not grieve the Holy Spirit of God, by whom you were sealed for the day of redemption. 31Let all bitterness, wrath, anger, clamor, and evil speaking be put away from you, with all malice. 32And be kind to one another, tenderhearted, forgiving one another, even as God in Christ forgave you.

(Adapted from the New King James Version Holy Bible)

God is great !! Amen ? =))

Yesterday i went with Pamela, Alycia, Lee Kian, Qian Qi & Elaine to meet pastor Audrey.. whaa.. muz fly all the way to suntec tower 3 there man.. lolx.. super far ah.. haha.. den i nv go for d&t class since they say that its optional.. later wait until is compulsory hor.. den i cannot meet pastor liaoz.. i finish school at 4.15pm everyday lohz.. its like killing me already.. den go home oso very tired lohz.. den some more got so many homework.. its like killing me ah.. haha.. den pastor talked about the arise & build thing.. lolx.. a while only lahz.. den can go le.. haha.. i met chewie there oso.. lolx.. but when i came, she was about to go.. haha.. anyway.. ya.. it was like that.. oso dunno wad to write liaoz lahz.. i now oso feeling a bit bored already.. lolx.. den sec 2 juz came back from camp.. everyone is like telling me about it lahz.. make me jealous only.. haha.. we dun have any camps or anything ever since we step into christ church lohz.. the principal bias lahz.. haha.. always like that one.. never mind.. i'm used to it.. wahha.. take care ya ? cyaz !!

You Were Always There..

2005-07-07T18:15:00.000+08:00

oh man.. today screwed up man.. lolx... especially during biology practical test lohz.. only misread the instruction and took excess hot water only mahz.. den muz shout at me from one corner to the other mehz ? alamak.. make me feel so... errr.. malu... haha... but never mind.. i forgive her lahz.. she still new to christ church.. i dun blame her for not knowing.. haha.. Days gone by.. I'm really living my life meaninglessly.. I'm like driving on an highway.. juz keep driving where there's no ending.. i dunno where to stop.. or should i say.. i dunno where to stop.. should i ever make a u-turn back ? But they keep telling me to look forward.. I've been trying hard.. But its like i'm driving forward.. And while i'm driving, i'm thinking of the backtrack that i've walked.. And i know i should go back.. This ain't over yet.. I really tried to go on like I've never known you.. But you were the reason why i kept driving on.. you are like my fuel.. without the fiel, the car would never start moving.. how had this hapened.. the pasenger seat was never meant to be empty.. Physically its empty.. But i know, all these while, there's someone that is always there. A feeling that could never be described. I always have beautiful visions.. visions that gives me hope and motivation to move on. But then.. That was not it.. Why do you want to have visions that doesn't come to past ? Many images and future images appeared to me. And i feel that my talent is somehow related to this vision things.. My purpose is looking for me.. But i can't seem to grab hold onto it. WHY ?? there are many whys in my life... I can't seem to find the answer myself. Everytime i try to motivate my friends.. But i dunno why.. i juz can't seem to get two parties to feel my presence at the same time.. That is the problem with me.. If i focus on party A, party B would feel neglected.. If i fellowship with party B, party A would feel rejected.. I've been facing all these during my secondary school years. And sometimes when you become mr. nice.. people kinda take advantage of you.. wad's the point of being mr nice even when no one appreciates it ? People dislikes you for being mr nice.. haha.. wad a funny world.. aren't we living in a realistic world where i thought good people are well liked by people.. who likes mr nasty ? no one ritez ? oh man.. i really dunno wad's up in my life.. Do you know i get goosebumps when i watched initial d.. people were laughing at the movie, but i was getting goosebumps and smiled reluctantly with them.. hello ? its initial d.. why would anyone gets goosebump when watching that show ? its such a good show.. haiz.. the song "一路向北“really inspires me.. i'm trying hard.. but i know.. its never gonna be possible.. The impact is too deep. the scar is still there.. i can cover it, but in reality, it's still gonna be there.. I got the analogy of the driving thing from the show initial d... watching how the father and son work together was really great man.. if only my dad was like that.. passing down some talents and skills down.. But i know.. Pride always comes before a destruction.. i really hope i could do something man.. Help me lord !! i'm getting dry.. and i'm living a day by day basis.. i dunno where i'm going.. sigh.. after watching the show.. i realised that good endings do not always come by.. SO MUCH FOR MY HAPPY ENDING !!

School starts..

2005-06-30T18:37:00.000+08:00

woo.. school start liaoz.. den i've been very busy with some of my schedule.. lolx.. everyday now my schools ends at 4.15.. shiok ritez ? lolx.. actually i'm kinda enjoying it lohz.. now school like not so sianz le.. haha.. i feel more relaxed lehz.. haha.. oso dunno why.. wahaha.. den now we got lunch break.. but den our recess change le.. now we are with sec 3.. sad man.. haha.. sec 3 i oso dunno much people.. den cannot disturb ashley le.. haha.. lolx.. oso dun think will have the chance to see him anymore.. lolx.. hmmm... juz feel that there is something missing in my life.. but i always try not to think about it.. but sometimes this kinda thing cannot control one.. its like stick onto your memories.. lolx.. these few days i oso quite high in class lahz.. lolx.. always sing song and rapping in class.. haha.. I always sing "Mockingbird", "We Believe", "At The Beginning".. haha.. its by eminem, good charlotte, donna lewis & Richard Marx respectively.. haha.. very fun man.. lolx.. i think the most shiok is mockingbird lohz.. haha.. but the funniest is we believe.. lolx.. they always ask me to sing.. haha.. den the song in the beginning is a duet song de mahz.. so usually i never sing in school lahz.. only once in a while.. but i always sing it at home.. i really love that song.. got the "feeling" ya know.. that's what i'm talking about man.. when you sing, you need those kind of feeling.. It is those songs that really inspire you to continue to sing and to write and compose new lyrics and song.. so i'm trying to grab the feeling from that song.. but now i'm missing a female singer.. so its really hard for me to really grab it.. lolx.. i need someone with passion.. lolx.. i might try approaching liyuan bong or ignasia bong.. haha.. but their voice still needs some polishing.. my voice also change liaoz lahz.. it turns out that i now like "ah du".. my voice is a bit coarse now.. serious !! my voice really changes and i have to change my style of singing.. but i think the foundation is still there lahz.. haha.. den i oso dunno whether wanna perform for teacher's day a not.. lolx.. unless i really do some people who wanna collaberate together with me.. haha.. interested party, please contact me.. haha.. not much time to consider oso.. lolx.. so i dun really blame you guys if you can't decide.. haha..

whaa.. yesterday i was fasting lahz.. lolx.. the whole church was fasting for the arise and build thing.. lolx.. den everyone was like tempting me lahz.. haha.. whaa.. so shiok lehz... lolx.. den i wanna drink so many things oso cannot.. eat oso cannot, drink oso cannot.. all i can do is drink water to bloat myself.. lolx.. can die man.. haha.. den yesterday i was like suffering lahz.. lolx.. so i use sleep to overcome the hunger.. haha.. but at night i oso cannot sleep.. wahaha.. kinda crappy lahz.. haha.. so i keep turning around my bed and struggling to sleep.. lolx.. den this morning i wake up and chiong man.. haha.. eat 3 loaves of gaerlic bread, 2 sausages and scrambled eggs.. not much time to eat mahz.. so no choice.. haha.. den go school eat one big bowl of fish meat bee hoon and a plate of spaghetti.. lolx.. den later drink 5 packets of milo and lots of biscuits.. wahaha.. its to cover up for yesterday loss.. haha.. so no choice.. lolx.. i really can die without food man.. i now enjoy food a lot.. and appreciate them a lot.. lolx.. so guys.. dun waste food k.. you all should fast for one day.. and see how food really affects your life den you wun waste food le.. haha.. i was like planning to eat wither half a chicken or a whole chicken.. but den my mother say i siao.. haha.. so cannot eat.. and i doubt i have so much time to finish it up.. lolx.. i think time is the main concern.. haha.. liyuan bong oso poor thing lahz.. lolx.. one whole day in school cannot eat anything.. den still got volleyball training den got bible study at YMCA.. haha.. den some more follow her friends to all the fastfood outlets.. lolx.. but she still not so bad lahz.. can have beverages like coke and stuff.. haha.. i only can drink water lohz.. suffering like mad man.. lolx.. i think next week got again.. haha.. wha.. lolx.. i always pray for strength to overcome the physical hunger and temptation man.. lolx.. its really not easy to overcome all those man.. haha..

Ok.. guess i'll juz write till here.. update my life soon ya ? when i have the time.. lolx.. tag at my board k ? haha... thanks guys !! lolx.. god bless ya.. haha.. take care ya ? these few days whether super siao one.. sometimes hot like siao den sometimes raining.. lolx.. but these few days kept raining.. haha.. cyaz guys !! God bless ya..

Oh ya !! almost forgot.. if there is anyone who has passion for music, can you please contact me ? haha.. as in singing, song writing, musical talent, dancing and whatsoever.. please come approach me k ? lolx.. really need your help.. haha.. take care ya ? God bless ya !! lolx..

Physically fit, Physically fit, Physically Physically Physically Fit.. Woman !! Nice sweet fantastic !! lolx.. I like to move it move it.. I like to move it move it.. I like to move it move it.. You like to MOVE IT !!! haha.. XP

POS

2005-06-11T12:02:00.000+08:00

whoa whoa whoa !! who's missing me right now ?? I'm feeling you guys right now man !! haha.. sorry for not posting and updating my life to you guys.. my deepest apologies.. i was really super busy man.. lolx.. so i hope you guys can understand.. lolx.. i oso dunno where should i start blogging from man.. well.. what i know is that i've been super busy with the POS thing.. POS is aka Parade Of School.. Its super fun man !! haha.. I juz love it !! wooo !! lolx.. made so many new friends and had so much memories man !! lolx.. lucky i've taken photographs.. haha.. you guys can go take a look if ya want.. lolx.. err.. if you want the link den let me know.. maybe tag in the board or something.. lolx.. haha !! yeah.. so fun man.. but i'm sick.. lolx.. at first got slight fever, migraine, den sore throat and now cough..and i lost my voice !! hence, i can't sing any song now.. haha.. so sickening man !! haha.. but nvm.. i think it was really all worth it, you know ? getting a chance to perform on stage for thousands of people to see, training so hard and have fun together.. it was really all worth while.. as i always say, it is the process that really matters, dun bother about the outcome.. really !! see where you've started off at, and look where you're standing now.. you will den know that you have grown.. so we should always look on the bright side.. although we did not get first.. but you guys will forver stay champions in my heart amen ? well.. juz miss you guys so much man.. haha.. now wake up oso dunno wad to do.. only can rot at home den hear mum nagging every single day.. haha.. so juz sick and tired of it already man.. lolx..we muz get a life man !! and tomorrow is the weekend service for EMERGE already.. haha.. i ask my friends den they like so reluctant man.. haha.. den give wad excuse that they tired and stuff.. haha.. alamak.. its not an easy job to evangelise man.. lolx.. i juz hope that we can all be saved and one day, we'll meet in heaven !! haha.. i really miss Emerge man !! haha.. all the fun and stuff.. especially the first night when we make up ourself that day.. wahaha.. so super fun man !! lolx.. den can see all the sisters make up !! super fun man !! haha.. i think that was my happiest day in this month man !! haha.. hmmm.. i oso dunno wad to write already lehz.. lolx.. now have to concentrate on O level le.. so sianz.. haha.. talking about O level.. Chinese sucks man !! hah.. the paper was like super tricky lahz.. almost everyone got tricked.. haha.. i juz hope that i can get a B4 at least lahz.. lolx.. anyway.. anyone interested in song writing ? i can get the lyrics out, no problem.. but what i need is music.. i need people with musical talent to compose the music for me.. den things would be complete.. anyone ?? lolx.. I might seek pam and her brother for help for guitar and drums respectively.. haha.. wad i need is keyboard now.. anyone ?? lolx.. guess i juz write till here le ba.. i juz hope that i can bring my friends to church tml for the altar call man.. haha.. Let's juz believe that God will use us to penetrate the marketplace to bring them into the Kingdom of God ya ? lolx.. cyaz guys !! interested to come to my church ?? haha.. please message me or call me.. tag on board oso can !! haha..

`~[D][C] signing out~`

phew..

2005-05-21T22:55:00.000+08:00

haha.. sorry guys for not blogging a long time.. been kinda busy with quite a few stuffz.. haha.. exams mahz.. so cannot really come and blog lahz.. lolx.. den my results oso not very good lahz.. lolx.. den i now oso dunno how to tell my parents.. later they'll gonna ban me from church or something.. haha.. den that is really gonna be bad.. haha.. so i oso dunno lahz.. i dun think they will trust me anymore.. lolx.. oh man.. i think i really got some explanations to do man... Alycia couldn't come for cell group because she failed 2 subjects.. her parents were not very happy with it.. oh no.. i think its gonna be my turn real soon that they'll ground me from church.. haiz.. why ah ? why i so stupid one ? no matter how i study still cannot do well one ? alamak.. i juz hope she doesn't stop me from going for POS.. if really so arz, i think a big quarrel might end up.. maybe whenever she talks to me about church, i'll juz walk away and lock my room.. haha.. i oso dunno wad to do lahz.. to prevent any quarrels, maybe this might be the best way.. haha.. but its like no respect for them.. i oso dunno wad to do lahz.. juz hope that everything is in god's hands.. i'm kinda weary and dry within me already.. den i'm physically weary too.. especially my left arm.. haha.. long story.. but POS is really veyr fun one lohz.. lolx.. woo.. didn't know i can dance so well.. lolx.. yeah !! i'm on the front row.. haha.. Veronica is my dancing partner.. haha.. so she stands in front of me.. haha.. but i'm like going to laugh man.. we got a lot of surprises for you guys man.. haha.. i was like shocked oso lahz when i heard of the things we gonna do.. haha.. guys, pls come and support me k ? haha.. people always say i can't dance.. haha.. or some people can't imagine me dancing.. wahaha.. maybe this is the time.. lolx.. but i think its really gonna be crowded man.. haha.. that's the think i'm kinda worried about.. wahaha.. but after this thing, i think i won't be participating in so much church events already.. gonna concentrate on my o level already.. and my parents oso dun like me to be so active in church because i alwasy return home late.. haha.. whaa.. i very scared they ban me from church man.. lolx.. juz hope that i can at least go to church on sunday lahz.. haha.. whaa.. den because of POS, i cannot go to genting with ernest, cheryl, lee kian and wei loong.. sianz man.. i want to go de lohz.. but den i've got practices for POS.. haiz.. will miss out so much fun.. haha.. sianz man.. lolx.. my o level chinese is on next monday.. alamak.. so fast man.. i really need to chiong my chinese liaoz lahz. so maybe a few POS practices cannot go.. i oso confirm not going for the first rehearsal le, cause i need to prepare myself for the O levels.. haha.. ahhh !! i damn scared man.. lolx.. the feeling is like PSLE like that lahz.. lolx.. ok lahz.. better stop already lahz.. feel like sleeping already.. very tired.. lolx.. take care guys !! need to sleep already ! got anything contact me k ? haha.. cyaz !! ciao..

Depressed..

2005-05-09T22:58:00.000+08:00

I'm totally depressed.. oh man.. i really dunno why things have to end up such a way. there is is definitely not a need for this kind of thing.. i dreaded and hope that i wouldn't have happened.. but it still.. first that and now this... its kinda driving me up the walls.. i really never thought that its so painful.. well.. anyway.. my song is done already... Probably still need reconstructuring and changing here and there.. but probably after the exams ba.. i finished it during my trip to and fro from church.. its a chinese song though.. hope those peeps who dun really like chinese song bear with me already.. next time den maybe i'll do the recording.. the headache part is the music part.. never mind..

爱情

这个世界只有你和我
自从我回来了，你就慢慢地离开我
不知不觉已过了两月
但是我还没有忽略，你对我的真爱

你的脸像童话里实现
可是你不了解，我一个人一直默默守着你

请你张开眼睛
这不是个游戏
如果你要爱情，就别放在心里
Baby won't you tell me
什么叫做爱情
如果你是真心，我将把一切送给你

你像一把火则住我
让我投入了这个迷惑
可是你还不知道我对你的真心
为什么你不肯原谅我
我到底做错了什么
If it have to be this way, then let there be no other way

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haha.. the song is repeated here and there lahz.. den the last part is the bridge.. dun ask me why i wrote this song.. i wrote quite a couple of songs previously.. but would juz leave them aside.. cause i know my songs all cannot make it one.. haha.. i'm now working on a worship song.. lolx.. I always start the writing of my songs with the chorus.. den i would work backwards and stuff.. its really fun to write songs.. haha.. of course if you have a passion for music that is.. haha.. I think i'm gonna try RnB soon.. make the music loop over and over again.. den do a rap.. wahaha.. it was always my dream to do a rap.. but its really hard..i really like eminem's lyrics.. although a bit "wrong".. but the lyrics has a deep meaning in it.. that's wad really attracts me to his music.. its good to write a song with deep comprehending of meaning in the lyrics.. haha.. some of ya maybe cannot read my lyric cause its in chinese.. so ya.. you have to install the language and region thing in ur com.. dunno can come find me.. but you will need your windows CD.. so find it b4 you approach me for help.. haha.. yup.. I'm feeling much better now.. look like music really gives me the power to move any mountains.. but it is usually temporary.. but nvm though.. take care guys !! cyaz.. god bless for ya exams.. talking about exmas.. my social studies die liao lahz.. very hard man..

depressed..

2005-05-07T23:34:00.000+08:00

ahhh.. why can't anyone understand me ? not even my own brother.. why can't you even give in to me for once ? everytime you come back from army.. whenever you see me, you would shout and yell at me.. when will there be a day when peace will ever come by ? do you know how much i missed you when you were in camp ? now how i wished you would stay in your camp and never come back anymore.. whenever you needed companion, i would be there.. wad about me ? when i needed you were you there ? you would busy sitting and your computer and ignore me.. you always put an act in front of others like we were very close.. but i know inside me.. i am segregated from you.. as some of them know.. i've written a song.. some of them already heard.. den someone came ask me.. why do you always like to listen, sing and write sad songs ? how do you want me to answer huh ? the closest person in the family has got to be my brother.. and now.. i feel like he's so cold towards me nowadays... Why can't you even give in to me for once ? you always treat me like your servant.. i've got to take things for ya.. run errands for ya.. do this and do that.. wad for ?? ALL FOR YOU !! but do you even appreciate ? maybe its time to step out of your comfort zone and try being in my shoes.. i really dun wanna hurt ya you know ? the reason why i give in is because i'm afraid that you would flare up.. i hate it when you get angry.. you would ignore me and i have no one to talk to.. no one to share my life with.. The worst part is you would start yelling at me.. That would really hurt me.. but i guess no one really understands huh.. how i wished i have a younger sibling who i can really shower my love upon.. but why do i have to be the younger one ? why ?? man.. sometimes i really wonder.. why always be mr. nice when everyone around you takes advantage of you ? i always see people with their siblings.. so loving and caring.. i've never really talked bad of my brother or anything.. probably juz a few.. but i dun think those are really significant.. i always wanted people to have a good impression of you brother ! but why ? and i got pesercuted once more today.. about some church stuff.. oh man !! i'm going crazy.. i was like happy eating my dinner.. den they suddenly talked about city harvest.. den they started on their own conversation.. so i really lost my appetite.. den kept quiet for the whole moment until we left the table.. oh man.. today was a really bad day man !! sigh.. why ? I had a very weird dream yesterday.. think i better not share.. cause it's kinda spiritual.. its very weird though.. haha.. take care people !! sigh.. God bless.. bye bye..

2005-05-04T20:17:00.000+08:00

haha.. very long never blog already.. lolx.. ahh.. this few days cannot really get to sleep man.. wahaha.. i've been sleeping at around 1 - 2 +.. cause cannot sleep man.. maybe i'm getting insomnia or something.. haha.. den ya.. nothing much to blog oso lahz.. haha.. juz sunday.. asked ernest and cheryl to come down to church... lolx.. damn funny lohz.. that stupid ernest.. come and disturb me during worship time.. haha.. better not say about it lahz.. but its very sickening man.. haha.. quite many things happen lahz.. but kinda lazy to write.. lolx.. yeah !! tomorrow is a holiday man.. that's so cool.. wahaha.. all thanks to the SYF participants !! Dennis hereby thank all participants of the SYF.. we really done a great job man.. lolx.. keep it up guys ! but we dunno what will the cca turn out to be after the seniors gonna leave.. wo0ps.. wahaha.. den ya.. oso dunno my schedule for tomorrow is wad.. haha.. den tuesday was the paper 1 for english and mother tongue.. haha.. i'm like so scared for the paper man.. haha.. the english one is the funniest one.. lolx.. they asked me to write about someone who had gone through great odds to achieve something.. haha.. den i wrote about this guy named Peter.. den err.. his parents looked down on him and despise him.. den his family was down with alcohols and gambling.. den one day in order to escape debts, they abandoned him.. den he was sent to the children's home.. den he had no friends and his teachers despised him.. after that.. he contracted kidney failure.. haha.. den had to undergo dialysis.. need money mahz.. haha.. den after his O level, he had to leave the children's home due to age limit.. haha.. so he had no shelter over his head.. den got one widow took him in.. den in the end, the widow died.. wahaha.. very tragic one lahz.. lolx.. den chinese paper was still quite ok lahz... haha.. OH NO !! wahaha.. my brother received an invitation from my school to be an IT lecturer or something.. oh no.. let's juz hope that he cannot apply for the application due to his NS.. woo !! lolx.. if he come to my school everyday ah.. that'll be like so siao man.. lolx.. i will have hell.. haha.. hope he better not come !! wahaha.. so boring lahz.. haha.. feel like watching house of wax.. but like got nobody to accompany me one.. haha.. so sianz man.. ok lahz... guess that's all lahz.. dun wanna write too long.. wahaha.. cyaz guys !! bye..

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2005-04-27T21:29:00.000+08:00

okok.. now really a short post.. later that pao cai complain again.. haha.. of course my o level sure no problem lahz.. better wish me good luck.. lolx.. alrite.. juz came back from the Parade Of School Dance.. haha.. So fun man.. learn so many dance moves.. and the cheer is a bit weird lahz.. haha.. but still ok.. lolx.. but really very fun man.. den after the thing den we went to JP's LJS to eat... whaa.. so many people man.. lolx.. but we still managed to get seats.. haha.. den eat le den went back home le lohz.. wahaha.. the funniest part was on the train back home man.. haha.. shiok man.. lolx.. we were like talking and laughing so loud.. we were like the COA.. (Centre of Attraction) haha.. so damn funny man.. Jacky did the monkey face.. it was like so funny.. haha.. den got another guy act with Jacky the caveman show.. lolx.. den that guy the english damn pro man.. haha.. unisex can let him say until unsex.. haha.. whaa.. that one can laugh until like siao man.. haha.. you never see jowell.. lolx.. laugh until siao man.. haha.. so exaggerating.. haha.. den went home with joanne and pamyloo.. wahaha.. den so sickening man that pam.. haha.. she keep pulling my hair.. wha lao eh.. damn pain lohz.. haha.. i only pulled like a few strands.. den she pulled one whole bunch of my hair.. wha lao eh... damn painful man.. another sad thing happened man.. today after school i went to play soccer mahz.. den i met jowell and pamela.. was supposed to meet them for POS wad.. alamak.. den i have to pay for their taxi fare lehz.. damn ex lohz.. 5+ lehz.. wha pengz man !! my money fly away juz like that.. haha.. die le lahz.. haha.. sianz man.. ok lahz.. better stop already.. cause i can like keep writing.. later that kim-chi complain so much.. haha.. alrite.. bye guys !!

Woooo

2005-04-26T17:55:00.000+08:00

haha.. so tired.. juz came back from school.. better write a short and quick one to update you guys how my life had been.. lolx.. well.. so far.. NO good.. haha.. very stress as exams are round the corner.. haha.. den so many tests coming up.. not really prepared for so many tests.. can die man.. lolx.. anyway.. on monday.. nothing much really happened in school.. we got 3 tests on that day.. haha.. den damn stress lohz.. lolx.. so we after school go de-stress... but after school oso got chemistry test.. haha.. I get 16/25.. Oh boy !! sucks man.. how can i live with this kinda results ? haha.. i seriously need to buck up.. i need my chemistry to pull my biology up.. cause biology is really hard..haha.. so ya.. after school.. right after the test, i walked out of class and ernest call me.. he asked me to go to causway point with them to ahve lunch.. haha.. so we went to pizza hut in cwp.. so fun man.. so much food !! so yummy !! wahaha.. den got people cannot finish.. so its yeah for me !! wahaha.. i help ernest drink the extra bowl of chicken stew soup.. haha.. woo !! lolx.. cool.. den got a lot of nice food lahz.. I ate Beef Lasagne.. dunno whether spelled correctly a not.. haha.. but it is really very nice man !! woo !! lolx.. den after we pay the bill.. kai meng found out that still got service charge.. den we have to pay him an extra buck.. haha.. he was like making a big fuss out of nothing.. lolx.. so funny !! den he accidentally touched.. oh nvm.. better not say.. lolx.. but it is super funny !! wahaha.. he was like blushing.. LOLX.. den we went to sports link and walk around lohz.. den outside sports link got 2 lesbian kissing and holding hands together.. haha.. den kyler and I was like hey look look !! lolx.. den its like so Ewww.. wahaha.. den they walked away soon after we stared at them.. haha.. den we walked around lohz.. den walk and walk.. den after all.. we decided to go home le.. den we took our own paths back home.. haha.. den kyler and I walked the same road.. haha.. den we were like playing throughout the whole journey.. wahaha.. den suddenly she asked me whether i'm a gentleman.. den she asked me to carry her bag for her.. haha.. so I had to carry it for her.. lolx.. den after a while.. I refuse to return the bag to her.. den she lied to me.. haha.. den i reluctantly gave her bag back to me.. Kyler !! you liar.. haha.. girls cannot be trusted.. lolx.. den today.. sherry cut my hair.. not one strand mind you !! Its like one whole bunch.. i was shocked ok !! she told me only one strand.. this shows that girls cannot be trusted.. and tomorrow i got Parade Of School Dance Rehearsal.. alamak.. oso dunno how lahz... she ah.. haiz... girls are not trustworthy man.. haha.. well not all lahz.. juz some.. well.. i'm not saying that sherry and kyler cannot be trusted.. they juz love to play.. haha.. naughty girls.. *shakes head*.. haha.. okok.. den today after school i played soccer till around 4.45.. den went home.. yeah !! i scored 3 goals.. during practice and match.. haha.. nice pass by ernest.. lolx.. yeah !! at least i scored.. very long never get that feeling already.. wahaha.. sianz man.. still missed the old sec 1/5 soccer team.. i think thats like the best team man !! wahaha.. alrite.. guess i'll juz write till here.. oh ya !! 2 of my toe nails oso bled.. cause the nails kind of came off or something.. its still intact.. but kinda loose.. but i can't pluck it out as it is very painful.. haha.. oh boy !! so guess i'll juz wait for it to drop out by itself.. this process is called moulding.. wahaha.. ok lahz.. better go already.. bye guys !! take care.. haha.. oh ya.. my cell group leader is pretty sick.. haha.. please pray for her.. lolx.. i fasted and prayed for her today.. that's why you guys never see me eat today cause i'm fasting today.. haha.. take care people !! exam periods around the corner.. haha.. buaiz !! =)

HmmZ/.

2005-04-23T00:19:00.000+08:00

how are you ppl ? haha.. sorry ah.. one whole week nv post anything.. got miss me ? haha.. anyway.. this whole week i was very busy with SYF and Live Recording.. so much stress ah.. lolx.. Monday got co practice.. den mr lee came.. den help us a while.. den until around 4.30 den go home.. haha..nothing much happened this week lahz.,.. lolx.. den tuesday got practice until around 4 den go home le.. den after that went for Live Recording Rehearsal..wha.. den end at 11.15pm.. den my dad came to fetch me.. den joanne and bao yi oso came along.. so we brought her home 1st den i go home.. den i reached home 12+.. bathe and eat.. so hungry man.. lolx.. den i take my medicine and sleep le.. haha.. so tired the next day man.. den i have to wake up at 5am on wednesday due to the SYF.. haha.. we were all very tensed up and so stressful when we reach SYF.. but by the grace of God.. We've got Silver !!!! yeah..you dunno the pressure that i felt.. haha.. any wrong mistake from my instrument and that's it.. haha.. but heng ah.. everything went smoothly.. although the percussion dropped something and the flute rush a bit.. haha.. but by the grace of God.. We still managed to get silver !! yeah.. haha.. den we're gonna get a treat from the teachers.. yeah !! haha.. den some more hor.. wednesday got POS meeting.. wahaha.. den after POS went for Live Recording.. alamak.. so tiring man.. lolx.. den thursday so tired man.. haha.. den thursday went home after schoool to sleep a while.. and den wake up and went for live recording.. lolx.. den went home oso very late lohz.. den sleep.. den today !!! so tired ah.. cannot wake up in the morning.. den my hair always no time to make.. lolx.. but who cares.. lolx.. sianz man.. nowdays nothihng much to do.. haha.. kiki is jealous that i am not talking to her and i am talking to jannah.. haha.. she said i was mean.. she said that i wasn't talking anymore.. haha..it was so funny.. den went causeway to look for a bag.. haha.. den went home to sleep.. lolx.. den wake up for dinner.. den rush for tuition.. lolx.. got test today man.. i dunno sia.. lolx.. die liaoz lahz.. haha.. den nothing much really happened lahz.. haha... den came home.. very boring.. lolx.. oso dunno whether tomorrow whether got chi remedial a not.. haha.. sianz !! cyaz guys !! bb..

boring..

2005-04-15T22:55:00.000+08:00

oh boy.. its so boring man.. today was totally so tiring.. CO has like taken up my whole afternoon.. and it was kinda boring too.. den school oso nothing interesting happened too.. lolx.. and school was kinda boring without sherry.. seriously.. but lizzie was there.. thanks for your concern lizzie.. but i'm really ok.. haha.. Life still have to go on ritez ? Things might not go the way we always want it to be.. How could we say forever when you know that there is nothing that last eternally except for wad God has given to us.. We definitely cannot compare God and the world.. its like 2 completely different thing.. haha.. it takes time to comprehend such stuff.. haha.. anyway.. my coach didn't bring my racket !! ahhh... its the second time already.. alamak.. alwasy like that one.. he say he busy.. lolx.. alamak.. so boring ah. today co end at around 6.45 man.. whaa.. den reach home oso around 7 liaoz.. den have to faster eat.. den still need to burn BoA's Best of Soul's album for one of my tuition friend before going for tuition.. cause he had been asking it from me since before i went to china.. haha.. i was like kinda busy lohz.. but i think i shan't delay anymore already.. so i quickly rushed to burn the disc for him.. haha.. den my dad drove me to the tuition centre.. lolx.. den reached there on time.. den only got 2 person there lohz.. haha.. so pathetic.. den after a while, people started strolling in already.. haha.. if i knew, den i oso no need to rush so quickly lohz.. should ask my dad to take his time.. haha.. cause go there oso nothing to do one.. haha.. still muz wait for everybody to come.. haha.. den tuition was until around 9 lahz.. reached home at around 9.15.. I was so freaking tired man.. haha.. but i didn't sleep.. cause i went to bathe and watch the 9pm kidney show.. haha.. very nice to watch.. but the ending not nice lehz.. haha.. den after the show finish, i went to shift my computer from my study room to my bedroom.. woo !! shiok ah.. lolx.. at least got something to do in my room now.. den more convenient oso.. but my parents didn't liked the idea of placing the computer in my room.. haha.. but who cares.. lolx.. wad's done is done.. I took alot of effort to unplug everything and shifting it from one room to another room den plugging everything back again.. tiring ok !! i was like perspiring and my hands even got black.. haha.. how disgusting.. lolx.. but anyway, now more convenient le. haha.. sianz ah !! nowadays nothing much to do.. juz slacking and sleeping.. really very tired.. but after next week's SYF, i can be free !! yeah.. finally man ! haha.. den today during co.. i oso borrowed 2 christian books.. from the school library.. it was a book on unanswered prayers., and the other was experiencing the holy spirit.. that book is really good man.. i glanced through it and saw that it was really good.. so i gave up one of the teens book.. haha.. den i faster rushed up back for co.. lolx.. den today after practicing.. Mr Toh showed us Northland Sec Chinese Orchestra standard.. he said that it was at least a silver standard.. haha.. their posture is really very good.. esp. the bowed string people.. haha.. its like a tree being blown by the wind to and fro.. lolx.. so damn super funny ah.. haha.. anyway.. their standard was really better compared to ours... oh no.. how sad.. haha.. anyway.. so far all the SYF has gotten a medal.. let's juz hope that on our competition.. nothing crops up and we should at least get a bronze back.. But we are aiming for silver.. But Mr Ang wanted Gold.. that is like super impossible.. haha.. you can tell man.. lolx.. although we participated in the mega concert, but it was like we squeezed our way thru one.. haha.. kinda stupid though.. lolx.. bu really enjoyed myself during the rehearsals and real performance.. it was so cool man.. wad an honour to be part of such an event.. haha.. anyway.. gtg soon.. need to do my quiet time soon.. den maybe read some books before sleeping.. haha.. I was reading the bible yesterday and this morning.. and i found out the the old testament's on Ruth was really very interesting.. it juz made me want to read on and on.. haha.. so guess that's it huh.. take care guyz.. blog another time.. God bless ya !! haha.. Xp

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2005-04-14T20:29:00.000+08:00

wha.. these few days so tired.. had been sleeping and sleeping.. den also my life slackened quite alot.. wanted to do many things but still never do.. the world is so tempting.. got tv and computer and music.. wha.. can die man.. everyday never do wad i'm supposed to do.. but i'm trying very hard to be on par with my schoolwork.. I think I'm improving already.. after my SYF.. even more shiok ah !! Free from any school activites.. woo !! haha.. but den.. that means more studying after all.. not that relax anymore.. but at least i'll have more free time.. that is so cool.. but i oso dunno how to spend my free time sia.. oh man.. its been quite a stressful month for me.. needed to catch up quite a bit after i came back from chi-na.. haha.. and also.. many things lahz.. needed some time to focus on my work.. haha.. woo.. now got the new msn.. very cool.. lolx.. anyway.. i today actually wanted to go with my class to the Jurong Island thing one lohz.. but den because of the POS briefing.. den i cannot go.. den hor.. today last minute tell me that the briefing is cancelled.. alamak.. sianz man.. den have to go with 4/3 on 21st i think.. haha.. sianz.. 4/3 i dun have much friends.. but i think sherry and lizzie is coming along too.. haha.. heng ah.. i wun be that bored after all.. lolx.. den today is oso the SYF for modern dance.. haha.. things doesn't really look good.. many told me that they made quite a few mistakes.. dun worry.. juz hope that everything will go smoothly for you people.. I think it is confidence that lacks.. during rehearsals and competition is definitely a completely different feeling.. its like my badminton.. during training.. we can play our 100%.. but when it comes to competition, we can probably only give in 60 - 70% of all our skills.. cause there is something in our human body called fear in our life.. this is affecting everybody.. so its really normal.. cause you are holding the name of the school and representing the school, hence causing your hormones to react and your anxiety started to gush through your body and your heart thumps as though a truck came crashing over you.. so dun worry too muh people.. its all normal.. even my 3 years of competition, that feeling never left me.. we will feel scared.. everything is different even at the same place.. The situation is different thus the effects of the outcome.. Dun lose heart if you did not achieve your goal.. Pereserverance is wad everyone needs.. it should not be a one person thing but a whole team muz have had this thinking.. Dun give up juz because of one failure.. Even up till now, i cannot forget the day when we lose to Ang Mo Kio Secondary School in badminton.. oh man.. everyone was so depressed.. the match was oso very complicating due to the wrong umpiring.. but it is ok.. let bygones be bygones.. Maybe some things you do have to let go.. This oso applies to life.. One man cannot have everything in life.. But one Man can have what he needs in life.. Believe that God will provide every neccessity in life.. oh man.. I better not get drowned in this.. Later the more i write, the more i fall deeper.. i could continue writing all night long.. haha.. alrite.. better stop lahz.. juz hope that everything goes smoothly for you guys.. there are defnitely hard times in life.. and sometimes indeed you are a little stubborn in life if you think about it.. You want to have what you think is right for yourself.. Comments and advice do come in.. But you only heed them when you've settled down.. really.. think about it.. How can you ever measure faith ? haha.. Cyaz..

Sianz..

2005-04-13T19:23:00.000+08:00

Oh man !! Why muz things really happened to me ? If i never opened the folder den nothing would have happened.. oh boy !! Me and my itchy hands.. I opened the chat logs that was in one of my folder.. wha sianz.. depressed once again.. oh boy !! Anyway.. school today was kinda tiring.. cause i could not sleep last night.. maybe i'm suffering from insomnia or something.. haha.. dunno why lahz.. these few weeks hor.. Been sick on and off quite a few times.. man !! I dun think that i'm that strong anymore.. Body's weakening.. oh boy.. I'm so crazy.. Anyway.. Today is my mum's birthday.. i wanted to find someone to accompany me to go and buy a gift for her.. but den no one was free.. hence, i went for badminton for a while first.. den went to causway point alone to look for something.. den i went in to popular den a book already caught my eye.. The word "Christ" is really significant.. Whenever i see it, I would surely turn my attention to it.. so i bought a christian book for my mum.. I think its God's Shoulder on me or something like that.. oh ya.. its for women too.. haha.. so its kinda weird for a guy to buy.. haha.. alamak.. den my racket which i ordered from my coach still haven't come yet.. die le lahz.. I play a while den perspire le.. My fitness level oso decreased le.. But what to do.. O level.. I cannot go for badminton le.. if not i can maintain my fitness.. I juz scared of my NAPFA.. Its next tuesday.. oh gosh.. Den next tuesday got the Live Recording in Church.. oh no.. gonna be so tired man.. whole day lehz !! Wednesday oso got the Recording thing.. Monday too.. Monday is the rehearsal.. wooo !! So exciting.. den tomorrow got the POS briefing.. I have to go.. so i cannot go with my class to the Jurong Island.. oh man !! so sad..so i'm gonna be a loner again if i go with other classes.. sianz !! haha.. Anyway.. I oso changed my blogskin already.. cause some people said that they could not access to my blog.. so i think its probably because of the picture.. Its down or something.. so i decided to change blogskin lohz.. haha.. not bad ritez ? I love this song man !! ONE WAY !! JESUS !! Wooo... Oh man !! So tired.. but still got many things to do.. I better be healed before the live recording man.. if not i cannot sing properly.. oh boy !! haha.. I love singing so so so much.. lolx.. Do you guys ever compose your own lyrics ? I think that's the best man.. You just listen to a song and compose your own song.. How cool is that.. You can even make the song to fit into the situation that you are in now.. haha.. that's why i love writing songs.. Maybe I should start on Christian Praise And Worship songs.. haha.. cause all my past works were sad songs.. haha.. I dunno whether i can enter the music industry next time a not.. lolx.. Its juz my dream.. But the competition is really tight... Dunno whether i can take the stress a not.. haha.. alrite guys.. gtg already.. i need to eat den do my hw.. Alot of things to do.. Still got my daily devotion or quiet time... I haven't do it yet.. so i got plenty of things to rush today.. so sorry !! Blog another day !! God bless you !! cyaz..

Enjoy the songs people !! I really like this song.. haha.. I love you pplz !! Especially YOU !!

Man !!

2005-04-07T20:19:00.000+08:00

oh man.. today's totally boring.. nothing to do one.. den nothing much happened oso.. can i have a happening class ? Everyone seems to be depressed and seems to be getting into trouble quite often now.. oh boy.. i'm gonna die like soon if this continues man.. Early in the morning during the 1st period i wanna die already lahz.. it juz spoiled all my mood during the maths lesson.. oh boy.. driving me nutz man.. i wanna faster go church.. the place where i can find rest.. i'm so gonna die.. maybe i should go for the stress management thing.. haha.. but i think dun want lahz.. i got co.. den SYF oso coming already.. oh man.. muz reach sch by 6am lehz.. i think most cca oso like that ? den 6.45 we have to leave liaoz.. alamak.. so sianz lehz.. everytime the phrase always appear on my mind "So near yet so far.." oh boy.. Some more yesterday i saw all the things that kyler and vera wrote on my history book.. oh man.. i'm so going crazy.. den i oso saw the comment that vera wrote on my history notebook.. alamak.. even worse ah.. not that all those are bad comments.. but its juz that it brings something back to me.. ahh.. you guys wun understand.. these few days had been studying like mad.. woo.. yesterday i was slacking the whole day.. oso dunno wad was i doing.. die liaoz lahz.. dun think i can accumulate my 20 hours by this saturday during cell group.. hope everything is gonna be alright for me man.. and yeah !! My cough and chest pain not there anymore le.. last time i breathe that time den the chest very pain cause i think it compressed my lungs or something.. but now ok le.. i prayed for my own healing.. haha.. yeah !! lolx.. ok lahz.. gtg le.. cyaz..

What should i DO ???

Oosh !!

2005-04-06T19:37:00.000+08:00

well.. wanted to blog yesterday one.. but it seems to be under maintanence or something.. so i never blog lohz.. Yesterday really very jia lat ah.. super depressed.. especially persecution by all my friends.. well.. some close one and some who i dun really know.. School and everything was still ok.. it was only after school that i was like super sad man.. firstly.. i kena persecuted by some of my soccer friends.. den that one not so serious lahz.. juz a bit disappointed only.. den after that some girls which i dunno who go and say wad dennis flirt.. i'm like wth.. luckily i dunno who are those girls.. but ys know.. so i wait for him to show me, den i'll juz watch my back whenever i see them.. juz wanna stay out of troubles.. you know i hate such stuffz.. den after that.. den i oso kena persecuted once more lahz.. dun wanna say anymore le lahz.. so tired.. but never mind.. blessed are those being persecuted.. I was very weary le lahz.. those girls juz spoiled all my mood cause everytime when someone criticize me.. I've got to do reflection.. Man !! I wanted to go buy bag one lahz.. wanted to go see one.. but den i oso no mood already lahz.. i go there and took a glance only.. den after that went to look at handphones cause my dad wanna upgrade my plan or maybe change my plan to M1's student plan.. not sure lahz.. so i went to look for phone lohz.. no phone interest me lohz.. i want nokia phone.. den oso wanted a flip phone.. but dun have any one that realy interest me.. its like the phone got all the features i need.. but no bluetooth.. den got one is got bluetooth but the camera not so good.. so i really confused at wad to buy lohz.. den dun care le lahz.. den we met kok chye and accompanied him to go and eat.. den we always steal and eat his food.. lolx.. after that den we went home le lohz.. alamak.. totally depressed already.. den i went to bathe and did my devotion and prayer.. i was like so distracted.. but i still finished everything lahz.. den i slept for a while.. Macson oso morning message me to remember to pray for Sisi and her baby. den i suddenly remember that about her situation... so i went home and pray that God will heal her baby lohz.. her baby has got 2 tumours on the head.. If i never remembered wrongly.. den i oso keep praying and praying lohz.. Sisi oso received salvation i think.. so yeah !!! haha.. but she very poor thing lahz.. juz hope that everything is in God's hands.. ya.. den i woke up and eat my dinner lohz.. den study for my biology test and do some research on the rice cultivation in india.. so ya.. after that i very sianz already.. den i watched Sy Rogers' Life Testimony.. so ya.. learned alot of things.. and many things started running through my head.. den i went to sleep le lohz.. the most surprising thing was that i dreamt that i was homosexual.. you dun really get these kinda dreams these few days.. its considered rare for a straight person to start dreaming about all these.. but I think Sy Roger really impacted my life.. Not that I am Gay now.. but you have to learn to respect and look at homosexuals juz the way as how you look at a straight person.. God doesn't abandon you juz because you are homosexual.. God still loves you.. There is a place for everyone.. I rememered him saying that he was in the military, 2 of his friends which was oso homosexuals, invited him to church.. And he went to fellowhip with the people there.. And his whole group was all homosexuals.. Can you imagine ? I'm like wow... I was amazed.. At least they still had the love for God.. His life story is really very cool.. you guys should check it out.. Sherry today oso told me something that let me pondered over.. Does angels have genders ? How do you know ? Does the bible state that the angels had no genders ? If anyone has the answer, please let me know.. haha.. its juz interesting to know such stuff.. But this world oso dunno becoming wad already lahz.. so many backsliders.. and some more got people make fun of Jesus name.. wanted to persecute him.. You know wad he said ? You know the Chinese dish "Buddha Jump Over The Wall" ? He go and change it to Jesus.. I'm like.. err ok.. very disappointed with how the world is thinking now.. that guy some more is a christian lehz.. but he swears and stuff too.. so maybe he's not really a very strong faith christian... Juz when i was about to persecute him.. Den i remembered about the girl that committed adultery and the pharisees caught her.. and they brought her to Jesus.. Den According to the laws of Moses, the woman should be stoned to death.. Den Jesus said something very interesting.. "Let those of you who have no Sin to cast the first stone".. Everyone was convicted and no one threw the stone.. Den Jesus picked her up and gave her a new beginning.. I will never ever forget this story.. Hence, i decided not to persecute him.. I juz kept quiet and sigh in my heart.. This whole world is changing man ! So disappointed with many things.. sigh.. Den Jes said that i was against her today.. but i wasn't.. i juz didn't have the mood to crack any jokes today.. so sorry.. give me more time.. if possible, i'll try to bring the old "dennis" back.. haha.. i'm like scouting at this world looking at everything.. and indeed, this world is full of sins.. It's time i start my evangelism already.. This people needs to hear the Word Of God.. I've already planned to fork out 40 dollars of my own pocket money and buy 4 bibles.. I'm gonna invite my friends den give them a bible.. that might make them come back again !! wahaha.. that was wad brother Don taught me.. haha.. tactic lahz.. guess i'll write till here.. sorry if i've not been online or busy these few days.. cause my cell group leader wants us to study 20 hours.. if not i cannot go for cell group.. I very scared of this kinda thing one.. I cannot leave without the church.. so i've been studying and studying.. So far i've accumulated 12 hours le.. still got 8 hours !! AHHHh.. ok.. gtg already !! you guys take care ya ? anything can come find me.. cyaz.. God bless ya..

sianz..

2005-03-31T20:43:00.000+08:00

woo.. finally my SYF is approaching.. so happy.. wanna get it over and done with man.. so bored with cca already.. Maybe the cca are getting a bit boring nowadays.. and i was having my mentoring session today and we were talking about the school having too many CCAs.. haha.. so ya.. Actually its really fun to join all the cca.. very cool one.. lolx.. you'll learn different things from different cca.. den very fun oso.. lolx.. Its even better if you are a leader in it.. you have authority over your members.. haha.. but I've never used my authority to take advantage of me.. but when i do that.. people step all over me.. lolx.. but den ah.. oso never mind lahz.. used to it already.. wahaha.. alamak.. got back my result slip.. oh my gosh.. i was shocked lohz.. science can fail arz ? den i realised that my biology marks teacher never add in.. so I got like an F9 for my biology.. so when my chemistry B4 + my biology F9.. I got E8.. wth.. so damn pissed off with the teacher lohz.. luckily by the grace of God, my parents never scold me.. I was like praying in my room before i entered my parents room and give them the result slip.. wahaha.. God answered my prayers.. they never scold me.. they juz say a few sentence den ok le.. haha.. Nothing much oso lahz.. lolx.. Alamak.. These few days I'm really getting from bad to worse lohz.. I'm really being segregated from everyone including God.. Did things that I shouldn't have done.. haiz.. den these few days because of homework den i got no time to do my devotion.. its like very wad lohz.. if i dun clear my homework den teacher scold me.. den if i never do my devotion, i will feel guilty and the presence of God wouldn't be felt in my life.. Juz very busy these few days lohz.. especially the speech day thing.. oh gosh.. make me stay back in school for dunno how many days liaoz.. den keep practising and practising.. so pathetic.. but anyway.. today's lesson before recess one passed quite quickly.. oso dunno why.. haha.. den history was a little bit boring.. so a bit restless lohz.. den mother tongue is standard one lahz.. i always slack one.. simply no interest for chinese.. den the teacher always say "Han wei, ni yao shui jiao hui jia shui jiao hao le.." den i'm like ok.. I wanna go home and sleep.. juz wasting my time there.. den after school oso got chinese remedial.. alamak.. waste more of my time.. stupid seh.. i find ah.. miss koh like dun really dare to shoot me one.. i mean she dun dare to scold me or something.. even if she does, it is reluctantly done.. lolx.. very funny one lohz.. its like always if two person is at fault and i am involved, she will scold the other person, she never even ask who is at fault lohz.. haha.. God is protecting me.. Hallelujah ! lolx.. den after school went to eat in causway point lohz.. still got wad else.. my beef noodles.. lolx.. den after eating we went to look around for lalita's present.. I mean belated present.. haha.. i got no time to go and buy lohz.. very busy these few days.. lolx.. den after that we walked around lohz.. den ah.. when we enter 77th street.. I saw something and i finally found out something too.. haha.. i'm like shocked.. but i hope you learned something.. guess you guys dun understand.. haha.. only i will know.. woo hoo !! I was like so happy when i saw it lohz.. at least it shows something.. Really appreciate it.. Thank you so much !! God bless you.. I will be praying for you definitely.. Take care people.. I'm still missing you even though i dun express it out.. Everyday after school juz hoping to take a look at you before i leave.. haha.. but den guess you've already gone unless you got MD that is.. lolx.. really would like to talk more to ya.. hmMZ.,.. take care.. bye..

lolp

2005-03-29T20:15:00.000+08:00

HmmZ.. yeah.. Let's talk back time ba.. Saturday was my grandfather's birthday.. So i have to go.. cannot dun go one.. cause i got the easter story to attend to mahz.. but i cannot go lohz.. i asked alot of people lohz.. den all sunday not free.. alamak.. so disappointed lohz.. but after a while ok le lahz.. haha.. den at my cousin's house nothing much to do oso lohz.. go and eat only lahz.. den i juz eat lohz.. den when i finished eating, my grandfather asked me to eat another round.. den i say better not lahz.. later not enough food.. den he stare at me and laugh and say sure enough one.. den i say better play safe den sorry.. so i tell him after everyone finished eating den i eat lohz.. den he reluctantly said ok.. but after that i never eat le.. The most scary thing that happened to me that day was when i went down to get a drink cause very sianz mahz.. den nothing much to do oso.. den ah.. whaa.. i kena shocked.. its like some kinda large gathering or something.. some more got some i very long never see de relatives.. den suddenly ah.. they all stare at me when i went to take a drink.. den suddenly they asked "Dennis, I've heard you got a girlfriend.." I was like oh shit.. Den I felt like spitting out the water that i juz drank.. wahaha.. den i juz say ya ya ya.. den i faster run to the kitchen.. den my tactic started.. i fake lahz.. juz use my handphone and pretend that someone is talking to me.. den i juz quickly walk up the staircase den run into my cousin's room.. Now is like the climax part where i cannot run away liaoz.. My grandfather came into the room.. Den he started to ask me exactly the same question.. So i juz had to pretend my way out.. i dun mean to cheat an old guy.. but i do meant well.. these kinda thing should not be a burden to them.. later i say everything out den i sure get counselling one.. my uncle studies psychology.. den he will sure talk to me one.. so i juz fake lohz.. den he asked when can he see her.. den i juz say she shy lahz.. den he say ok ok.. den he asked again where she stay ? Den i oso dunno wad to say man.. I had no choice.. den i juz say Yishun.. Luckily he said.. oh.. so far !! wha heng ah.. I heaved a sigh relief.. den suddenly he added a comment that shocked me.. haha.. he said if not far den i can go fetch her.. Wha.. I was like siao !! den i quickly reject say NO NEED NO NEED.. haha.. Den nothing happened much after that.. Went home den sleep le lohz..

Den Sunday got Easter Service at Singapore Indoor Stadium.. Den we met at 8.30pm.. But den I late.. lolx.. I reached about 10 - 20 mins later.. I had no choice.. I was juz feeling so uncomfortable within me.. So I did my morning devotion.. Hence, was late.. So I juz keep praying lohz.. haha.. den after that.. I chiong ah.. Den lucky no one scold me.. Got lahz.. But all indirectly shooting me one.. haha.. but never mind lahz.. Used to it le.. Den we queue up lohz.. Den wait and wait.. Wanted to buy something to eat one.. But think better not lahz.. So I juz queued up lohz.. Alamak.. Attributes sell one bible 10 bucks only sia.. I wanted to buy one.. Maybe for new friends or anything.. Wanted to buy the Contacts CD and his 2 books oso.. 10 bucks oso sia.. haha.. but in the end never buy.. Den I saw the wrist band.. Wanted to buy at first.. Den I see so many people.. So I decided to go out and meet my cell group leader for debrief first..Den go out lohz.. Den she debrief us.. den got easter egg exchange mahz.. Den exchange liaoz den received my April Devotion material.. den she talk to us for a while.. den after that she needs to talk to a few people.. so i went in to buy wrist band with jonathan lohz.. so went in i thought the crowd would decrease, but instead it increased.. den i went in den i line up for a while lohz.. den i bought a sky blue history maker one.. den Jonathan bought dark blue Giant Slayer.. I dunno wad to buy oso lohz.. its like the wording so nice.. Got WWJD, Livestrong, History Maker, Giant Slayer & One Way.. I dunno whether to buy History maker, Giant Slayer or One way lohz.. den Jonathan said he wanted to buy Giant Slayer lohz.. den i dun wanna buy the same mahz.. Den suddenly A lady approached me asked me want History Maker a not.. Den i juz say ok lohz.. cause got the colour i want mahz.. den buy le den go out and wait for sister cat lohz.. she talk very long man.. even brother Don came up and wait for her a while den went down again.. haha.. den i was like juz walking around and talking to a few people den started to rot there.. lolx.. den we went to suntec city to eat lohz.. Mac.. alamak.. so sianz sia.. den we took bus home.. den wait until siao man.. Took so long for the bus to reach Woodlands.. lolx.. Reached home at 6 plus man.. so late liaoz.. Den went home and juz used my computer lohz.. den nothing much oso lohz.. den time past so fast.. So i went to sleep lohz..

Den Monday oso nothing much lahz.. I juz went to school den do some of my hw which no need to pass up on that day itself.. den do until bellring lohz.. den lessons start.. den very sianz lohz.. den finally 2.15pm liaoz.. den bellring.. so ya.. waited for my oral lohz.. alamak.. i was like the last few.. so sianz man.. den i do my homework while waiting lohz.. den do halfway very tired.. den i sleep lohz.. haha.. den after that when i wake up den look at my Ten Years Series for some tips in oral lohz.. alamak.. i think my oral die liaoz lahz.. The picture was like crap lohz.. 4 person in a cable car eating.. nothing much to talk about lohz.. so stupid man.. at least conversation not that bad lohz.. haha... ya.. den went for CO.. den everybody like packing up den we go in.. lolx.. den after that Mr Toh practiced with us the part where we always blow wrongly.. den i juz faked that i also know how to blow den he believed.. lolx.. den after a while den he found out.. haha.. den after that chiong home lohz.. den use the computer a while.. den went out to have lessons with a teacher lohz.. Need to finish up some work.. den ya lohz.. we went to this wad little bodhi.. haha.. den we do our work there.. lolx.. den when time is around 10pm den we started to pack up lohz.. den i reached home at around 10.30pm.. And I bought supper.. yeah !! haha.. den i went home use computer and eat lohz.. after that den sleep liaoz.. lolx..

Den Today nothing much oso lahz.. school is like so boring.. its juz lesson and lessons.. haha.. so I go there like very meaningless like that.. No enjoyment.. So boring some more.. Den everyday I.. ahh.. never mind.. so ya.. nothing much oso lahz.. den after school juz went to gelare to eat ice cream with a few of my other friends.. den after that i went home lohz.. nothing much really happened.. haha.. Den i went home to bathe den sleep liaoz.. haha.. very tired mahz.. lolx.. ok lahz.. i better stop liaoz.. still got many things.. take care guys !! cyaz.. bye bye..

*sigh*.. I dunno wad is your plan for me.. But.. Let's juz hope that its really all in God's hands.. HmmZ.. Take care !!

PM

2005-03-25T20:27:00.000+08:00

Had prayer meeting today.. Den morning went to my uncles house because it was my cousin's birthday.. but too bad.. I dunno them well enough.. so i never talk much.. juz sit around rotting.. no one to message oso.. den i ate lunch there den go home le.. have to rush for prayer meeting mahz.. so ya.. went home lohz.. den they told me change back to 4pm meet.. so i slept at home for a while lohz.. my dad dropped me at causeway point.. to buy easter egg.. den in the end i still never buy.. cause too expensive.. so i went home lohz.. den later i met them at cwp.. den we went to alycia's house lohz.. den had prayer meeting.. And once again.. I was touched by the love of God.. So i cried.. But I had to hold back my tears.. Cause I was sitting right in front of my cell group leader.. cannot let her see i cry.. So i tried to hold back.. So only my eyes was watery.. but i quickly rub away.. so we continue to pray and pray lohz.. Cause when i was singing den images juz appeared and i was really very sad.. oh man. God !! Please help me..

Over !

2005-03-25T07:42:00.000+08:00

I still can't sense comfort in my heart.. And i'm even having difficulties to even sleep at night.. I woke up at a few intervals, juz crying out to God.. Asking God Why ?? You may think I'm mad.. But ya.. Its like the moment when i woke up.. I would start thinking of you.. I had no more tears to cry anymore.. But I think it hurts more internally.. I juz dun understand why you know ? why... ? Always people ask me.. Did you do anything wrong ? And I would always say no.. Den this morning God spoke to me.. He said yes.. you did.. You did not keep the promise that you have given to Me.. I know.. Maybe that's why it drove us apart.. It was because of Sin.. I think I told this to ya before.. But you dun quite get it.. Maybe I could share a testimony next time with others when i grow up.. Now is not the time yet.. But one day I will.. Cause God has really showed me that He lives.. Suddenly, i juz feel the sense of loneliness once more.. I still can't get over you.. Through the night.. I've been thinking, should I let go, or should i persist on ? But there are many factors to consider when you do this kinda thing.. If I persist, i'm afraid you might find me irritating.. But if I let go now, I know i'm gonna be brokenhearted and live a life of no excitement.. Memories ? Its too sweet to be a memory.. I juz can't let things go that easily after I've put in so much effort and commitment in it.. haiz.. i dunno.. Many things juz flashed back and I really can't let things go.. I'm still not sure whether I should approach my cell group leader.. Why ah why ah ? sigh..

Shattered !

2005-03-24T20:50:00.000+08:00

hmmm.. dun wanna talk so much lahz.. but probably today is a significant day to me.. I think everything should have a good start, and everything should have a good end.. Let's hope I could fulfill the good ending.. I dunno how i can tell her my last words.. maybe i could ask her to come in and see.. My thoughts are running all over me now.. i juz can't believe it.. I seriously can't.. phew ! wad a day.. pelyn pelyn.. ahh never mind.. Let's do this formal..

First things first, I would like to thank you for giving me such a great time in these 5 months. I can still remember the day when we first met. Remember you asked me to pass evelyn her handphone to her ? Guess that's when i first "really" saw you. I saw you a couple of times when you greeted Kyler. But still, i only met you when Jolene was talking to me and you approached. Then next, we had our first outing. We went out that day, with Jolene and Royston too. We went to walk around and do nothing. But settled down at the cinema, but could not catch a movie because Royston didn't agree on watching. So we just hung out at a corner. And we played with pads and pantyliner. I still can't forget that. People even watched us. Then we went home already, and you went home yourself. From then on, we never went out anymore. You even promised to watch a movie with me. Guess that promise won't come true anymore. Still remembered how we talked on the phone all night long, every single day. Quite extreme right ? But I think its good as we could maintain our communication. It really brought us closer. Then the most memorable one was our China trip.. Man ! You're the best ! You were the girl that gave me all my "first times". You were the first girl that made me held her hands. You were the first girl that lay on me. There are many things which was first time for me. And you gave it all to me.. Thank you so much! I've never ask anything more than these. And I thank God for all that. You turned my lonely life into something more exciting and something worth living for. Remember your christmas performance in Orchard? When i saw you, you made me proud. Your performance was great. A borned leader. Standing in front some more. You are really great ! I love to see you dance. Let's just hope that I could see you dance once more. Everytime i see you dance, it made me more assured of what I was doing. Guess all our talk on when we grow up perishes too ritez ? No more kids, no more bed talks.. Sure brings back memories! Why am I crying? This shouldn't be happening. I thought I never cried. But why ? I don't mind sharing this with everyone now. I had visions and dreams on what might happen. I always have happy images appearing in my mind. There's one image that could never go away from my mind. Its the one where you were in my arms and pouring your heart out to me. But I guessed that never happen ! There are many things that i actually wanna say.. But to protect the both of us.. I rather let it be a secret between us. I think I better stop.. The more I write, the more my tears flow. I thought my heart was a solid rock. But I guess i'm emotional after all.. Maybe everything was all my owndoing.. You will always be the princess in my heart ! Please take care and study hard k ? God bless you in everything you do. Let's hope we could be the best-est friend there ever could be. You know when we came down from the plane and you started ignoring me.. I was totally helpless.. There was no one i could turn to.. I could not even turn to my cell group leader as I'm afraid that might put you into trouble.. So I always tried to help myself.. But since you have no feelings for me anymore.. I thank you for the 5 months that you ahve given to me.. God bless you and hope that everything will be alright for you.. Hope we'll still talk as normal.. Not like now.. Take care !! I better stop already.. If not i'm gonna die anytime.. Let's juz hope that this relationship had changed you into a better person, if it didn't den its my fault.. I'm sorry.. I did not do a good job.. Juz wanna let you know that I've changed into a better person when I was with you ! Thank you so much.. You changed me into a better person ! I've experienced many things and one thing was sacrificial love.. I will never forget that.. Hope God guides you along the way and change you to be more like Jesus. Bye.. ='(

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Matt 7:7-8 Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you. For everyone who asks receives, he who seeks finds, and to him who knocks, the door will be opened.

Matt 6:34 Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day brings enough trouble of its own.

Phill 4:6 Don't worry about anything; instead, pray about everything. Tell God what you need, and thank him for all he has done.

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Really thank you so much for everything.. I was a happy person whenever I was with you. Still remembered my birthday.. when i was on the bus and you messaged me.. My face immediately lit up as the message came from you. I juz hope that we can now be true friends. One who really shows each other the right way to go. I juz hope that if there is anything bothering you, please let me know.. I will help you out.. I hope we could talk like how friends talk.. God bless you all !! Thank you everyone for all your encouragement.. Thank you so much.. Bye..

Poo !!

2005-03-22T19:46:00.000+08:00

alrite.. today was a crappy day.. nothing much during school.. juz the same old lessons.. den i oso have speech day rehearsal lohz.. it went out still quite ok.. juz the musical note, Mi, very hard to blow.. so i kinda of like skipped playing that note and continue.. den practiced the fanfare song in the music room for a while den ok le.. den i went for badminton.. stroke for a while den they "close shop" already.. so i have to go oso.. den i wanted to wait for her.. but.. ahhh.. never mind.. but in the end still saw her.. but.. hmmz.. never mind.. probably a blessing in disguise.. at least i got to see her ritez ? so.. ya.. be glad in it, Dennis ! Juz a bit disappointed.. but i think never mind.. maybe it takes time.. i dunno how long.. but.. One day !! I have faith that, that day will come.. I'm juz gonna hang in there until things get better.. but i dunno how if she keeps running away from me.. nvm.. i'll juz pray about it and see how God guides me.. humphZ... God Bless Me !! and of course those reading !! =) take care..

THANKS !!

2005-03-19T22:37:00.000+08:00

THANKS THANKS THANKS !! first thing come home den suspect me already.. you know wad ? this morning when i still sleeping.. my dad came into my room.. den he ask me about my test paper.. because there was one morning muz hand in the chinese file mahz.. den muz sign the chinese paper.. den as a kind soul.. i called home and ask my mum whether i can sign the paper on my own a not.. den she scolded me and stuff.. den nvm lohz.. i keep quiet.. den now they like doubt me everytime.. they always ask me whether i got sign any papers on my own a not.. den my father juz now scolded me lohz.. Ask me where's the paper.. how come never let him sign.. the paper is in school lohz.. i go china how you want me to take the paper ? i'm like give me a break can ? If i was really going to sign every paper on my own, do you think i would still call home and ask nicely ? i would juz take the paper and sign on my own accord.. oh boy !! my parents driving me up the wall.. den pelyn hit something into me last night.. maybe its really true.. think about it.. they juz dun want me to learn all the bad stuff.. yes.. they may not be understanding.. but they have the good intentions implanted on their actions..that's why i never look things on the surface anymore.. its juz an image which blinds the naked eye.. Deception is so despicable..

sianz..

2005-03-19T20:07:00.000+08:00

phew.. juz came back from cell group.. heng ah.. i thought my cell group multiplying today.. frighten me man.. its juz because my cell group leader had to help her boyfriend with some house shifting stuff.. so cannot come today.. so we went to sister irene's place.. den today talk about healing lohz.. den we pray for some people.. den that's all for today.. den it finished at around 4.30.. den we went to fellowship liaoz.. den i went to eat lohz.. alamak.. den that joanne steal my food.. thanks lahz.. my only egg oso let her eat already.. i'm like sianz diao lohz.. den Pamela say.. "Whaa.. First time i see Dennis so sacrificial.." i'm like hello ? she stole the food from me.. there's nothing i could do k.. But still.. i'm a very sacrificial person.. den after eating we went back to causeway point and walk walk lohz.. me, pam, joanne, kai ming, jonathan, alvin and a guy which i forget his name.. juz met him today.. he studied in indonesia.. den when he slang.. i oso muz slang with him.. this is call respect.. haha.. den we all walk and walk lohz.. i bought BoA's Best Of Soul Poster and Teenedge magazine which featured her on the cover page.. den ya.. actually wanted to play either lan or pool one.. but den kai ming no money.. he need to draw money.. but den alot of people.. so we never play liaoz lohz.. so we continue to walk.. until pam and joanne go cut hair.. den the guys left first lohz.. we can't possibly wait for them ritez ? later they take their lady time to cut den we wait until siao ah.. so i walked back home lohz.. One person alone walking home at night.. it juz made me think of you.. I was always a loner until you came into my life.. so thank you very much.. when i'm lonely, i always know wad to do.. my wallet is all i need.. haha.. Xp Hope everything turns out well between us.. God bless !

HmmZ..

2005-03-19T12:24:00.000+08:00

This was the first song that kinda touch me when i first stepped into CHC.. I could memorise it juz after hearing it once.. I kinda find my blog music kinda irritating.. so i decided to change.. At first i changed to Gu Dan Bei Ban Qiu.. den i saw a christian song.. den i changed to it.. its called "Worthy Is The Lamb".. den i browse and browse.. den i saw the current song that you are hearing now.. they got 2 songs.. My Source & Refuge.. so i was thinking which one to put lohz.. so i put this one.. Very nice.. Its like a trademark for me.. you should understand the lyric.. its a very melodious and soothing song.. Enjoy !! Going for cell group later.. dunno why today so special.. we going to sister irene's house for cg.. some more so early.. we meeting 2pm lohz.. we usually meet at 5pm one.. hmm.. muz be got something important.. die liaoz lahz.. there are many things happening lohz.. let's juz hope that everything goes smoothly for me.. hmmz...

Strange..

2005-03-18T22:46:00.000+08:00

err.. ok.. today was like so so lahz.. got good and bad things.. this morning wake up so early to go for badminton.. but den oso nothing much one lohz.. coach some more never come.. den i go there play a few games den go le.. too sianz already.. den i and a few friends went to vista point to eat.. they all juz go there to eat dessert.. den only i ate a course meal.. wad sia.. den after that i went home lohz.. den bathe and sleep a while.. probably around 20 mins only.. den wake up and muz prepare to go to school for chinese orchestra le.. i messaged her a few times in the morning.. den she replied me in the afternoon when i was having co.. luckily that time, they are practising the SYF song, so not my problem.. i was listening to my mp3 player and slacking around.. felt like sleeping but cannot, mr toh behind watching us.. so i juz sit on the chair and try to sleep.. but kinda impossible, not comfortable.. den after co, i went for the badminton farewell thing lohz.. den the coach and teachers talk to us.. den appreaciate the sec 4s and stuff.. den captain especially.. den i muz go up and give speech.. den i juz talk crap lohz, dun want to be too serious lahz.. cause everyone is having fun.. den if i suddenly say about wad their bad habits are, den like very bad like that.. dun wanna spoil the mood of the event.. so guess i'll raise the issue up another time.. at least i know.. i can put down badminton now.. its one burden off me le.. den some more mdm wan gave me a badminton shirt.. so touched.. den we all ate and had fun lohz.. but too bad i had to rush home.. got tuition in the night.. den my parents always rush me.. but i had to help clear up the canteen.. so cannot leave yet.. den my dad keep calling and calling me.. its like.. they dun understand that there is a responsibility to be taken.. i have to finish up job b4 i can leave and do something else ritez ? how can i possibly leave in the middle or something ? its not that i never prioritize my time.. but it is i prioritize my things way ahead of everything.. but my parents dun see it this way.. I think Kyler once asked me this question.. Wad's the most 3 important things in your life.. I remembered clearly wad it was.. cause it was something from my heart.. I placed God in the first place.. Followed by my family.. den the 3rd place was pel.. that was exactly wad i wrote to her.. den the previous day, my cell group member's grandfather passed away.. and there was a funeral and i wanted to attend.. but it kind of clashes with my tuition.. Den when i asked my mum about it.. Without a shadow of a doubt.. She juz screamed and yelled at me.. Ha ! I juz stared at her and walk away.. Anything related to church, it means something about God... and that is first priority in me life.. but they seemed to have this bias against me when i transferred church.. it seems like they dun like me there or something.. they always want me to faster come home and stuff.. like these how to have time to fellowship.. There's really like no one i could turn to.. except God... it is really prayers that keep me going.. i feel comfort whenever after i pray.. Guess my life is meant to be a loner.. I should have saw that coming.. But maybe i should fight against destiny.. since we choose our own destiny.. oh man.. Why muz things turn out to be this way at this kinda time ? Bad timing.. I guessed i'm not the only person feeling weary.. there are still many others feeling weary of certain things.. so Father i juz pray that you'll be with them, and strengthens their heart.. amen ! God bless ya people..
Have to wait till next week huh ? hmmmZ..

Right here waiting..

2005-03-16T23:55:00.000+08:00

hmmmz.. now you've left for malaysia.. hope that gives you ample time to think.. seriously speaking.. this was the first time i could not get to sleep.. i know i am tired, but it juz get stucked in my mind every single time.. i'm worried that things dun turn out the way I felt.. Many wild imaginations started crossing my mind, thinking how would you reply me.. but it juz didn't turn out the way which i thought.. That's why i say reality is scary.. I tried to think, wad would i do without you ? Nothing appeared in my mind.. i juz couldn't imagine my life without you in it.. its juz so hard to imagine.. thus, i've decided not to think so much.. tried to sleep, flip here flip there.. still cannot sleep.. den i was so glad you called me.. And after your call, it gave me some rest in the heart.. I felt some kind of peace within.. and i could sleep right after that.. I am proud of you.. you've grown ever since.. maybe you dun see it, but I saw.. The only way i can communicate with you is through God.. I juz keep praying and praying every single time when i felt i could not take it anymore.. and it'll give me a temporary peace.. and when things started to cross my mind, i will juz keep praying.. This was the 1st time i prayed so many times.. I juz keep praying and praying because i think prayers work.. God hears us.. I know that he knows the agony in me.. I always say let Faith decide everything.. But i still get anxious.. Everything in my world is like so crazy now.. one by one everyone is like leaving me.. I juz quarreled with my mum this morning.. she claims that i dun understand the family.. wad else could i say.. i juz quickly ate my breakfast den find my fastest way to get out of home and go to school.. den when i go to school.. i get to worry about something else.. its juz lonliness that fills me.. Sometimes you really wonder wad Friends are for.. Everyone has their own group of friends and i'm like trying to fit in, but i juz can't.. i'm like a social outcast or something.. I pray for your safety when you're overseas and hope you take your meals regularly.. I dun even know when are you returning to Singapore.. How i hope you'll return tomorrow.. So i could talk to you.. Take care !! I miss you so so so so much... but there's no one to hear me out.. I juz pray that you'll have an enjoyable time with your family.. maybe you should put our things aside first and enjoy yourself.. We are not born in this world to always deal with problems.. We should always live life to the fullest.. we should enjoy ourselves when there is a chance to.. Hope this matter doesn't affect your trip.. Sigh.. Why is society so unfair ? Why is the world so unfair to you ?? I juz pray that you'll stand tall and continue to shine for God.. We really miss out alot on Benny Hinn's Healing Crusade.. hmmmz.. why can't i stop thinking of you ? Where are you now ?? man !! this sucks.. Bon Voyage my girl.. I will try not to think so much when possible.. I'll be right here waiting.. Take care.. God bless !! My prayers will always be with you..

I'm dying..

2005-03-14T20:42:00.000+08:00

HELP !! i'm dying.. suffocating... there are many explanations to my actions.. i really dun mean to stay around with girls.. but as you know, my group only has 2 guys.. thus majority of my group members are all girls.. and i am like in charge of everyone in the group.. so i have to like take care of them ? please understand.. I always try to be with manfred and ashley as much as possible.. guess you oso saw how i hang around with them.. we were acquaintances and suddenly we were now good friends.. i tried to fit in ok.. i'm like sec 4 and i'm kinda like acting like a sec 2.. remember the time when you quarrelled with the both of them ? Guess wad ? i seriously did not know wad to do.. There was no one i could go to in order to get closer to you.. if you noticed, i am always with them most of the times when i am with you.. that morning.. i did not have anyone to talk to.. i dare not hang around with them, as i was afraid you might get mad that i'm with them... So i juz hanged around with nicholas most of the time.. even when ashley they all come find me, i juz replied wad they asked me as a basic courtesy.. i did not even talk and joke with them... i was being quiet until you started talking with them.. den i started to talk to them too.. I think you oso knew that she pulled me jacket off ritez ? But guess wad.. the reason why she was able to put it off was because i was trying to shake her off.. hope you really do understand and clear and misunderstandings.. i'm weary.. God please help me !! I always believe that prayers work.. Let's juz hope that everything's alright, cause i've got Jesus with me.. Hallelujah !!

China [Jinan,Shandong]

2005-03-14T12:11:00.000+08:00

yo people !! i'm back.. wahaha.. didn't buy much things back for you guys lahz.. haha.. cause nothing much to buy actually.. alot of girls stuff.. and its kinda weird for me to buy some kinda girly stuffs though.. people will stare at you.. but its very easy to bargain there if you know the tactic.. haha.. at first, i thought the whole trip was boring.. i was being segregated from her at the start of the trip ok !! haha.. she was with her friends lohz.. den i got no friends there.. wahaha.. shiok lahz.. lolx.. den i was like so sianz.. trying to find some kinda company.. haha.. den someone's birthday was the same as mine.. den he celebrated his birthday in school.. with me.. not exactly.. but we took a picture together with miss angie lim.. her birthday is 5th March.. wahaha.. one day earlier than mine.. lolx.. den after that we gather lohz.. into our groups.. nicholas and I were the only guys in the group lahz.. i'm like what the.. not much guys talk for me.. wahaha.. den i'm the senior among them lahz.. den i have to take care of them.. wahaha.. den i met some kinda weird people in my group lahz.. wad lynette or reineta or something.. haha.. den slowly i get to know more people lohz.. lolx.. shiok man.. den we board the bus lohz.. den my bus different from her some more lehz.. wahhh... den i'm like damn sianz lohz.. lolx.. den she send manfred to give me my birthday present.. den sophia oso pass me my birthday present.. haha.. pelyn gave me a billabong shirt, which was like so cool.. haha.. den sophia & frenz gave me a NKJ bible.. haha.. Den we reach the airport at around 2.30 like that lohz.. haha.. den we went to change into our long john or however you spell it.. damn itchy lohz.. lolx.. den we went to gather at the area lohz. den check in luggage and stuff.. haha.. we never even talked lohz.. lolx.. but in the bus she got message me lahz.. haha.. so very shiok man ! wahaha.. i was so glad she messaged me.. cause i was like so lonely lohz.. haha.. den in the airport she oso kind of communicated with me lahz.. she tapped me on my shoulder and gave me some kinda choc stuffs.. wahaha.. den i eat lohz.. lolx.. den i juz hang around alone lohz.. not much people to talk to.. wahaha.. den we went in le lohz.. den during customs and checking of hand carry bags, i kena caught.. i forgot my pencil case inside got scissors.. wahaha.. den kena lohz !! sianz man.. lolx.. but who cares.. no big deal.. wahaha.. den we went in lohz.. den wait for plane to arrive.. lolx.. den darren sit with me.. i mean "POTATO" !! lolx.. den he gave me some sweets.. den he gave me one whole box of sweet, say he dun eat this kinda sweets.. wahaha.. den i gladly accept lahz.. haha.. den surf the net a little while, den board the plane liaoz.. alamak.. she didn't sit with me.. lolx.. i was like sianz lohz.. haha.. i sat with nicholas and daphne lohz.. lolx.. den they so sianz one.. never talk or anything.. haha.. so i also very sianz lohz.. lolx.. den on the right row of mine is mr than,mdm wee and zoey.. haha.. den mr than they all oso nothing much to talk about lehz.. haha.. den i sleep lohz.. den sitting in front of me was louis, beside him was manfred.. den on the other side of louis was ashly.. haha.. den i wanna ask him to change seat with me de lohz.. den he dun wan.. alamak.. den sianz diao lohz.. haha.. den i juz sit there throughout the flight.. we need to change flight mahz.. haha.. den i chanegd place with sandral.. haha.. den isat beside shermane.. den we talk lohz.. den we talk about stupid stuffz.. haha.. we make fun of the emergency booklet thing.. haha.. they show you the different sleeping posture.. den they teach you how to commit suicide.. haha.. den they teach you how to suffocate your child and how to steal things the professional way.. lolx.. we keep talking and laughing man.. den later we draw on the magazines provided there.. haha.. she always add mascara on the person's face.. wahaha.. den she will like laugh at her own drawing.. mad !! lolx.. den later lunch came.. den muz choose rice or spag wad.. haha.. den i ask for rice.. den when the air stewardess ask wad she wants, den she say she dun want.. den i help her say that she want spag.. haha.. so i ate both.. lolx.. shiok ritez ? wahaha.. den they got some other disgusting food inside lohz.. haha.. its like snacks or something.. lolx.. den later mdm kan scold me.. say we cannot change place.. lolx.. den i go back lohz.. den zen there.. haha.. cannot sleep liaoz mahz.. den juz keep waiting and waiting lohz.. den finally arrived in jinan airport.. haha.. den mr ang is there.. lolx.. he damn gl lohz.. haha.. action only.. lolx.. woops.. he say i never pay attention lohz.. i was like listening lohz.. den later if you talk back at him, he say you no manners.. so i diam diam lohz.. lolx.. dun say anything.. let him say me lohz.. den some more pelyn different bus again.. lolx.. damn sianz lohz.. i was like not in the mood to go anywhere liaoz lohz.. juz feel like sleeping in the hotel when i reach there.. haha.. den we take the bus to the hotel lohz.. its called Hwang Tai Hotel.. haha.. shiok lohz.. very nice.. got fishes one.. lolx.. den when we reach the hotel, we ate our very FIRST lunch in CHINA STYLEEEE... wahaha.. firstly, the food was disgusting, next they stuff you with tons and tons of food.. there would be like tens of dishes lohz,, haha.. den got soup oso.. 2-3 different kinds of soup.. haha.. den i eat very little lohz.. cause its like YUCKS !! haha.. wad indecent food.. lolx.. den everything they make arz, sure will have egg one.. haha.. they got wad egg fried rice, tomato egg, egg soup and many others lahz.. very funny one !! lolx.. den after we are about to finish eating, mr ang brief us lohz.. den he talk and talk.. lolx.. all crap lahz.. i hear all these kinda things b4 already lohz.. its like redundant.. haha..but maybe others haven't hear it before.. lolx..den we went back to the hotel room den muz gather in the hotel lobby lohz.. haha.. my room was 816.. haha.. den pelyn they all 11th level lohz.. sianz.. but my room shiok lohz.. the toilet is nice and clean.. but smaller only.. lolx.. but not bad lahz, its quality, not quantity.. haha.. den finally !! lolx.. pelyn's group and mine are taking the same bus.. praise the lord man !! lolx.. i was like so happy lohz.. and i was sitting behind her.. haha.. how great is that man.. lolx.. but wad i can tell you is that, i enjoy the most when i am in the bus.. lolx.. i forget where we go liaoz lahz.. i won't go in order lohz.. juz by memory.. alrite.. we went to this shuang yu school.. den we were allocated to different class.. haha.. den my class got yi shan, sandral, cheryl and me i think.. lolx.. den we went to listen in their class.. first and foremost.. there is discipline in class.. people always volunteer themselves in answering questions.. the teacher do not need to shout to settle the class down.. its very different from our school.. wad a disgrace man.. lolx.. i won't say there very jia lat lahz.. its still quite ok.. probably its autumn time, so wun feel hot or anything..den the best part is when we doing their pe.. its like juz running lohz.. very shiok one.. lolx.. den their english lessons oso not bad.. the teacher teach wrong things one.. not very major ones though.. haha.. den her pronunciation oso very funny.. lolx.. fire, she go and pronunce as fear.. lolx.. but not bad overall.. i wanted to have science lesson lehz.. haha.. but too bad dun have.. i attended chinese class i think ? i dun even understand wad the teacher is talking about.. lolx.. the worse part is their history lesson.. oh my gosh.. i can like sleep lohz.. but as an ambassador, cannot sleep lahz.. lolx.. so i endure lohz.. haha.. alamak.. that cheryl put her head down and sleep.. wad the hell.. lolx.. wad a disgrace.. haha.. people there was like talking about her lahz.. lolx.. alamak.. see liaoz oso malu.. haha.. den we had an exchange dinner with them. lolx.. not bad lahz.. very nice.. haha.. but i sat different table with pelyn again.. alamak.. den i like sianz lohz.. haha.. many things happen lahz.. but i juz dun wanna mention it... lolx.. let it be memories in my mind.. got many quarrels, but after all, we juz got together well !! yeah !! haha.. den we oso went to the tertiary school.. forget wad name already.. jinan something one.. haha.. den the maths teacher teach us somethings.. quite cool man !! lolx.. den after the lesson, we watched them dancing on the ground level.. dancing para para sakura and some other songs.. haha.. damn discipline lohz they all.. haha..that's all i can say man !! muz emphasize on the word "DISCIPLINE".. haha.. den this one oso got exchange dinner lohz, and glad to say i finally can sit with pelyn.. i changed seat with someone.. lolx.. den we oso went shopping at some kinda market.. it look likes black market, but is not.. haha.. there can bargain till siao ah.. lolx.. but all girls stuff.. nothing much for me to buy.. haha.. den the the next place i wanna talk about is their science technology museum.. that place the place i enjoyed the most.. wahaha.. especially in the 2 simulator rides.. the 4D one and the riding the ship thing.. woo hoo !! lolx.. den we went to amusement park oso.. that's the second place which i enjoyed man.. lolx.. we play until siao.. den ashley play one ride den scared already.. lolx.. den he stop and take photo.. wahaha.. I made many friends here lahz.. Mainly Ashley, Manfred, Si Jie and Nicholas.. wahaha.. shiok man.. lolx.. many funny things happened lahz.. haha.. those who never go really missed out alot of fun man !! haha.. i was like laughing everywhere i go.. lolx.. of course when i am with them lahz.. lolx.. den we oso play bowling, table tennis and pool.. haha.. we juz enjoyed ourselves.. haha.. i really miss all the times i spent with pelyn.. this kinda chance dun come by often.. lolx.. den we oso went to mount Tai.. haha.. i didn't even hear wad the tour guide say lohz.. lolx.. its like so damn cold there lohz.. i lend pelyn my gloves, den i give my 2 heat packs away.. one give sophie den the other one with pelyn.. lolx.. den i was like bare handed putting my hand in the pocket.. haha.. seriously it was very cold lohz.. lolx.. but as a guy, muz sacrifice.. haha.. i can endure wad.. but the girls cannot.. so muz give out. sophie like wanna die wanna die liaoz lohz.. lolx.. her face so pale.. ask her need more things to cover herself or hot water a not, den she say dun want.. haha.. den i'm like ok.. "strong" huh ? lolx.. the next part which was quite interesting was Walmart.. wahaha.. we buy loads of shit stuff lohz.. lolx.. i mean food stuffz.. haha.. den we bought 2 simply basic t shirts.. den we wore them.. haha.. that make us one big family !! lolx.. The funniest guy was Si Jie lahz.. when he diao you hor, you sure laugh one lahz.. haha.. so damn funny lohz.. lolx.. overall !! it was one hell of a trip man.. so cool !! the weather there.. the food there.. the people there.. the fun there.. the horny bus there.. haha.. the bus driver always horn one lohz.. very loud some more.. lolx.. i miss everything there.. i juz wished i could stay there lohz.. living there is like so peaceful.. there is not stress opposed against you.. that's why i like it man.. stress free.. and freedom !!! wad a good life man.. haha..I think the times we had there was really memorable.. everyone had something to bring back.. haha.. and i tell you.. the harvest that i sought was more than i expected.. Praise the lord man.. i prayed and prayed many times during the trip.. i prayed for strength and wisdom.. lolx.. and many things.. i even prayed for our relationship when it got kinda kranky during the trip.. haha.. it was phenomenal.. but i lost my cross during the trip !! ahhhh... haha.. i found my chain but not my cross.. lolx.. many things happen and i thank god for it.. He's always there when i am weary.. he lends his shoulder to me every single time when i need it.. lolx.. one should not be greedy and appreciate wad God has given to him.. haha.. so I thank God for everything he had provided me with.. even the time spent with pel was all worth it.. every single seconds count.. the trip was kinda weird though.. i thought things should start off well and end off well.. but mine didn't.. haha.. mine did not start off well, and did not end off well.. haha.. but the process was the best part of all.. praise the lord !! Hallelujah !! Thank you Jesus !! Well.. juz wanna let pel know somethings.. Please believe me that i will not look at other girls with lust.. i will never even engage in any intimate association with them.. i always try to keep my distance away from the satan.. please have faith that i only love you.. there are no other girl that really makes me go around the world.. when i see you, i always thank god for it.. cause when i see you smile, at least i know you are there.. your presence always fill me with life.. and your touch warms me up whenever i am cold.. so please believe me k ? Dun doubt me anymore.. Have faith... And please do not ever ignore me.. haha.. my self esteem will fall immediately man.. lolx.. trust me.. you play a very important role in my life.. haha.. i really miss all the times i spent with you man.. let's juz hope that we can do the same thing here in our borned country, Singapore.. but its kinda hot here huh ? not so fun anymore.. lolx.. got cold weather better.. can play with the electric girl !! Pelyn is an electifying girl.. always go and shock people with static one.. you arz !! haha.. got sparks some more lohz.. lolx.. scary.. but i like !! wahaha.. I really do love you dear !! Take care !! God bless you people !! And finally i blogged.. yeah !! lolx.. long ritez ? i oso very tired already lahz.. haha.. BYeeeee...

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2005-03-14T11:52:00.000+08:00

Wad happened ? Can let me know please ? I suddenly feel so cold ya know ? Did I do anything wrong ? Please let me know can ? haiz...

Leaving

2005-03-05T22:16:00.000+08:00

Hey guys.. i'm leaving already.. haha.. going to china, shandong... wahaha.. sianz.. oso dunno go there fun a not.. some more i different group from her.. sianz.. i'm afraid of many things, but at least i know she will be with me.. not bad lahz.. be thankful !! i'll juz take it as a missionary trip there.. spread the gospel as much as i can.. maybe with my room mate ? he's a sec 2/1 guy.. but dunno who oso.. maybe i can help him if he is not yet a christian.. wahaha.. tactic lahz.. i better bring my 4 spiritual laws book.. juz in case.. wahaha.. ok.. you guys take care k ? dun miss me ah.. if want something better message me b4 12.30.. cause i wun be bringing my hp.. take care !! bye bye.. god bless ya..

OOPS

2005-03-03T20:16:00.000+08:00

haha.. yo.. guess who ?? lolx.. very long never blog already.. very tired man.. lolx.. juz came back from badminton today.. haha.. today in badminton i oso nothing to do lohz.. juz slack and play a few matches only.. lolx.. nothing much today lahz.. juz a bit stressed up in the morning.. my mother dun want me to go for cell group this saturday.. cause she wanna celebrate my birthday with me.. wahaha.. i know she meant well.. but.. she says that i'm going there because of my friends.. i'm like kinda hurt lohz.. den my dad also messaged me and told me not to go.. haiz.. i oso dunno wad to do lahz.. so stressed up.. when i can leave the country, i would finally get some peace there hopefully.. i wanna die already man.. den i failed my maths loci test and the recent chinese test.. oh boy ! my mum is going to scream and yell at me.. i'm so dead.. but whenever things i say, they also won't understand.. haiz.. sometimes when i pass, they also not very happy like that.. den when i fail, they start scolding me.. of course its not directly scolding me lahz.. but i can tell lahz.. its not that i am blaming them lahz.. i understand wad they are telling me.. but sometimes they dun understand me.. but wad can i do ? i dun really like to express much things out to them.. cause my mum's kinda sensitive to some stuffs.. haha.. so its kinda scary when you say some stuffs to her.. so you gotta be extra careful.. so i prefer to keep everything to myself den.. juz in case i said something wrongly or something.. haha.. its juz amazing how i could survive so long.. haha.. man ! juz so damn stressful.. yea.. you see me laughing and stuff.. but i think that's me.. i think my survival tactic is to laugh.. it juz makes you forget everything.. but its juz temporary.. oh boy ! that really sucks.. I love laughing especially with J Lo.. oh my gosh.. her laughing is like so addictive.. haha.. the moment she laughs, i will laugh along.. haha.. den my circle of friends has became smaller already.. cause when you stick to one group to often, the other one gets left alone.. haiz.. really struggling right now.. wanna die liaoz lahz.. ahhhh... give me some peace !! how i wish you were here with me right now.. but everytime when you are not with me when i needed you, i turn to God.. And i always remember of certain comforting songs.. haha.. but i think prayer really works lohz.. haha.. so everytime when i meet a certain obstacle, i would usualy pray about it.. sometimes people hurt you when they are too open minded.. but i think that's the way it is.. sometimes i oso hurt others feeling when i feel open minded a a bit high.. but i'll feel guilty about it.. so i'll pray and ask for forgiveness.. haha.. i think that's life.. you always get carried away when things are going out the way you want it to be.. you get too arrogant and cocky.. haha.. but i dunno about myself.. i dun get cocky.. but maybe too confident about myself.. Sometimes i really wanna help people around me.. but maybe they dun really appreciate it at all.. sometimes i really wanna give up you know ? and change back to a conservative person.. but i guess that is not possible.. it will definitely affect people around me.. hmmm.. but sometimes i wonder ? why do i care so much about the others ?? maybe i should stand alone.. no one bothers me and i dun bother anyone.. but there is always a temptation for me to go help others when i see them sad.. but sometimes people think i'm nosey.. haiz.. oso dunno wad to do lahz.. so fed up.. haha.. man !! i miss you so much man.. nowadays oso dun get to spend time with ya.. only in the morning den i get to see ya.. after that.. you would disappear out of my life or something.. haiz.. never mind.. maybe we're both busy.. take care people !! I love you pel... God bless you !!

VD

2005-02-16T16:06:00.000+08:00

haha.. hi guys ! Back again.. wahaha.. very busy man.. test here and there.. den now wondering whether wanna drop geography a not.. dunno whether to ask my mum a not.. lolx.. i want to drop geography.. but oso dun wanna drop geography.. wahaha.. very complicating one lahz.. that's why i say.. kids shouldn't study.. it juz add stress to themselves for no reason.. haha.. yeah.. Monday (14/2) was Valentine's Day.. lolx.. many wild thoughts will run past ur mind.. haha.. like wad are you going to do ? should i do this this or this ? wahaha.. so ya.. it was kinda messy that day.. lolx.. more like informal.. lolx.. i gave her some stuffs.. and she gave me something.. wahaha.. sha gave me a ring lahz.. with engravings on it. wahaha.. yeah.. den after school went out with her to woodlands area.. walk here and there.. wahaha.. den see the uk funfair.. lolx.. den she wanna vomit in the night market.. she say smelly..wahaha.. ya.. den ya.. that was monday.. quite a fun day in fact.. lolx.. den tuesday was like err.. crappy day.. D&T lessons was the worst thing for me.. followed by the chemistry test after school.. wahaha.. quite a lousy day lahz.. den like nothing much for me oso lohz.. den today ah.. haha.. juz a normal day.. no bad and no good.. lolx.. so ya.. still waiting to see whether tonight got anything good a not.. wahaha.. ok.. cyaz guys !! bye bye.. lolx.. very tired.. wanna sleep already.. lolx.. i love ya !!

sorry..

2005-02-12T16:52:00.000+08:00

First and foremost.. please listen pelyn.. there is no other way i could communicate to ya.. everything i've said doesn't seem to have any effect on ya.. and i know that you are really very hurt.. seriously speaking.. if the nick is the reason why you wanna break, den i think that is kinda weird.. but as a girl, i know you are sensitive.. so i apologise k ? i really dun mean it that way.. another thing that i wanna explain is why i said ok to sophie.. its not that when i said ok, it means that i agree to break with ya.. that is definitely a misunderstanding.. i said ok because at least i know how you feel now.. and you know.. i dun like people to interfere into our relationship.. if there's anything to be settled, den i want things to be talked between the two of us.. get it ? i really dun wanna break with ya one.. its juz a miscommunication.. please call me can ? we really need to talk.. thanks.. i still love you..

Happy CNY !

2005-02-10T10:21:00.000+08:00

yo people !! wahaha.. very long never blog already.. yesterday was Chinese New Year... and it was like so boring.. except for the food and money.. wahaha.. i was like sitting down all the while.. den never talk one.. lucky my mp3 player is always with me.. if not i will die arz.. lolx.. i always listen to it whenever they finished talking to me and switch the attention to my parents.. haha.. luckily i never sleep there man.. nearly ah.. lolx.. i was really very tired lohz.. lolx.. yesterday morning i woke up at around 6.30 lohz.. haha.. den the previous night we say that whoever wakes up first will take the toilet.. cause both of us dun like wet toilets.. lolx.. so ya.. den yesterday morning my mother woke us up.. den we chiong out of the door.. den nearly bang into my mother.. lolx.. den she kena shocked like that.. but he managed to get out first.. becuz my mum was standing in the way.. haha.. so never mind.. give him first lohz.. wahaha.. den i go and sleep.. den i woke up at around 7am.. lolx.. shiok man.. haha.. sleep so long.. den i woke up and go and bathe lohz.. wahaha.. the toilet not so wet le.. lolx.. so ya.. den i wore wad the chinese orchestra people wore during their performance on new year's eve lohz.. haha.. the red mega concert shirt and jeans.. lolx.. cause my brother oso wear red mahz.. so muz have unity.. lolx.. ya.. dun wanna talk about the process lahz.. as in the journey and stuff.. cause its juz pure boring... the only part where i can talk about and the place that i enjoyed the most is at my granparents place.. and it is oso where my cousin stays.. lolx.. cool man ! wahaha.. that is the only place where i feel home.. probably my second home.. wahaha.. shiok seh.. haha.. we brought PS2 there to play mahz.. but still kinda boring lahz.. cause we only bring a soccer game.. wad sia.. lolx.. and oso an action game called "Prince Of Persia".. den nothing much oso lahz.. haha.. juz use computer and play PS2 den its like crap lohz.. den my cousin have to go and do visitation.. so we are like left alone.. and that is like super sianz.. den we go and eat lohz.. haha.. woo hoo !! shark fin soup.. den eat laksa.. lolx.. wad a weird combination of dishes.. but not bad lahz.. quite nice.. wahaha.. den we eat le den i go up lohz.. den after a while when we watching tv den my another cousin come liaoz.. they are both younger lahz.. haha.. den we show them magic trick and bluff them saying we have psychic powers.. wahaha.. cool seh.. we make ourselves sound until so cool.. lolx.. den we talk a lot of crap lahz.. haha.. den after a while, when we watching "Dennis the menace".. lolx.. den my cousin come back liaoz.. wahaah.. den nothing much oso lahz.. we juz talk and play a while only.. nothing much lahz.. haha.. den ya.. we juz did some normal stuff lohz.. nothing interesting.. den when we are about to go home.. den my grandmother talked to me in the kitchen.. asked me about my girlfriend.. den i'm like oh boy oh boy !! this is bad.. lolx.. so i juz try to keep smiling and dun answer lohz.. haha.. cause my cousin brings his girlfriend back to visit the family.. so ya.. my grandmother oso wanna see.. den i told her next time lahz.. lolx.. cause my mother oso haven't see den my grandparents wanan see.. alamak.. i have to wait for her lohz.. i'm ready when she is.. i wanted to go visit her family de lohz.. but she dun want.. haha.. so no choice.. i cannot defy her on such trivial things.. haha.. waste my breath.. but hope that she'll come as soon as possible lohz.. lolx.. den when i was about to leave the gate, den my uncle ask me again.. about my girlfriend.. alamak.. i oso dunno who go and advertise man.. lolx.. how come so many people know.. den the previous day, my cousin oso got ask me before.. alamak.. wad sia.. lolx.. everybody like know already.. diaoz man.. wahaha.. looks like i juz have to wait.. asked her on last december to meet my parents.. den she say not ready.. haha.. after 2 months still not ready oso.. lolx.. never mind.. i'll juz wait.. haha.. meet the parents.. you guys know the show "Meet the fockers" ritez ? lolx.. maybe now is "Meet the Cheok".. wahaha..you guys should watch meet the fockers man ! that show is like super funny lohz.. lolx.. hmmm... juz hope that she'll get used to it asap lahz.. cause i'm like quite pressured.. haha.. oh ya ya !! the funny thing is ah.. everybody is telling me indirectly not to have sex with my girlfriend.. wahaha.. its like ok.. haha.. i know already !! lolx.. you guys dun need to remind me so many times.. and i'm not so desperate for sex.. haha.. so dun worry lahz huh.. alamak.. they all think too much already.. wahaha.. den yesterday i message her when is she coming down to my house or my grandparents place, she say only when her brother's girlfriend goes to her house.. alamak.. den i wanna know wad if she doesn't goes to her house.. alamak.. den i die liaoz lohz.. lolx.. sianz man ! today my house is open for visiting.. haha.. den shiok seh.. at least i got something to do at home not like some houses which are like super boring lohz.. haha.. my dad's brother is here liaoz.. and his family lahz.. haha.. den yes !! another red packet.. wahaha.. later alot of people coming lahz.. my brother's siblings and their families all coming lohz.. and the best is.. my childhood friend is coming !! yeah.. my first and ever girlfriend in K2.. wahaha.. but den she very shy one lehz.. den sometimes i oso dunno wad to say to her man.. haha.. woo hoo.. ok lahz.. i wanna go to my bed liaoz.. feel like resting.. down with bad flu and cough.. dying soon.. haha.. that's wad pelyn hope to see the most ritez ? lolx... need to rest lahz.. too tired already.. wahaha.. this morning woke up at around 8.30.. lolx.. den my dear woke up at around 10.30.. alamak.. 2 hours after me.. we slept at the same time lohz.. lolx.. ok lahz.. i go le.. take care people !! I love you dear.. miss you so much man.. 1 day never see you is like awww... haha.. bye people !!

poo !!

2005-02-02T20:43:00.000+08:00

haha.. today oso nothing much lahz.. my only free day of the whole week.. lolx.. sianz man.. den this friday some more got meet the parent session.. lolx.. i oso dunno wad to write sia.. haha.. i'm like trying to type very fast.. cause i wanna go and do my hw.. haha.. ok.. lessons today was like crap.. so boring lohz.. nothing funny or wad.. den some more this morning got history test... alamak.. cannot make it liaoz lohz.. haha.. i yesterday slept very early man.. haha.. around 10.30.. cause i very tired.. head kinda pain.. so sleep lohz.. haha.. den thought after a good rest den ok liaoz.. but den this morning a bit pain.. reach school that time even more pain sia.. haha.. i juz endure lohz.. cause its not like those kind of unbearable pain lahz.. haha.. juz those kind of like irritating pains that pricks your head and discomfort you for a few seconds.. lolx..i'm not a weakling k.. haha.. this kinda pain of course can take it.. lolx.. i'm like so tired during biology lesson today lohz.. feel like sleeping.. but den dunno why mother tongue lesson i not tired liaoz.. maybe probably because i slept a while during my biology lesson.. haha.. really very tired lohz.. lolx.. den after school i went to the canteen immediately lohz.. haha.. den went to meet my dear.. but she ah.. taking her own sweet time.. lolx.. so have to wait for her lohz.. haha.. den i and her walked to causeway point !! can you believe that.. she walked to causeway point.. maybe we should all clap ? lolx.. that's like an achievement lohz.. wahaha.. i say until like she cannot walk like that.. haha.. but the fact is that she dislike walking lohz.. haha.. so not bad ah.. maybe we should walk more often.. lolx..although she was like dying already, but not bad lahz.. still quite strong.. haha.. den we went to causeway lohz.. haha.. den she never eat.. only i eat.. den i met zhi wen at the 5th level there.. lolx..yesterday i oso saw him lohz.. haha.. den my dear happily doing homework there lahz.. lolx.. den after i finished eating, i thought she wanna do her hw mahz.. so i thought of taking my chemistry out.. lolx.. den when i take out, she happily pack up and say wanna go lahz.. haha.. thanks huh.. haha.. nvm.. den we went down lohz.. den i want to go Music Junction to see CDs lohz.. den i met Zhi wen again.. wahaha.. its like i go everywhere oso see him lohz.. haha.. den he follow me in.. and talk and talk lohz.. keep asking me about pel.. lolx.. den i say she's my sister.. haha.. den he dun believe me.. den suddenly all the christian thing come out lahz.. haha.. so i juz say lohz.. lolx.. many people told me muz tell my cg leader lehz.. muz get someone to be accountable for our relationship.. but if i like juz go straight to sister cat and tell her.. den it's like very weird lohz.. lolx.. i oso dunno muz tell her one lohz.. only during last cg.. Qian Qi told me.. haha.. den now Zhi wen tell me again.. haha.. its like God's will.. lolx.. he wants me to tell sister cat.. wahaha.. den pel met doughlas(or however you spell his name) and emily arz ? i oso dunno lahz.. haha.. cause i was talking to zhi wen wad.. quite a long conversation.. about 10 - 15 minutes.. haha.. den we talk quite a lot lahz.. lolx.. so pel go and accompany doughlas and emily.. haha.. they were piercing ear hole.. alamak.. guy oso go pierce.. so gay man.. lolx.. maybe i should go follow pamela.. haha.. use the tactic ear ring.. lolx.. that's wad i call it.. haha.. wanna ask pam whether still got other design a not.. cause very small her one.. haha.. i want those more significant one.. lolx.. den we walk home lohz.. haha.. den when we reach the mrt station there.. i said let's go home.. den i took out my wallet.. lolx.. den i think she freaked out or something.. haha.. but i was like playing with her only lahz.. lolx.. my head pain still wanna follow her home arz ? I want lahz, if she lets me come along with her.. haha.. ya.. den she went in.. den i walked home.. lolx.. den i walked home lohz.. den the pain start to come again.. alamak.. its like at the back of your head there is a blood clot or somehting.. haha.. you juz dun feel comfortable lohz.. lolx.. den i went home and bathe den tell my mum lohz.. den she ask me to take medicine den sleep.. so i did that lohz.. haha.. den i eat my medicine and messaged my dear lohz.. lolx.. den after that i went to listen to some music first.. den i went to sleep.. lolx.. den i woke up at around 7 plus lahz.. haha.. i slept at around 4.45pm.. slept almost for 2 hours 45 mins lohz.. haha.. shiok man.. lolx.. later oso dunno still can sleep a not.. haha.. recently not getting enough sleep lohz.. lolx.. very tired everyday.. haha.. alamak.. now 9pm liaoz arz ? die le lahz.. better go already.. need to do my hw.. tomorrow still got maths test oso.. haha.. take care people !! lolx.. thank you dear !! I'll get well pretty soon, i hope.. haha.. you take care too k ? lolx.. i love you !

Sianz

2005-02-01T19:04:00.000+08:00

Woo... wad a day in school man !! not feeling well.. lolx.. headache man.. i'm now still a bit not so well lahz.. haha.. i tried to sleep in school lohz.. but i scared that teacher scold me.. haha.. so try to endure.. lolx.. even during recess i oso quite giddy.. feel like sleeping.. haha.. but den after school not so bad lahz.. juz feel like some kind of tiredness in my body.. lolx.. especially in my jaw and my neck part.. haha.. kinda crampy.. lolx.. i think no one saw the difference in me lahz.. haha.. cause i was like normal the whole day.. lolx.. even now my neck still kinda hurt.. haha.. oh boy.. Lessons are getting more boring.. and homeworks juz keep piling up.. i seriously dun have any free time lohz.. haha.. so i'm really very tired ah.. someone please help me.. lolx.. my free day is only like wednesday and thursday.. but i wanna use that 2 days to really rest lohz.. haha.. i'm like so tired already man.. lolx.. especially during the weekend man.. haha.. friday after sch got co.. den after co and tuition.. den come back that time oso tired liaoz.. so i sleep.. den morning wake up got extra lessons.. come back oso around noon time liaoz.. so i sleep.. wake up den have to go for cell group.. and it will end quite late.. and i'll reach home at around 10, totally exhausted.. haha... so i sleep.. den sunday morning wake up early in the morning to meet my cell friends.. lolx.. den go church together.. den after church i go fellowship and eat with them lohz.. haha.. den afterwards have to come back to church to have bible study.. lolx.. den come back that time oso around 6 - 7 plus le lohz.. haha.. den i'll be like super tired.. haha.. cause i one whole morning and afternoon outside lohz.. lolx.. but den i'll still have some time to rest lahz.. haha.. but i oso dunno whether got enough time to finish doing my homework lohz... haha.. lolx.. so its really very stressful for me lehz.. haha.. i oso trying to find some time to spend with her and at the same time to maintain my studies.. haha.. but looks like its gotta be only on wednesday or thursday.. lolx.. oh boy.. haha.. thinking about her, i suddenly remember about this morning incident.. lolx.. i was like kinda late this morning cause i was doing my devotion.. haha.. ya.. den i was like rushing lohz.. haha.. carrying my shoe bag and d&t folio.. lolx.. alamak.. so wad sia.. haha.. so when i see her, she was like so sad and like crying like that.. lolx.. den i ask her why.. den she said that she wanted to vomit.. lolx.. because somebody stinked her to death.. wahaha.. she say somebody in the mrt, the body got very strong BO.. so she cannot breathe.. lolx.. so ya.. haha.. poor thing eh ? so small size, den let one man overpower her.. haha.. she was like so traumatised lohz.. lolx.. ya.. nothing much to write oso lah.. haha.. juz trying to update my blog cause i now oso very seldom blog le lohz.. haha.. so guess i'll write till here.. lolx.. take care ppl !!
And pelyn rocks my world.. lolx.. I love you !!

DYING SOON !! lolx..

2005-01-26T21:09:00.000+08:00

ok.. things are looking kinda bad right now... my gosh.. 6 March.. such a beautiful day can let a field trip destroy its beauty.. haha.. i oso dunno lahz.. actually dun wanna blog one.. but oso dunno wad's bothering me right now.. trying hard to figure it out, but still could not find the answer.. something is juz not right about me.. something is happening and yet i'm forgetting something.. oh boy.. STRESSEDDDDD.... haha.. i think i under performed this year so far man.. gosh ! hate it man.. can't stand it.. lolx.. anyway, i think i might need to pon man.. haha.. i need a break.. but den come to think of it.. after next week is chinese new year, den we will have a long weekend break.. hmmm... gonna do some visitation.. lolx.. and maybe some shopping before it starts.. anyone wanna follow me ? lolx.. i oso dunno wad to buy.. i very choosy one.. haha.. i want those that is nice and cannot be too ex de.. 20+ for me is very ex liaoz lohz.. haha.. oso dunno why.. but i dun like to spend unnecessary money.. lolx.. oh boy oh boy !! My birthday.. i'm now thinking of wad plans i wanna make.. its on a sunday.. should i go out with friends or stay after service and fellowship with church friends.. haiz.. so many things !!! AHHHH... haha.. many things are not going very well for me.. especially for my badminton tournament.. haiz.. den recently my favourite racket bought by my parents for my birthday present broke.. oh boy.. i'm like running out of luck.. Lady LUCK !! When will you come back to me huh ? haha.. i'm like mad.. lolx.. alamak.. why i still cannot get why am i feeling some kinda discomfort in my heart ? its very weird lehz.. alamak.. den go to school some more additional stress.. lolx.. whaaa... cannot stand it man.. I think its the China field trip thing that is bothering me.. haha.. Thanks lahz huh.. lolx.. blame the school !! wahaha.. so many dates dun choose, choose my birthday.. i know you all like my birthday lahz.. but dun need to like that ritez ? wah freak man ! headache ah headache ah... PENGZ !!!

Dear ah.. haha.. can't say that i am not sad or anything.. but there is nothing i can do too.. so ya.. really sorry.. unless i go china ? lolx.. but doubt so lahz.. my O level coming.. need to study hard man... lolx.. ya.. haiz.. dun worry.. juz go and enjoy yourself k ? you paid one hell load of money lohz.. haha.. juz remember to bring back many things k ? lolx.. den share with us.. wahaha.. how clever.. lolx.. looks like i need to find sophie liaoz.. ask her to take care of you.. especially on your diet.. oso dunno the food there suits your taste a not.. haha.. got me all worried and sick.. lolx.. alamak.. k lahz.. better stop liaoz lahz.. haha.. oh boy.. 1 week without you.. hmmm.. very bad.. haha.. I'm gonna miss you loads man.. haha.. k baby, i love you !! lolx.. BYE BYE..

ok..

2005-01-20T19:56:00.000+08:00

first things first.. juz wanna apologise to you k ? i dun want things to end up in a bad way.. i've thought it through and i think i need to prioritize my things.. the only thing that i am very concerned about is you.. I hope you understand the stress i am having.. but i think its all over now.. i decided to put all this things aside.. well.. but of course i want to put aside my studies, but i think its quite impossible to do that.. cause i'm gonna get whacked by parents.. lolx.. bleah.. i think a more stable time is probably after all my CCA has stopped.. and i can fully put my concentration on you, my God almighty and my studies.. i think step by step should be the idea now.. i need to clear one before i can proceed to the second one.. rite ?? haha.. dun wanna be a loner anymore !! yeah !! lolx.. i'll try to mix more even if people rejects me.. haha.. its the perserverance attitude.. i only learned it yesterday.. you gotta take things lightly and stand tall among all.. its very true.. you cannot juz get respect juz like that.. you gotta EARN it.. okok.. dun wanna write liaoz.. wanna help my darling change blogskin.. hehe.. take care guys ! thanks too.. God bless..

.....

2005-01-19T20:27:00.000+08:00

ok.. i oso dunno wad happen man.. 19 January 2005.. it is supposed to be a happy day for me.. its our 3rd month anniversary.. but sad to say.. today was so screwed up man.. that i had to endure everything within me.. in the morning, my darling woke up late.. den i cannot meet her.. so i took my dad's car to school lohz.. reached school at 7 plus.. den wanted to wait for her in the canteen.. but i supposed she reached later than the bell ring lohz.. so i had no choice lohz.. had to go and line up.. yeah.. den i go class oso sianz lohz.. starting of the day oso already like that liaoz.. wanna see her oso cannot.. haiz.. den no choice lohz.. went back to class.. tried to cheer myself up and be a bit siao siao.. haha.. but in the end kena scolded be friends.. lolx.. so nvm lohz. den i remain quiet lohz..really very sianz lohz.. den recess.. i never even see her.. haiz.. everything was like so totally screwed up lohz.. wanted to find her but cannot even see her in the canteen.. den i oso dunno go where find her.. den bell ring liaoz oso nv see her.. only met her when we returned to class.. juz managed to take a quick glance.. seeing her leaving me was like ahhhhh.... a stab in my heart.. haha.. den return to class got chemistry test lohz.. haha.. i sianz already lahz.. lolx.. dun care anymore.. cause i was waiting for 12.45pm to come.. so that i can leave for my badminton tournament.. alamak.. today play against ang mo kio secondary school.. haha.. we lost.. 4 - 1.. quite a few cried lahz.. seeing them like that i oso wanna cry liaoz lohz.. but wad could i do ? i'm the captain.. if even i myself cannot stand firm, how can i lead my members.. so i tried to endure lohz.. nobody can understand how i feel.. wanted to cry lahz.. haha.. cause see you all fight until so hard. den in the end we still lost.. like very disappointing lahz.. but yeah.. its a very difficult feeling to overcome.. but i guessed i did.. tried very hard to keep myself away from negative thoughts.. it was like a double combo attack to me.. first it was my anniversary and everything went wrong.. and den the badminton we lose.. wad could we ask for man ? haha.. i'm so stressful man.. no one gets as much stress as from me.. i'm feeling stress for almost everything in my life.. i'm stressed about school work, about my spiritual life, about my badminton, about my family, about my girlfriend, about my friends, well.. almost everything that concerns my life.. how could anyone comprehend that ? i think i should be conservative and be ME myself kinda thing.. i'm so sick and tired already lahz.. lolx.. really dun wanna feel stress lahz.. its driving me nuts.. you guys wanna leave me den leave me lahz.. dun care anymore.. studies.. fail den fail lahz.. big deal.. at most stay back lohz.. so tired of trying to cope with stress.. shall let everything be as it is.. you dun disturb me.. i dun disturb you.. that's the kind of theory.. YEAH !!!

SO FREAKING TIRED WITH LIFE>>> I dun even know why i'm even stress about you.. but i guess that's the way it is.. so forget it.. you dun give a damn, i oso dun give a damn.. haha.. YEAH !!! Mess off people !! COOL...

AHHHHHHHHH !!!

2005-01-08T23:50:00.000+08:00

oh boy !! school started.. and one week has juz ended.. juz one week and i start to feel that school sucks man.. lolx.. lessons is so boring man.. haha.. some more my badminton tournament is coming liaoz.. some more it is held in school.. die liaoz lahz.. i'm so freaking stressed.. lolx.. i'm not here to show to my schoolmates how pro i am, definitely not during the monfort match.. haha... I know it in my heart that we would surely lose.. so i'm trying to figure out a way how to turn around the tables.. I think badminton is really about mental strength and of cuz some physical strength oso lahz.. haha... dun worry.. Miracles do happen ! lolx.. Coach always say give in more than 100%.. i'm still figuring how.. haha.. cause i dunno how much is 100%.. so if there is no limit, how do i do better than the limit ? lolx.. so i'm still figuring out.. he's like some old wise man telling us all the stuffs.. haha.. anyway.. sorry guys for not blogging so long.. lolx.. so juz check on every sundays if you are my regular customer.. lolx.. cause i would blog at least once a week ba.. unless i very free lohz, which i doubt so lahz huh... i'm a busy person.. lolx.. wahaha.. so much stress this year.. i'm so scared man.. haha.. but everytime the bible verse would come to me.. 1 Peter 5:7 "Cast all your anxiety on Him, because He cares for you." haha.. true eh ? lolx.. so i always tell myself.. dun worry dun worry.. haha.. yeah.. I've gotten my O level paper for Design and Technology le lohz.. lolx.. den as i look at it.. den i say to myself.. this is it !! i've studied 9-10years juz for this.. haha.. ya.. so i would get stress at times lohz.. especially when i look at my last year's results.. whaa.. can pengz man ! lolx.. ya.. den many things coming lahz.. Badminton tournament starting at 17 January 2005 in Christ Church Secondary School.. Poo !! and den my SYE Chinese Orchestra Competition is on 5 May 2005.. At the Singapore Conference Hall.. Haiz.. so many big events coming up man.. Benn training so hard juz for the competitions to come.. it like my O levels man.. studying so hard juz for this to come man.. haha.. never mind.. i think i better do my best in everything i do this year.. cause its the last chance ya see ? wahaha.. really need to study hard sia.. lolx.. anyway.. tomorrow got church man.. lolx.. shiok ah.. haha.. but oso got a bit scared lahz.. the people and things there i oso dunno one.. haha.. i'm like a invader entering a building.. haha.. oso dunno where to go and stuff.. lolx.. sianz.. ok lahz.. this whole week really nothing much lohz.. lolx.. i think next week really would get tough man ! haha.. got chemistry mock exam next tuesday some more.. aaaahhhh !! school is driving me nuts man..i would rather rot at home than going to school lohz.. haha.. seirously speaking !! lolx.. at least when you rot, you dun feel stress, but juz sianz.. lolx.. ya.. but den when i think about the future, about raising up my wife and my kids.. den i suddenly have the urge to work hard for it.. lolx.. i'm gonna bring up my kids well and not let them lead astray.. i've already planned myself within me already.. like wad to do when i have my kid.. all well prepared.. too fast huh ? lolx.. well.. that's me.. i'm excited about my family.. MY FAMILY !! wahaha.. its gonna be exciting man !! woo... haha... can't wait to get married man !! lolx.. i mean officially lahz.. haha.. ok lahz.. i better go and sleep already, tomorrow still muz wake up early and meet my friends tomorrow for church.. haha.. take care guys !! lolx.. goodnight.. wahaha.. God bless you !! YOU !! the one reading this !! YOU !! lolx.. ok. trying to be lame here.. wahaha.. okok.. bye bye.. *yAwN*

Haha.. i definitely would not miss you out every single entry lahz huh.. lolx.. first week of school.. haha.. met her quite a couple of times.. i think 3 times this week ba.. haha.. shiok seh.. but den muz wake up early.. sianz.. tired seh.. wahaha.. den friday i was late.. lolx.. cause thursday i stayed up late to do my barrons mahz.. but teacher say next week den pass up.. diaoz.. lolx.. ya.. den really happy lahz.. at least can spend some time with her.. not like the hols.. alamak.. holiday times with her was crap man !! lolx.. ya.. so at least really got to spend some time together.. wednesday after school oso got go out lohz.. haha.. but dun really enjoyed that one.. lolx.. prefer the one on friday.. lolx.. heng man.. friday no CO den this whole week no cell mahz.. haha.. so we can meet up lohz.. lolx.. really very zhun lohz.. like destined or something.. haha.. den badminton got training de mahz, but den got meet the parent session.. so no training lohz.. juz physical training.. haha.. den we ran and do pumping lohz.. and once again !! Coming first in place, DENNIS CHEOK !!! thank you thank you.. i wanna thank my God, my father, my mother and etc.. blah blah blah.. lolx.. haha.. den was bout to leave for causeway and meet her de lohz.. but den i noticed ernest at the field playing soccer.. lolx.. shiok man.. wahaha.. den i go and play a while lohz.. den suddenly Soon Wee ask me to go to street soccer court and join them.. lolx.. cool seh.. wahaha.. at least i scored one goal.. yeah !! haha..den i left and met her lohz.. lolx.. she, wan shin and sophie was there.. haha.. they were at the 6th level of cwp.. oso dunno why always go there sia.. lolx.. they were like playing with butter corns that pelyn ate.. haha.. den juz keep talking lohz.. lolx.. den talk until the sec 2 science textbook.. den as always.. teengers are so curious about such stuff.. haha.. den they turn to chap 6 & 7.. haha.. yeah.. den joke around a bit lohz.. wahaha.. den some more the fire alarm rang lohz.. wahaha.. shiok seh.. lolx.. den the security guard come.. haha.. ya.. den after that walk around lohz.. den i and her went to mac to eat.. well.. only i eat lahz.. haha.. shiok seh.. lolx.. very long nv eat mac.. wahaha.. den oso nothing much lahz.. after that den we went home already lohz. .cause she is in pain.. haha.. better not say too much lahz.. lolx.. ok lahz.. better stop here.. very late liaoz.. take care k ? nowadays raining, cause of the north east monsoon.. i think.. lolx.. ya.. so really muz take care of yourself k ? haha.. I love you.. miss you so much !! hehe.. k... bye bye !!

Haiz.. sorry

2004-12-31T01:58:00.000+08:00

hmmm.. today this morning woke up at around 10.15 i think.. haha.. ya.. den wash up and use the com lohz.. lolx.. den ate my lunch at around 11.30.. den started doing my homework till around 4.10 - 4.15 pm.. haha.. den sianz already lohz.. haha.. den i go and sleep.. cause my dear went to malaysia to pick her dad mahz.. den she told me that she will be back by 5.. den i sleep wake up at around 6 plus close to 7 still haven't message me lohz.. den i got a lil worried den message her.. den no reply.. so i go eat lohz.. den after finish eating, i came upstairs and use my com lohz.. den she came online.. so zhun.. haha.. den we talk a while lohz.. den i oso dunno why suddenly we quarreled.. i kena shocked lohz.. haha.. she suddenly became so angry all of a sudden.. den i'm like oh shit ! wad did i do this time ? she some more went offline lehz.. haha.. den i juz started freaking out and feeling so panic. haha.. den i was like finding where my phone.. haha.. den quickly message her and apologise.. den she came online.. den she starts blaming herself for everything.. i'm like.. you know ? juz standing there and let you voice everything out lohz.. haha.. den after everything, i'll try giving it a shot again.. but still cannot work.. so i juz keep trying and trying lohz.. den finally, i almost give up.. i went to find some inspiration on wad to do.. haha.. went to my bedroom and turned on my MP3 player.. put on my stereo headset.. den blast music into my ears.. and started singing and singing.. let my emotions run out of me 1st.. cause i dun wanna end up quarreling with her.. haha.. so better cool myself down.. go sing some songs.. den reflect.. lolx.. den she messaged me lahz.. saying that she was disappointed.. whaa.. den seeing that message... i turned up the music even louder and you know ? haha.. go to the even more extreme.. lolx.. i was really scared lohz.. den i sang for around 10 - 20 minutes plus.. haha.. den i reply her lohz.. lolx.. den i went back to my com and talked to her.. den apologise again lohz.. den now she seemed to have calmed down already or something lohz.. den ya.. should be ok already.. i hope.. i was really worried man.. haha.. i really dun want things to turn out bad everytime.. i always try to think about how you feel.. thus decided not to go against ya.. cause that would make things worse.. i'm not saying that everything is your fault k.. its juz that.. why are we quarrelling over such trivial matters ? its all juz a misunderstanding.. hmmm.. ya.. so yesterday was crap.. but praise the lord ! her dad is back in singapore safe and sound.. juz some bruises i guess.. hmmm.. please take care k ? i love you.. please understand.. (:

haha.. woo !! lolx..

2004-12-27T09:14:00.000+08:00

Haiz.. now in school having CO.. wahaha.. super sianz man.. haha.. my dear muz now be still sleeping seh.. haha.. hmm.. at least now i know why she's feeling so weird and sianz recently.. haha.. thanks for sharing.. more of like blogging.. lolx.. (: wahaha.. alamak.. i haven't really finish any homework man.. lolx.. always say wanna do and do den nv do.. lolx.. yesterday no church service lohz.. haha.. den actually wanted to do.. but den................. wahaha.. yesterday i whole day playing PS2.. wahaha.. play Metal Gear Solid 3 : Snake Eater.. wahaha.. shiok man ! i keep playing until very shiok man.. lolx.. got those very cool moves.. especially CQC moves.. haha.. Close quarter combat.. wahaha.. i keep disturbing the guy and threaten the guy.. haha.. den he keep shaking his ass and gimme some items.. lolx.. but in the end, sorry.. i had to kill him.. no trace were supposed to be left there.. haha.. so no choice lohz.. wahaha.. den yesterday i played until around 3.30 am... wahaha.. actually wanted to stop at 2am de lohz.. haha.. but den i wanted to see how its like to disguise myself and play around the place.. haha.. i had to disguise as a scientist in the lab.. wahaha.. den i keep hiding in the toilet when i'm being caught.. lolx.. juz really very funny man.. haha.. anyway.. yesterday was boxing day.. lolx.. the day when everybody open up their christmas gifts i guess.. haha.. and i went to school in the morning to play badminton, soccer and basketball.. wahaha.. ya.. den play until very shiok lohz.. haha.. i win meng hui in a 3 pointer game of basketball.. wahaha.. shiok seh.. very long nv play le.. wahaha.. but i oso dun intend to take any professional sport.. haha.. basketball might look really cool when you play, but i think its really not the kind of game for me.. lolx.. look around you and you see so many of those gangster type of people playing.. haha.. that's wad stopping me from playing basketball.. haha.. i juz dun like to hang around those people lohz.. lolx.. so i decided to stick to soccer and badminton.. i dun quite often play soccer, only sometimes play with the clever freaks in school lohz.. haha.. den badminton is my cca lohz.. so i had to continue the sport.. lolx.. i started it well, and i need to end it well.. wahaha.. sianz man.. lolx.. anyway, i think i'll stop here first.. later den continue to write again if got time lohz.. wahaha.. and i got a big stupid freaking pimple on my nose once again.. ahhh !! can't stand it man.. lolx.. its been like 6 days already lohz.. so long still haven't ok.. wad sia.. sick and tired of it.. haha.. trying to squeeze it out.. haha.. juz cannot take it anymore man !! wahaha.. ok lahz.. i'm going out to practice my instrument liaoz.. haha.. everyone already go out, left me.. here blogging.. wahaha.. okok.. take care people ! lolx.. (:

hmmm.. i already prayed for you last night.. well.. more of this morning.. haha.. when i was about to sleep.. haha.. you juz have to face reality.. nothing is forever.. i'll tell ya seriously.. haha.. in this scarce world.. you gotta live life to the fullest man.. lolx.. nv regret wad you've ever done.. be happy that you start well and end it well.. yes, you might feel lonely and stuff.. everyone always ask the same question ya see.. "Why Me ?" but its gotta be juz this way.. ok, i'll give ya an example.. for me.. before any of my badminton match.. i would always pray to god and ask him to guide me through this match and win.. but when you look on the other side.. wad if the other guy is also praying and doing exactly the same thing wad i was doing ? now who shall God help ? its the same theory to everything.. get it ? haha.. Always look on the bright side of life.. *whistle* lolx.. i love that advertisement man ! lolx.. so do not take things for granted.. everyone has his own mistakes.. but making a real mistake is when you make the same old mistake.. so when you've done something wrong, learn from it.. i always help people when applicable.. i made many mistakes in my life.. even now, i'm still making the same old mistake.. haha.. i'm still trying, but sometimes, its really hard.. haha.. but you need to at least try.. lolx.. hmmm... hope this really helps to some of you out there.. esp YOU !! haha.. okok.. i said i was going to go lehz !! why am i still here ? lolx.. okok.. bye guys !! wahaha..

I LOVE YOU !!

PELYN ROCKS MY ASS !! =X

Screwed up !

2004-12-23T21:14:00.000+08:00

haiz.. fed up already lahz.. one by one not steady.. dun go for christmas countdown.. guess i'll go alone again.. den some more nowadays messag her, she takes so long to reply.. i really practicing my endurance already man.. all these things are really driving me nuts.. dunno when will this sort of things really end.. first and foremost, can anyone define the word friends ? i think there are many classification of friends man.. first is hi bye friends.. secondly is good frens as in always go out de lohz.. den thirdly is best frens where you share secrets and stuff.. i really dunno wad's going on in my life.. come to think about it, i dun have any good friends or best friends.. which i'm still trying to search for.. it juz ain't coming yet.. i've been patient already.. its already been 3 years.. and still.. haiz.. sometimes i juz bottle things up and yea.. i juz dun like to share quite alot.. i'm afraid that could make me vulnerable.. so its better i keep things to myself.. some really major ones.. i can't really share it with anyone as yet.. as personally i think that friendship are developed stage by stage.. and i dun think any of my hi bye friends had reached that stage yet.. so you know ? i'll juz try to leave things as it is lahz.. the only reason why i'm not communicating much with guys is because most of them, they dun really need a person like me.. haha... seriously speaking.. i'm someone who dun really open up that much.. you want me to joke, not really a problem.. but when it comes to talking about personal life, i think that's really a different story.. and the reason why girls i can communicate better is because, they are willing to share their problems.. and i'm juz the kind who sits and listen and help you out.. sometimes i really wonder.. why can i help others but i cannot help myself ? its juz weird ya see.. haha... its the same thing i could not figure out for years.. maybe this is life.. lonliness !! poo... maybe that's my life.. all i have now is only her.. she's the only one that accompanies me now.. haiz.. and if she stops communicating with me, guess wad my life would be ? juz take today as an example.. i juz felt like a drunken man swaying around in my room.. its juz gives you that kind of feeling.. is this the kind of life that i really deserve ? its been a long time since i've written this kinda post.. cause maybe i bottled it up too long.. it have to come out, if not things would not juz be the way you guys see it today.. i'm really tired... literally... they say secondary school is where you get the most friends.. but i dun think so.. maybe this isn't the life i want it to be.. nvm.. i'll wait till i go to tertiary level and see whether i can really find FRIENDS... true friends.. sometimes i really wanna be with people together, ya know ? fellowship ? but they juz keep rejecting me every... single... time.. wad could i do ? i definitely cannot force them.. an dall i can say is "oh... ok, nvm.." i think i really had enough of it.. i think its time i live a solo life and maybe God is my only true friend that i get... poo !! getting kinda fed up already.. nvm.. i'll juz make do with it.. i think i plan my life to only include God, me and her.. i cannot even get along with my family.. great.. i juz got rejected by someone again.. thanks ah !! really thank you !! gosh.. nvm.. my parents are like hi bye friends to me.. my bro has reached somewhere higher than hi bye, but not yet good friends.. so.. where could i turn to huh ? you tell me.. no family support, no friends to support.. haha.. juz great !! i guess its only her den.. nvm.. i'll juz make do with it den.. hmmm... but she's so busy nowadays.. wanna ask her out oso difficult.. got this got that.. haha.. life is so miserable.. one day ! i juz belive one day, God will send me a true friends.. amen..

juz hope that you could spend more time with me ya ? i miss you lots.. please take care of yourself k.. tomorrow you still have your last performance.. dun worry, i'll be there, even if no one wanna tag alone.. haha.. i'll be supporting ya all the way.. i'll shout with the loudest voice i got.. wahaha.. shiok ritez ? anyway.. tomorrow you still got wedding thing.. haha.. so shiok.. den wad bareback arz ? lolx.. should take photo man... haha.. let me see the growth in you.. lolx.. ahahaha.. anyway.. juz take your meals regularly and all the best for ur performance k ? i love you.. God bless ya.. !! Xp

Pelyn is a great dancer ^_^

2004-12-22T16:28:00.001+08:00

haha.. nowadays oso tired man.. den oso lazy to blog already man.. lolx.. yesterday afternoon went shopping with my parents lohz.. den bought alot of clothing lahz.. haha.. wanted to buy boxers, but den i see liaoz so ex, den nv buy.. haha.. den after that i from cwp walk to woodlands sports hall lohz.. den play badminton with them.. a very relaxed game lahz, not much stress.. lolx.. ya.. den when i was playing badminton, den my dear message me tell me she go cwp to meet sarah lohz.. she say sarah miss her alot.. pengz.. i miss her alot she oso nv come out and meet me.. haha.. other people miss her den she come out and meet them.. alamak.. wad sia.. lolx.. den we keep booking new court when our court finish lohz.. haha.. den we play until 3 plus lohz.. haha.. den we all finally stopped.. lolx.. den a few of us went to eat lohz.. alamak.. damn hungry lohz.. haha.. my lunch i ate a bit only.. lolx.. so after my badminton i went to causeway to eat lohz.. wahaha.. suprisingly, i saw her there.. sitting there with zhi jie and one unknown guy which i dunno and dun wish to know.. lolx.. poo !! finally man.. we met in such a pathetic place, the food court.. wahaha.. pengz.. haha.. nvm.. den i oso nv really approach her or something lohz.. dun wanna disturb her with her friends lohz.. lolx.. juz look at her a couple of times only.. haha.. den we took a different seat lohz.. lolx.. den we go and buy our food and eat lohz.. lolx.. shiok man.. beef noodles.. i ask the aunty to gimme more noodles, den got wad den add wad lahz.. wahaha.. shiok ritez ? i very cheapskate one lahz.. i like to eat cheap stuff that is nice and can make me full.. i oso quite kiasu oso.. got wad i oso want de lohz.. haha.. as long can eat can already lahz.. wahaha.. den suddenly when i eating half way, den she "BOO!".. den i'm like -_-".. haha.. people eating den you come scare people, later kena choke den die how ? lolx.. but luckily,i'm a strong guy.. so won't choke to death that easily.. wahaha.. Xp den her hands was on my shoulder, whaaa... its like an angel sent from heaven touching me like that.. lolx.. the worst part is she mess up my hair.. pengz.. so short already oso wanna mess up my hair.. haha.. wad sia.. lolx.. den after a while she follow sarah go civics and pay some kinda bill lohz.. den i saw mr thomas than with his girlfriend in the food court lohz.. den i go and disturb him.. den alamak, he counter-attack and disturb me.. wad sia.. lolx.. not fair man !! haha.. his girlfriend is there, so i give him face.. haha.. den i went to the timezone store there lohz.. haha.. wad make new friends.. lolx.. not bad ah.. make your own soft toy.. maybe one day i go and make one for her.. haha.. xmas gift lahz huh ? see how lahz.. if busy den nxt time lohz.. wahaha.. sia lahz.. den as i was about to go home, walking down from the escalator, outside sportslink, i saw her again lohz.. den she diao me den walk away.. wad sia.. bb oso dunno how to say.. humph.. haha.. den i went home lohz.. den i saw thomas than again.. den he knock my head again.. alamak.. wad sia.. lolx.. once again, he's with his girlfriend, so i dun counter back.. haha.. later he throw face arz.. woOps.. wahaha.. Xp.. Den i went home to bathe lohz.. den sleep until around 6.20pm.. haha.. den woke up and eat my dinner.. den faster change and go out liaoz.. haha.. muz rush for my dear's performance.. starts at 8pm.. haha.. but i go buy scotchtape from popular first lohz.. den the queue so long, i so scared i cannot make it man.. haha.. den i was juz hoping i wasn't late.. lolx.. den i pray to god, as him to protect and guide her thru her performace lohz.. haha.. BUT... luckily i went there on time to see her dance.. the first time i went there den correct liaoz.. haha.. she never even tell me where it is held and wad time lohz.. but on sunday night she went to watch her friend's performance mahz.. and it starts at 8 oso.. so i oso felt that it start at that time lohz.. haha.. den the problem is i need to find the place lohz.. luckily i nv go to lucky plaza that part man.. i thought it was like near heeren or something.. haha.. heng ah.. first try den correct liaoz.. cause when i came out from the escalator.. i looked around.. see which place is the right one.. den only got one put orchard.. the rest is wad scotts road or something.. haha.. den i go orchard that road lohz.. haha.. den as i was going up, i saw some people wearing the santa hats.. den i thought that this was the right place already.. haha.. she told me that she had to put on the santa hat.. haha.. den i looked around.. den suddenly i saw one whole group of kids.. den got one adult carrying a board saying chc kids, blah blah blah.. haha.. den i was like finding her.. den dun have.. lolx.. she kinda blend in there.. woOps.. wahaha.. den i finally found the place lohz.. front row or taken up.. so i can only stand in the middle there lohz.. ALONE !! wahaha.. nobody wanna go with me.. haha.. she thought i was kidding nia.. hello ??!! this kind of thing sounds like joking mehz ? haha.. i go there and support you lehz.. lolx.. den saw her dance.. wahaha.. not bad seh.. main star lahz.. stand in front, trying to show her muscle or something lahz.. for starting pose... wahaha.. i was there giggling.. lolx.. so cute.. haha.. den the dance started.. wahaha.. wad sia.. so short only.. haha.. it was like 1 or 2 mins only.. den no more le.. i'm like.. i wasted around 45 mins rushing to orchard and you let me see a few mins of your dancing.. lolx.. thanks ah.. haha.. den i stayed until around 9.30 lohz.. den i keep messaging her den she never reply lohz.. haha.. den i went to find a drink at 7-eleven.. haha.. den bought a big gulp lohz.. lolx.. shiok man.. didn't manage to finish though, alot of gas man.. i drank 100 plus... wahaha.. den i message her times and times again.. still no reply.. haha.. den i thought she might be busy lahz.. den i go off first lohz.. haha.. den when i reached home den she reply me.. pengz.. wad sia.. lolx.. nonsense ritez ? take so long to reply me.. she nowadays oso take quite a long time to reply man.. haha.. lucky i'm a patient person.. lolx.. den i wait for her to go home lohz.. haha.. thanks lahz, go back with cell friends.. lolx.. den i'm like diaoz.. haha.. den i wait for her to bathe finish den we talk on the phone lohz.. haha. i use my handphone to call her.. wahaha.. if not later my mother will come in and scold me again lohz.. wahaha.. dun like it lahz.. disturb only lohz.. haha.. so no choice lohz.. lolx.. den after we put down den we message each other lohz.. alamak.. talking about messaging at night.. she never eat her lunch and dinner lohz.. alamak.. can anyone survive without eating 2 meals ? wad sia.. some more she juz finished her dance lohz.. not hungry de mehz ? wad sia.. always skip her meals.. alamak.. dunno wad to do oso sia.. she always say eat eat eat den nv eat.. wad sia... haha.. i was so happy i managed to see her thrice yesterday lohz.. wahaha.. shiok man.. better than nothing i guessed.. haha.. thank god for that.. haha.. even i saw her, i still miss her loads man.. haha.. she juz keep appearing in my mind lohz.. lolx.. i love you dear.. you are always in my heart.. and you totally rock my world man.. always talk to me de lohz.. not bad arz.. haha.. we talked almost every night.. lolx.. god bless ya.. sianz man.. i'll stop here ba.. haha.. bye guys ! thanks for reading, please post comments on my tag board.. haha.. thanks.. 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Hmm..

2004-12-19T19:35:00.000+08:00

poo.. yesterday was such a shiok day man.. morning woke up and go to school for chinese orchestra practice.. den after that went to eat lohz.. lolx.. den told them about the russel peter's comedy show jokes.. lolx.. damn funny man... wahaha.. den afternoon went to swiss cottage secondary school for an chinese orchestra.. wahaha.. shiok man.. they are so good man ! lolx.. they played the kitaro song.. alamak.. that song was my favourite instrumental song when i was very young, probably around 3-4 years old.. lolx.. yeah.. so it was really cool.. the coolest part is when we performed long teng hu yue together.. alamak.. it was so freaking cool i tell ya.. lolx.. it makes you feel proud to perform with them.. haha.. so its really kinda cool.. lolx.. yeah !! got the feeling lahz huh.. haha.. yup.. den they brought us around the school lohz.. haha.. nothing much oso lahz.. wahaha.. ya.. after the performance den nothing much liaoz lahz.. so i quickly rushed to the nearest mrt station which is bukit gombak.. need to go to city hall and meet my family.. cause we stayed in a hotel mahz.. wahaha.. i tell you this...this is the first time i felt like a king in my life.. lolx.. when i enter the hotel, got people open the door for me.. den they'll say good afternoon sir ! den anyone who walk past me oso greet me.. wahaha.. like i'm some kinda big shot or something.. wahaha.. yeah.. den enter the room lahz.. oh my gosh !! it was so amazing man.. haha.. especialy the toilet.. i dun mind sleeping in it man.. its juz so grand.. wahaha.. anyway, the hotel's name is conrad or something like that.. juz kinda cool.. heard from my brother that one night there cost about US 300 dollars.. den i'm like diaoz.. bring me to such an expensive place for wad ? i rather stay at home and sleep man.. lolx.. yeah.. den my parents brought me to a steak house called Outback.. and i ate my dinner there lohz.. haha.. it was realy cool in there.. haha.. i ate braised sirloin and fried cheese.. woo hoo.. the cheese is so cool ! lolx.. den the sirloin was really tender.. haha.. ya.. den i went to cut my hair after i ate.. alamak.. no more long hair already.. sianz.. never mind.. lolx.. like that neater.. den wanna act like an ah beng or something.. wahaha.. at least i look more decent like this.. lolx.. ya.. den my brother nv come along lohz, cause he's sick.. so he rest at the hotel.. haha.. den when i went home he still sleeping lohz.. so i did not want to play any games or wad, later disturb him.. so i went to sleep lohz.. cannot sleep sia.. haha.. i juz keep turning here and there.. lolx.. cause i really miss her man.. juz wished she was with me then.. den i could like have her around my arms and sleep soundly.. haha.. but i always dream of the impossible.. as in of my current state lahz.. lolx.. den i message her she oso take so long to reply.. den sometimes really very bored lohoz.. haha.. lucky i got her photo with me.. so can see her whenever i want to.. lolx.. ya.. hmmm.. den she replied me at around 9 plus lohz.. den i woke up and went out to find food alone.. den my parents keep asking me whether i meeting my friends or wad.. they scared i go meet her or something.. lolx.. den when i reached suntec's fod court and eat, my brother called me and asked me where i was.. bet it was my parents who ask him to come.. haha.. but who cares ? i oso dun do anything behind my back.. join me den join me lohz.. big deal.. lolx.. ya.. den i message her until she fell asleep man.. wth.. wanna talk on the phone one lehz...den she go and fall asleep.. den nvm lahz, sleep oso sleep already, wad can i do.. den i wished her goodnight and stuff thru sms den walk around suntec with my brother lohz..den went to carrefour.. den met my aunty there.. den i was shocked lohz.. lolx.. ya.. den we walk around looking for food.. but when we looked at the queue, we said, forget it.. lolx.. alamak.. so many people man.. wahaha.. ya.. den reach back to the hotel that time, we play soccer lohz.. as in PS2 game lahz.. haha.. my brother brought PS2 there.. haha.. played a few matches den we went to sleep liaoz.. the time was around midnight lohz.. haha.. ya.. den i slept until around 8am.. my parents woke me up, ask us wanna go to the gym and exercise a not.. lolx.. den i'm like.. hello ??!! i'm sleeping here !! please do not disturb.. lolx.. den i juz replied NO to them lohz.. haha.. so early wake up juz to go to the gym.. alamak.. wad sia... disturb my sleep only.. lolx.. ya.. den woke up liaoz den go and eat breakfast in the hotel.. dunno wad oscar one lahz.. haha.. its a breakfast buffet.. lolx.. so shiok man.. i keep eating and eating non stop, until i very full.. lolx.. most suprisingly is i saw vincent there.. lolx.. vincent is our school's CO percussionist.. wahaha.. ya.. den we juz said hi den walk off lohz.. lolx.. den i went back up to the hotel and sleep lohz.. haha.. den later my mother and brother went to the bookstore.. they ask me wanna go a not, den i said no lohz.. lolx.. den a while later i entered the bathroom to soak myself in the bath tub.. wahaha.. shiok mmn.. lolx.. den i did my quiet time in the bathroom while soaking.. haha.. den i keep praying lohz.. lolx.. thank god for everything.. wahaha.. den as i was doing my quiet time, something from my bible drop out, den i'm like.. Shit !! lolx.. haha..so i juz scoop it up and throw it on the floor to dry.. lolx.. cool huh ? wahaha...the toilet was so big lohz.. with mirror facing you everywhere.. haha.. cool man.. lolx.. den when i came out, its also about time that we needed to check out lohz.. haha.. ya.. den that's all for the hotel trip lohz.. haha.. den i went back home, placed the stuff and went to my cousin's house.. so i'm like stuck here now.. haha.. its so boring in here.. haha.. den my cousin brought his stead home.. aww... den i suddenly think of pelyn.. one day !! i'll wait.. lolx.. ya.. i really miss her man.. message her den oso dunno wad's taking her so long to reply.. haha.. heard that after bible study today, she went out with her friend to orchard.. her friend had a performance at 8pm today.. haha.. ya.. den she told me she was pissed with her friend.. den when i replied her, she never reply.. hmmm.. never mind, i'll juz wait then.. haha.. patience is all i need and i believe i have it.. lolx.. ya.. juz miss her so much man.. wahaha.. k lahz.. guess 'll write till here for today !! hand kinda tired already man.. lolx.. thank you guys for reading, please post at the tag board some comments.. cause i'm like soooo bored nowadays.. gimme something to reply can ? lolx..Xp

I Love you dear.. please nv ever leave me alone.. i hate loneliness.. i dun mind going through thick and thin with ya, as long as you are with me.. please forgive me if i've done anything wrong, you need to know that i really do love ya.. k ? haha.. luv you lots.. Xp

I really do love you... (:

2004-12-16T01:10:00.000+08:00

haha.. hi guys ! again.... lolx.. its been a long time since i blog huh ? sorry about that.. had been busy with some stuffs like the youth camp and stuff lahz huh.. sorry ! lolx.. ya.. last time i posted was like on wednesday ? so it had been a week liaoz.. lolx.. anyway.. nothing much really happened lahz.. on last friday, training was kinda slack oso lahz.. haha.. cause we were supposed to prepare for the camp.. haha.. ya.. den i went home and eat first.. den bathe lohz.. haha.. den prepare my bag cause i haven't pack.. haha.. i always last minute one lahz.. lolx.. ya.. den reached school at around 1.15pm lohz.. lolx.. met haresh on the bus too.. haha.. so we came together lohz.. lolx.. yeah.. den starting is admin stuff lohz.. like grouping and rooms stuff.. haha.. den i am in Eugene's group.. so i'm like.. wad the.. haha.. but as the days gone by, really liked him lohz.. very funny and siao siao guy.. lolx.. ya.. den group 1 and 2 combine to form one group.. den our group is called "Heart Attack".. haha.. shiok man.. wahaha... ya.. den everyday got session and worship lohz.. lolx.. den got amazing race and the food game "Shi Zhi Lu Kou"... haha.. very fun man.. wahaha.. session and worship was very good lohz.. learnt many things about love.. haha.. den worship oso very shiok lahz.. all the songs i know one, den some more very nice to sing oso.. haha.. ya.. so it was really good.. haha.. den the games oso very fun lahz.. lolx.. we were like supposed to sing outside lot 1's macdonald for one of the task for amazing race.. den i was like diaoz.. but everyone was doing it.. so i joined it.. i suddenly felt the sense of satisfaction.. one whole group together.. haha.. team work lohz.. haha.. ya.. den the food game oso shiok lahz.. eat and eat.. whaha... i nv eat much oso.. lolx.. muz maintain my image lahz huh.. haha.. it was juz very fun lohz.. lolx.. really enjoyed it.. did not regret going.. wahaha.. ya.. den monday training was like diaoz.. not even training lohz.. lolx.. den got chc people want to use the hall.. so we muz close shop.. haha.. den i rush home lohz.. got chinese orchestra mahz.. lolx.. den i rush lohz.. haha.. den go there and sleep again as they practice xing kong.. haha.. den i ask my friend to wake me up when they practise fen yong.. lolx.. ya.. den again practise one song den i slack again lohz.. haha.. ya lahz.. den nothing much lohz.. lolx... den go home and chat with pelyn online till around 9pm lohz.. den she go watch her show.. haha.. of cuz got break in the middle lahz.. you think i siao arz ? lolx.. ya.. den after she go offline.. den i went to watch my brother play PS2.. den i watch until fell asleep.. i didn't even know lohz.. haha.. sorry ah dear.. didn't talk on that night.. i'm like so freaking tired.. lolx... every night sleep for about 3-4 hours only.. can die man.. haha.. oh ya.. i suddenly remember.. the camp oso got play angel mortal game.. haha.. sia lahz.. my mortal is a guys as always.. sianz man.. can't they gimme a gal ? lolx.. lucky my angel is a gal haha.. okok.. back to topic ! lolx.. really sorry ah dear.. hehe.. tired lahz huh.. sorry sorry.. den you message me i oso nv hear cause my handphone is in silent mode... as wad you always do.. trying to learn from you lahz huh.. haha... ya.. that's all for monday.. den tuesday nothing much lahz.. my stupid clock no battery.. den i see the time is 10+ already... den i quickly wake up.. only to find out that it is only 8am.. haha.. so i washed up and ate my breakfast.. haha.. den went back to sleep for another 3 hours like that.. lolx.. den use my com for the whole day lohz.. wahaha.. after the camp, i kinda grew more spiritual lohz.. really glad that i've returned from backsliding.. haha.. need to start things all over again.. haha.. ya.. den the whole day i worshipped God lohz.. lolx... den my dear oso in the full dress rehearsal lohz.. not so convenient to message her oso.. lolx.. i already told her lohz.. i cannot be with her 24/7 lohz, and she oso cannot be with me 24/7.. but God can be with us 24/7.. so when pelyn is busy.. i'll go find god to accompany me.. lolx.. not bad huh.. haha.. ya.. den today morning pelyn message me lohz.. lolx.. she say that wad waking up and running 5km was crap and said that she could meet me in school.. anyway.. she had to go to school after her full dress rehearsal cuz she got church camp.. haha.. so we could meet up lohz.. lolx.. i was so happy in the morning lohz.. haha.. den when i reach school.. cannot contact her.. den when my badminton was about to start, you messaged me.. haha.. told me she was still sleeping.. den i was like diaoz.. haha.. k lohz.. never mind.. den i ask her to continue to sleep lohz.. since she's so tired.. muz understand lahz huh.. haha.. so let her sleep lohz.. i continued with my badminton training... haha.. alamak.. today run 4.5km lehz.. i muz run lesser than 25 minutes lohz.. lolx.. den i'm like.. oh shit !! so little time.. haha.. but lucky i passed the race.. 23:45 was my timing.. kinda disappointed though.. i stopped at around 3 quarter of my last round.. was really tired.. den feel like vomitting lohz.. haha..but lucky i still pass.. lolx.. heng man.. its the process of the run that i was really amazed.. I prayed when i was running my first round.. i asked God to guide me through this race of my life and give me the strength to pass this test.. den indeed he really showed me his ways lohz.. haha.. i did not feel tired until the ending part.. i'm so glad man ! this really proves that God is real.. usually i would feel tired when i ran finish my second round.. second round was like can make you lie down there and die there already.. haha.. den this time.. i did not feel tired until the final path of my race lohz.. i was really glad man ! God is sooooooOOooo.. Real ! haha.. i was like singing worshipping songs as i was running until i ran out of breath.. lolx.. sang in my heart lahz.. not show out like that.. haha.. ya.. that's all for badminton lahz.. den i left earlier lohz.. at around 12 noon.. cause i'm meeting my childhood friend.. alamak.. my very first girlfriend nv go.. she had choir practise.. lolx.. only the two elder sister went.. haha.. den we went to watch shutter.. the horror show.. alamak.. the story not very good lahz.. but quite exciting... lolx.. ya.. den nothing much lahz.. i nv talked much oso.. oso dunno why i so shy lehz.. haha.. but i'm like so siao in school lohz.. lolx.. wha piang... haha.. ya..den went back home lohz.. lolx.. den my friend's mum ask me whether got girlfriend a not.. den i juz immediately say yes lohz.. haha.. i did not even have second thoughts... lolx.. hmmm.. i think its like sooner or later that my parents would find out lohz.. so why not now lohz.. haha.. i'm really ready for it.. lolx.. something really shocked me when wen fu shared his testimonial with us lohz.. err.. he had a stead that broke up with him after one and a half years of relationship.. haha... whaaa.. i hear that i oso scared already man.. a one and a half year relationship lehz.. its a very strong one man !! lolx.. still will break arz.. alamak.. juz felt kinda worried lohz.. haha.. den pelyn recently messaged me lohz.. saying probably tomorrow meeting oso cannot make it cause her mum wanna pick her up.. haha.. pengz.. can die man.. 3 meetings planned all oso cannot make it.. lolx.. God's will man... haha.. i dunno lahz.. haha.. i juz let everything be as it should be lahz.. let nature take is own course.. lolx... ya..
i really miss her man.. its been a long time we really met up and talk.. ya.. the last meeting was like during the chalet lohz.. alamak.. den some more she never stay overnight.. hmmm.. very hard to bond lahz huh.. haha.. so i'm like trying to maintain a voice to voice relationship lohz.. lolx.. that's the only way out for now lohz.. since her parents are like kind of objecting her to having a boyfriend.. so i'm like.. juz have to be patient lohz.. haha.. so i juz need to keep waiting when things really goes more comfortable for her lohz.. i really hope things could go more smoothly lahz huh.. i dunno.. i juz need to be strong !! well.. mentally of course.. haha.. Xp I really love her lots man... juz missing her everytime i feel lonely.. and sometimes couldn't contact her really worries me and all these stuff.. i need to persist on !! hmm.. guess that's the only way.. some more next year after my O level, have to leave the school for my tertiary.. alamak.. i very scared that's when the relationship break down man.. hmmm.. i dunno.. i'll juz pray to god that he will show me the right way for me.. hmmm.. Guess i gotta sleep now.. kinda late already.. gonna do my QT before i sleep tonight.. haha.. take care guys ! i love you dear.. hope we'll last forever.. hmm.. haha.. really miss ya right now.. bye bye !! Xp

Sianz...

2004-12-08T22:15:00.000+08:00

poo ! today.. got badminton.. lolx.. err.. not bad lahz huh.. quite like today's training.. the physical was somewhat or another easy for me.. haha.. juz footwork and picking shuttles.. haha..looks easy but kinda difficult if you keep doing it.. wahaha.. i do until 3-4th set den tired liaoz.. lolx.. den the fifth set I chiong man.. really chiong.. compete with meng hui.. lucky for me ! i won.. wahaha... training today was quite relaxed lahz huh... i can still sleep lehz... lolx.. ya.. den i went back home at around 2 plus lohz.. haha.. den go home eat.. and watch tv.. lolx.. den bathe and sleep.. lolx.. alamak.. I messaged my dear half way den fell asleep.. wahaha.. cause i too tired lahz huh.. bleah.. den sleep till about 5 or 6 plus.. can't remember.. den start doing my homework lohz.. wahaha.. it's a miracle that i would do my homework lohz.. i always those last minute one.. lolx.. but i do the chemistry do until sianz already man.. haha.. den decided to change subject.. but sianz lahz.. haha.. so i sing song.. lolx.. sing already den watch tv.. haha.. den after the show, come online and blog liaoz.. haha.. so i nv change subject in the end.. lolx.. ya.. today oso nothing much lahz huh.. juz training and den sleep lohz.. juz these two major things.. wahaha.. sia lahz... my post like getting lesser and lesser.. this cannot be !! i muz crap more !! lolx.. haiyo.. but write so long oso no use lehz.. haha.. but who cares.. juz keep writing lohz.. lolx.. anyway.. juz now alycia messaged me.. ask me whether i wanna go for her cell a not.. den i oso dunno whether wanna go a not lehz.. haha.. den friday oso got the youth camp.. feel like going but... dun have her.. oso sianz lehz.. haha...

Wooo... she today woke up at around 11 plus.. alamak.. so shiok.. while i'm suffering.. i woke up at around 7.50 lohz.. haha.. so can die man.. lolx.. never mind.. already sleep in the afternoon, so nvm.. wahaha.. alamak ! den in ther evening when i woke up, den really miss her lohz.. feel like hugging her real tight right now at that moment.. haha.. den i messaged her.. den she say let me hug next time.. and next time is like next tuesday ?? wahaha.. yes yes yes !! lolx... so you know ? tactic lahz huh... haha.. okok.. guess i'll write till here.. going to wash up den call her liaoz.. bye guys.. I love you dear !! hehe.. Xp

Finally !

2004-12-07T22:03:00.000+08:00

Wahaha.. juz now dunno why cannot write post.. cannot come into the page.. lolx.. well.. anyway.. now can liaoz.. haha.. so who cares.. lolx.. haha.. ya.. today oso nothing much lahz huh.. i woke up at around 11.. almost the same time as my dear lahz huh.. i think i slept longer than her by juz a few minutes.. haha.. yes yes yes !! lolx.. someone break record sia.. wake up on her own accord.. not bad not bad.. but can't you wake up earlier ?? lolx.. anyway.. today oso nothing much lahz huh.. haha.. this morning turn on my computer then vic suddenly send me virus.. lolx.. den i tell her, her com tio virus she dun believe me.. haha.. but who cares.. lolx.. lucky my com is fully protected.. wahaha.. too bad so sad.. lolx.. ya.. den i was like messing around my computer until lunch time around 1.30 lohz.. haha.. den eat lunch lohz.. haha.. lunch not bad lahz huh.. lolx.. den watch soccer lohz.. the encore match of man utd and south.. haha.. i oso know the score liaoz.. 3 - 0... haha.. so i juz watch a bit only.. lolx... ya.. den i juz keep slacking lohz.. lie on my bed.. pracitise my suona.. den play PS2.. den watch TV.. haha.. can watch until hi5 man.. lolx.. ya.. den my dear told me she online mahz.. so i come online oso lohz.. lolx.. den talk talk talk.. den ya.. go eat my dinner.. haha.. den come back up and talk to my dear again lohz.. haha.. den talk until so far.. lolx.. talk until having children and stuff.. WoOps.. lolx.. ya lohz.. that's all lahz.. den she go and watch tv liaoz lohz.. haha.. den alycia juz now message me whether i wanna go for her cell anot.. lolx.. den i oso dunno lehz.. haha... anyway, now i'm going to bathe and i'm gonna call her later.. lolx..

Wahaha.. yesterday i talk to her on the phone hor.. den you know ?? i said the 3 words ? you know you know ? that's like the first time i opened my mouth and say that lohz...alamak.. haha.. not bad lahz huh.. first timer.. lolx.. ahhh.. juz love her so much man.. she means so much in my life man.. wahaha.. juz miss her so much every night.. lolx.. Xp

I LOVE PELYN FOREVER !

So tired..

2004-12-06T17:35:00.000+08:00

haha.. sorry arz.. yesterday nv blog.. wahaha.. anyway.. yesterday oso nothing much lahz huh.. lolx.. i was in church in the morning den after that come home and pack my room... den my mother come in and ask me whether wanna go friend's house to fix computer den go out and eat.. haha.. den i say anything lohz.. lolx.. den we go all the way to pasir ris to fix the com.. den went out to eat lohz.. sia lahz.. order so many food man.. got black pepper crab, cereal prawns, fish, chicken and alot lahz.. wahaha.. den i keep chiong-ing the chicken.. wha !! the skin damn shiok man.. lolx.. den i oso eat a lot of crab.. super shiok arz.. lolx.. ya.. den come home oso very late liaoz lohz.. bathe den use my computer for a while.. go in ChrRo for a while den go out liaoz.. haha.. cause its already 10 plus.. normal procedure.. this kinda time muz talk to my dear liaoz.. lolx.. ya.. den we juz keep talking lohz.. talk and talk until about 12.30 like that i think.. den the brother come in say wanna use the phone.. diaoz.. lolx.. disturb only sia.. wahaha.. never mind, i forgive him.. haha.. ya.. that's all for yesterday lohz.. wahaha...

Today oso damn tiring man.. lolx.. morning woke up at around 7.55am.. haha.. got badminton mahz.. haha.. den wash up and everything lohz.. den ready only at around 8.30.. lolx.. den my dad drive me to school lohz.. haha.. shiok man.. no need to walk.. lolx.. that is so cool ! wahaha.. den today's training quite slack lahz huh.. juz train one time den play game liaoz... alamak !! i lose 2 matches.. i even lost to cheng ken lohz... this makes me need to reflect liaoz lohz.. i'm not supposed to lose to him lohz, according to my standard lahz.. haha.. so.. ya.. juz need to work really hard liaoz lohz.. haha.. den run the corridor, 25 rounds den pumping 100 times.. lolx.. running damn sianz man... quite tiring lahz huh.. den finish everything le den cheng ken and I go the first level toilet and bathe.. lolx.. not bad lahz huh.. not so dirty... haha.. bathe liaoz den we go up lohz.. lolx.. den still got debrief.. sianz.. haha.. den listen for about 15 - 20 minutes den finally say can go.. haha.. cause he said about this friday's youth camp lohz.. i dunno whether should g oa not lehz.. haha.. FREE lehz.. !! lolx.. as in... i can eat all i want lohz.. shiok lehz.. haha.. sure got some people who eat very little one lohz.. haha.. den i can steal their left over food.. lolx.. woOps.. wahaha.. but need to see how lahz huh.. lolx.. den we go downstairs and eat le lohz.. wahaha.. so damn hungry man.. den the aunty give so little food.. lolx.. so pathetic man.. but never mind lahz huh.. can eat good liaoz ! lolx.. den suddenly mdm wan held a bottle of shuttle and a stack of shuttle in her hands.. haha.. i see her like that, first impression is "OH NO !!" !! lolx.. den everything oso captain's fault lohz.. captain need to rush for co den you all like that lohz.. haha.. never mind... without the captain like you all will die like that.. everything oso rely on me ! lolx.. den she say wad.. err.. captain should be more responsible... den i'm like " ya ya ya ya ya..." lolx.. i heard those things a dozen of times liaoz.. wahaha.. den i dun care lahz.. den i chiong up for co.. haha.. den haven't start mahz.. den we play the drum... lolx.. so shiok man.. haha.. den the first song they practised was xing kong again.. so i was like sleeping there again lohz.. too tired liaoz.. cannot blame.. den the chair too hard to sleep, so i went to sleep near the piano there.. can lie down mahz.. haha... den i sleep a while only den he say change song.. diaoz.. lolx.. den my song he practised like 2 times only.. ok, den pack up time for me only ! lolx.. waste my time sia.. can't they gimme some new songs to practice ? so sianz lohz.. haha.. ya.. den like that lohz.. nothing much lahz.. den muz carry my suona home.. sia lahz.. so heavy man... sianz.. den i some more carrying my badminton bag lehz.. haha... stupid sia.. lolx.. nothing le lahz i think.. haha..

haha.. i think next time blog hor, muz leave the last paragraph for writing things for me dear one.. lolx.. tactic arz.. wahaha... she woke up so late today lohz.. wahaha.. den some more today is her mother's birthday.. sia lahz.. so many birthday man.. haha.. recently is her brother's birthday, now is her mother's.. diaoz.. lolx.. cannot blame lahz huh.. her family very big ah.. haha... den she help cut her mother's and brother's hair.. some more can tell me that she ruined their hair.. lolx.. stupid sia.. woOps.. wahaha.. ahhhh... actually these few days i had been thinking lohz.. wad will happen to us lohz.. after i leave the school for my tertiary studies.. dunno whether we will still last a not lohz.. haiz.. sometimes things are juz like that.. you dun want it to happen, but it surely will happen in one way or another one.. lolx.. juz hope that she can endure all obstacles lohz, and stay faithful... haha... like that den sure ok one.. lolx.. another worst thing is NS.. wha sianz.. hear until NS den i really wanna die liaoz lohz.. yesterday when eating dinner, talk about NS... yesterday talk to my dear, oso got talk until about NS.. this morning my coach debrief us, oso got talk about NS... wahaha... damn sianz lohz.. hope i can get injured or something, den no need to continue NS... next time be driver best lahz ! no need to come back for reservice.. lolx.. I really miss her alot lahz huh.. every night.. before i sleep.. den will always think about her.. haha.. if only can paste one big big poster of her on my ceiling man ! wahaha.. like that den shiok liaoz man.. wahaha.. every night can keep staring and admiring.. woOps.. lolx.. best ah is my whole room paste her poster.. lolx.. door muz paste, wall muz paste, cupboard muz paste and maybe floor oso muz paste.. lolx.. EEeee.. no no.. floor cannot paste.. later other people anyhow step step.. lolx.. cannot cannot !! maybe my bed sheet and everything can change to her face liaoz lahz huh.. haha.. that one a little too extreme liaoz lahz huh.. lolx.. maybe fork and spoon can carve her name on it, plate can have her face.. wahaha.. shiok man.. anyway.. my parents oso know about us liaoz lohz.. haha so never mind.. lolx.. big deal.. but wad i find weird is why they never ask me about her name ?? lolx.. well.. who cares anyway.. lolx.. Pelyn pelyn.. do you really know how much i love you ? haha... this is getting no where.. maybe should broadcast on TV.. woOps.. lolx.. anyway.. look at this man !! Xp

I LOVE YOU PELYN !!!

Sianz..

2004-12-04T23:17:00.000+08:00

WHA PIANG EH.. blog half way den com sot sot.. now i muz retype everything all over again.. lolx.. i oso forgot wad i wrote man.. haha.. never mind lahz huh.. lolx.. this time, i'm not going to write everything all over again.. juz summarised everything up.. lolx.. This morning woke up at around 11am lohz.. lolx.. yesterday talk to dear till about 1am.. wahaha.. i was like so freaking tired lohz.. lolx.. yesterday got badminton den chinese orchestra.. haha.. come back oso tired liaoz lohz.. haha.. i woke up at many intervals today.. at from 6am to 9am.. every 1 hr interval i will wake up.. my brother woke up at 6 mahz.. have to go for guard duty.. den i woke up lohz.. den so early.. went back to sleep again.. lolx.. den everytime wake up and see the clock den will always say.. "So Early !!" lolx.. den go back to sleep.. i planned to wake up at 10am.. but dunno why i nv wake up.. haha.. den at 11am... *BANG* lolx.. "DENNIS CHEOK, WHAT"S THE TIME NOW??!!" haha.. den i'm like whoa.. relax lahz.. i juz oversleep only wad.. wahaha.. den i see the clock.. wahaha.. 11am !! lolx.. den i got a shock oso.. wahaha.. den she told me that she bought fried carrot cake for me !! den i was like YESSS !! haha.. den i woke up and chiong to the bathroom to wash up.. lolx.. shiok man... den i ran down to eat it.. Yummy !! damn nice lohz.. lolx.. den i turn on my com and surf the net and do some blog stuff lohz.. lolx.. den at around 12 noon, my dear message me.. lolx.. she juz woke up.. i thought i woke up later than her man.. haha.. den can disturb her.. but den... -.-" LOLX.. Never mind !! next time.. wahaha.. den i went to eat my lunch lohz.. den was messaging kimberly and oso my dear.. haha.. every message i sent, one would come in.. so i took quite a long time to eat my lunch.. lolx.. kimberly's brother was released from BMT today.. haha.. so i think she had to go fetched him or something.. lolx.. she said she would message me back den nv.. diaoz.. lolx.. never mind.. haha.. den i msg my dear only lohz.. she told me she was online, but den i said that i was tired.. haha.. more of a excuse saying that i was lazy to turn on my computer again lahz huh.. lolx.. den dunno why i fell asleep.. i didn't want to sleep one lohz.. haha.. but maybe my bed is too comfortable.. shiok man.. lolx.. lie down le den feel like sleeping already.. wahaha.. den woke up at around 5pm lohz.. den turned on my com, hoping to see my dear online.. but she wasn't.. lolx.. so nvm.. i played chrRo lohz.. wahaha.. today war lehz.. den my team lost.. lolx.. nvm lahz huh... juz a game.. i have my dear with me can liaoz.. all these game doesn't matter any longer, can put one side already.. lolx.. today is my dear's bro de birthday lohz.. haha.. she dun even know man.. how forgetful, this kinda thing oso forgot.. lolx.. cannot say her lahz huh.. haha.. i'm no better.. i forgot my parents birthday this year... lolx.. really totally forgotten about it lohz.. haha.. den my bro told me.. lolx.. they were vey disappointed lohz.. haha.. but you know ? sadness in my heart lahz, cannot show out lahz huh.. everything kept within me can liaoz.. if show out den ppl will start asking many questions.. haha.. den my dear help out in the cooking and stuff i think.. lolx.. den kena burned.. hear liaoz oso heart pain man.. but you know ? muz be sarcastic lahz you know ?? haha.. muz say things like shiok lahz.. lolx.. bleah.. Xp Wahaha.. my dear de blog like public confession man.. read liaoz oso happy arz.. so i should do something like that.. hopefully when she reads it den oso shiok lahz.. haha... let's see.. haha...

I LOVE YOU PELYN !! YOU WILL FOREVER BE IN MY HEART !!

phew... finally said it out.. wahaha.. really love her man.. she juz rock my world !! lolx.. love you dear 4eva.. bye guys... yawn.. Xp

Confused...

2004-12-03T18:24:00.000+08:00

Wahaha.. today damn tiring lohz.. lolx.. i ran 6km lehz.. that's like wow !! lolx.. some more i pass lehz.. by about 40 secs only lahz.. haha.. 18 mintues is my passing time den i get about 7:19 - 7:20.. lolx.. think so.. wahaha.. den today oso nv do anything de lohz.. lolx.. juz 2 attack 1 and 1 attack 2.. wahaha.. not say very tiring lohz.. lolx.. its juz boring.. den the debrief was like suan me one.. lolx.. cause i nv go on wednesday de training mahz.. i went for chalet mahz.. i think no one will oso come back to school for training and suffer lohz.. its not really suffer lahz huh.. i mean its like you go there and tire yourself.. so pathetic.. haha.. so decided not to go lohz.. den i know the coach is angry lohz.. haha.. but he never show out only.. lolx.. but wad you want me to do ? wahaha.. wad's done is done, you juz leave it alone and dun regret it lohz.. lolx... den i ate a plate of nasi lemak in school lohz.. quite shiok lahz.. haha.. den chiong home and bathe den eat my lunch.. den eat again.. shiok man.. lolx.. keep eating.. wahaha.. but nowadays the food at home so sianz one.. woOps.. lolx.. really lahz.. i need to eat something new man.. haha.. den i thought co start at 1pm lohz... den i faster rush to the bus stop.. lolx.. den to my amaze.. when i reach the music room, only a few people is inside man.. haha.. den i sianz diao.. lolx.. den i juz sit there and listen to songs lohz.. haha.. den wait for everybody to come.. wahaha.. den they practised the xing kong again.. den i slacking there again lohz.. lolx.. or should i say i only go there and practice the fen yong and the rest of the time, i slack.. wahaha.. den my dear take so long to reply my message one.. lolx.. den i was like going to sleep there.. lolx.. but den very hard to sleep lohz.. wahaha.. the position very limited den cannot sleep.. lolx.. so nv sleep at all.. wahaha.. i think that's all for today's things lahz.. lolx...

Remember my previous post ? the one i said about the guy who pulled me out of the taxi ? lolx.. it kinda bothered me last night.. i kept thinking man. wad if i did this and wad if i did that ?? lolx... its like playing a game with different endings.. wahaha.. really lohz.. ya see.. i can lock the door wad ! lolx.. i can oso fight him ? [Like Real ! *This option Out* Bleah] or verbal assault ?? lolx.. or i could point middle finger at hime when he stared at me.. lolx.. so many different endings.. lolx.. but every single one comes a different consequences.. wahaha.. correct a not ? lolx.. But i decided to juz leave the situation alone.. do it the peaceful way.. wahaha.. maybe this should prevent any trouble lahz huh.. so many girls with me.. if i got other guys with me den nvm lahz huh.. later i solo den die arz !! lolx..

Whaaa... i really do miss my dear man.. although saw her 2 days ago.. but really lohz ! lolx.. oso dunno how to express to her how much i love her.. lolx.. maybe no words could describe my love for her except for eternity.. wahaha.. we almost every night also talk.. damn shiok man.. every single night talk all the nonsense.. lolx.. woOps.. wahaha.. k lahz.. write till here. takie care guys !! love you dear.. bb !! Xp

Chalet (30 November 2004 - 2 December 2004)

2004-12-02T18:08:00.000+08:00

Lolx... whaa... so shiok man.. in a way lahz.. haha.. at the time of check in, only me, km, lk, mevis, kc, flav, ys and ym were there.. haha... den starting we all arrange the bed and everything lohz.. lolx.. den soon everybody oso starting to reach le lohz, ernest, wei loong, jireh, jonathan boo, angela lim, angela chan, shu jun, yee wen they all lohz... den about 5 plus den kyler and chin wei oso reach liaoz.. haha.. i go fetch them from the entrance.. lolx.. den some of them go borrow the majong table lahz.. lolx.. the first day like a bit sianz lahz.. haha.. we were like splitted up into different groups.. lolx.. got the majong group, the sleeping group and quite a few lahz.. haha.. den angela lim and yee wen oso dunno go where.. go until so late den come back.. haha.. i oso forgot wad i did lahz huh.. its like so many things happened lohz.. haha.. den angela lim like always wanna sleep den cannot sleep.. lolx.. as in no space lahz huh.. haha.. the place was like very squeezy.. haha.. hello.. look at the amount of people lohz.. we were like squeezing liaoz lohz.. haha.. very hard to walk oso..lolx.. den on the second's day around 5.30am like that lahz, i, kyler, ym, jireh, lk, mevis, wei loong and melvin went to watch the sun rise lohz.. haha... but in the end cannot watch the sun rise, cause we dunno where the sun rise from.. haha.. we were like playing in the playground at the east coast park there.. lolx.. den play until the day so bright.. haha.. den we went to play in the beach.. haha.. den we threw kyler into the water.. lolx.. damn fun man.. haha.. she's my rebound, so can't blame lahz huh.. lolx.. Xp den we slowly walked back lohz.. haha.. the others were like looking for monitor lizards while kyler and I head back to the room first.. lolx.. den we wanted to bathe lohz, but ernest was in the bathroom.. haha.. so kyler had to wait outside.. haha.. den when ernest come out, kyler faster chiong in.. lolx.. den i dunno wheni bathe lahz huh.. but i still got bathe in the morning.. den got quite a few go and swim and do other stuffs.. den the girls and me plus a few other guys slept in the room lohz..wahaha.. shiok man.. lolx.. sleep lehz.. can you believe it.. so shiok man.. nobody disturbing you and you are sleeping.. lolx.. so cool man.. haha.. den we were awakened by km when he come in.. "eh eh, teo min come already lehz ! hehehehehe *chuckles*" den i was like diaoz.. so irritating man.. especially when he started to chuckle.. pengz.. looks like a sissy man.. haha.. den when everyone come back form lunch liaoz, it was kinda noisy, so i cannot sleep.. haha.. den i woke up and make my hair lohz.. lolx.. den was preparing to go eat lunch liaoz.. lolx.. den we eat the katong laksa.. pengz.. so little man.. den i was like not full lohz.. haha.. but too bad.. lolx.. den after a while den we go cycling !! haha.. that was really fun man.. until jolene called lk and asked him how to go.. lolx.. she told me that lk told her that it was coasta sand.. lolx.. den when i listened to the phone, the talk a bit den hanged up liaoz.. like very angry like that.. den i was like what the.. lolx.. i nv bring my handphone wad..haha.. i was wearing my basketball pants.. den where you find pocket for me ? i oso never bring pouch.. lolx.. den i was like kinda worried lohz, den i used kc's handphone to call my dear.. den she crap alot lahz huh.. haha.. den we decided to meet each other at BK.. haha.. den i cannot leave the scene yet, cause we need to return the bicycle as a whole group.. so i had to wait for everybody to finish playing and chiong back to the shop.. we were definitely late and passed the time liaoz.. haha.. den we were all cycling back lohz.. den i suddenly had an idea.. lolx.. i suddenly remembered that km and cw and head front of us.. so i decided to ask one of them to chiong with me back, and ask them to take care of the bike for me.. haha.. den i was like peddling very quickly to catch up with them lohz.. lolx.. very shiok man, the wind.. haha.. den after leaving the bike there, i ran to burger kind.. lolx.. damn tired already lohz.. haha.. den they were standing there eating ice cream and drinking something lahz huh.. lolx.. I was so glad that i finally could see my dear again lohz.. haha.. its been like, let's see... 12 days since i seen her liaoz lohz.. almost half a month lehz.. can you imagine how long is that ? haha... den was quite happy lahz huh.. lolx.. the worst thing is that they dun dare to go in lohz.. haha.. so stupid man.. lolx.. so shy arz ? haha.. *puke* den they go the playground and talk lohz.. den i oso kinda fed up lahz huh.. lolx.. i wanted to get everything well done and prepared lahz huh.. den i went to bathe first lohz.. they took so long to like go in lohz.. so when i finished bathing, den i was sitting on the hammock and rest lohz.. haha.. den they oso disappear lahz huh.. den kc told me that they were eating laksa.. den i was like diaoz.. i hack care oso liaoz lahz huh.. den i slept there.. wanted to help them but you know ? tired lahz huh.. den i tried sleeping, but cannot lehz.. i juz kept thinking of her lohz.. haha.. den cannot take it liaoz.. so i went to look for her.. the first place i went was the arcade, but cannot find them.. lolx.. i was suprised though... haha.. den i suddenly remembered she told wad eating ice cream.. lolx.. den i go everywhere selling ice cream.. but dun have.. den i was like thinking, where could she be.. haha.. den i starting to walk past the food court lohz.. den i took a very thorough look.. haha.. den i finally found them there.. lolx.. she was like sitting there listening to jolene talk on the handphone lohz.. i wanted to talk to her, but you know ? jolene is there and i oso dunno wad to talk to her lahz huh.. den i was like fine.. keep quiet lohz.. i was like expecting more from that day lohz.. so i was kinda disappointed.. but its ok lahz.. i understand.. but i'm still glad she came cause i managed to see her.. haha.. i wanted to ask her to stay overnight, but you know ? things sometimes doesn't work your way huh ? so nvm lahz.. i let her go, even if i keep persisting, it won't help lahz huh.. her decision will still be the same.. dun want her to find me irritating.. lolx.. so you know ? look things on the brighter side lahz huh ? haha.. i wanted to send her off, but she went off with teo min they all lohz.. so not my fault.. i can't possible follow so many girls.. haha.. den i was like sitting there at the barbecue there and see her go.. man ! you dunno how i feel ! lolx.. as in, you dunno how it feels to see someone you love go.. wahaha.. but whatever.. lolx.. den i headed back to the room lohz.. cause it was so smoky outside.. haha.. sianz man.. den we watch singapore idol lohz.. haha.. den ernest was like always bringing food in for us.. we watch alot of tv lahz... Mr hou came lohz.. haha.. i'm suprised.. lolx.. den some of them went to the red house on the second night lohz.. haha.. den let police catch. lolx.. even Alfred got caught.. haha.. he's the tuition teacher of a few there.. lolx.. so damn funny man.. haha.. many things happened lahz huh.. juz to lazy to write.. haha.. it was juz one hell of a fun man ! lolx.. the worst thing is today when we were heading back home... one guy is such a pain to my ass man.. we boarded the taxi den he shouted.. lolx.. den i'm like wtf.. he pull me off the taxi lohz.. i wanted to lock the door one lohz.. haha.. but den you know ? angela they all there, later if i go against him, he go deal with them.. so i say nvm, this time i let go ! i was furious within me, but cannot show out lahz huh.. haha.. i was like saying in my heart to him screw off messer !! Xp.. take care guys.. i'm gonna eat now.. so damn hungry.. lolx.. bye bye.. love you dear !! man !! juz missing her every minute every hour and every day !! lolx.. Xp

What a day !! poo...

2004-11-26T19:23:00.000+08:00

lolx.. this morning nearly cannot wake up for badminton again.. haha.. but luckily my maid woke me up.. she call me two times den i can wake up.. lolx.. so cool.. haha.. den went for badminton lohz.. today's training quite relax lahz.. not very tedious.. but the lobbing with yu jie and fadhli was really boring and tiring lohz.. haha.. no fun at all.. prefer the two attack one.. lolx.. that one more shiok and exciting.. phoo.. my netting now so pro.. lolx... but still need to train more lahz.. haha.. i'm improving, but need more and much more intensive training.. haha.. but i oso dun like to perspire and make myself tired.. haha.. how stupid.. lolx.. den after training we all do physical training lohz.. jump up and down the 2 steps.. lolx.. den i fall down.. woOps.. lolx.. den my body shape appeared on the floor.. wahaha.. cause my whole body wet mahz.. haha.. den the shape very chio man.. lolx.. show out the muscle and some funny parts.. lolx.. the weird part is my butt.. so small one.. wahaha.. woOps.. hehe.. den after that still got pumping lohz.. 100 times.. haha.. den finished le, den i rush home for lunch and take a bath.. lolx.. finished bathing that time oso around 1 plus liaoz sia.. i die le lahz.. haha.. den i faster chiong to school.. wahaha.. met lee kian on the bus.. haha.. but the more suprising thing is that nobody is in school yet.. lolx.. nobody as in the wind instrument people lahz.. or should i say, our people.. flav, ym, ys and everybody not there yet lohz.. den i'm like i'm soooOooooo "EARLY" ?? lolx.. den again they practise xing kong.. haha.. den i juz sit there and slack.. nothing to do man.. lolx.. den finally they practise fen yong.. haha.. den i can blow.. so today i only come to co to blow one song only... lolx.. den one incident happen lohz.. ym keep saying gui xiong, den he cry.. they oso very wad one lahz.. people got learning disability mahz.. say people until like that.. you wanna wake him up, oso dun use this kinda way lahz.. sure will hurt until one's feeling de mahz.. you all arz.. dunno how to think.. oso quite disappointed with lk lahz.. christian still like that sia.. i got nothing to say.. haha... but i'm most disappointed with myself lahz.. haha.. nv stop them, but i you know ? trying to be a neutral party guy out there.. so i juz keep quiet and watch lohz.. haha.. sianz man.. i really miss my dear man.. haha.. so long nv see her liaoz.. den some more she no more sim card with her, due to some problem.. den i sianz diao lohz.. lolx.. juz hope i can survive through this period of time.. haha.. take care guys.. i love you dear .. !!

Sick...

2004-11-24T09:32:00.000+08:00

Ahhhhh... I'm sick... got slight fever and head aches.. man oh man ! this juz sucks.. juz on my com to check mail only.. haha.. k lahz.. very tired now.. need to go and sleep.. cannot take it anymore.. the worst thing is i missed one badminton training man.. shucks ! there's not much time left and my strokes are like still not very good lohz.. haha.. haiz.. i really miss you man.. it's like 6 days already since i've seen you.. lolx.. you freak ! never mind.. juz bear with it cause i know i will definitely see you during the chalet.. so i'll take that as an encouragement to me.. lolx.. sianz.. take care guys.. gonna sleep now.. bye bye..

Hmmm...

2004-11-21T13:17:00.000+08:00

Boring man... lolx.. juz changed the format of my blog.. haha.. cause i find that the loading time is very long.. please state some comment whether this will help save loading time k ? tag in my tagboard.. haha.. my tagboard is oso taking quite a long time to load man.. lolx.. phoo.. later got church man... my dear ask me to go.. but den i oso dunno wad time my brother arrive in sg from australia lehz.. haha... k lahz.. i'll juz go lahz.. listen to her.. lolx.. won't kill me ritez ? haha.. but sometimes bible study is kinda boring as wad they are teaching, i kind of already know ya see ? lolx.. so sometimes quite boring lohz.. and i dun think i'll be going for the church camp this year lahz.. already skipped next year le lohz.. haha.. think i'll be changing church soon.. you know you know ? lolx.. ya.. so try to keep low profile lahz.. wahaha... k lahz.. write till here.. wanna bathe and den eat le.. den muz go church.. if not late like last week again.. woOps.. lolx.. bleah.. Xp.. take care guys..

I love you dear ! Xp

Weird..

2004-11-20T23:46:00.000+08:00

Haha.. today on the way back home that time.. something weird really happened.. when walking to vista point for my small pre-lunch snack, i heard sombody blowing dizi.. bang di first den qu di.. haha.. den when i was walking home near my void deck, i heard somone playing the er hu.. sia lahz.. today weird man.. chinese orchestra day arz ? lolx.. lucky i nv hear suona man.. if not ar.. might be song kah oso.. woOps.. lolx.. bleah... Xp

Tired.. (LuV you...)

2004-11-20T14:36:00.000+08:00

sia lahz.. today badminton, the SJI C boys come our school... i lost to a sec 1 guy.. he was really good lohz.. haha.. his netting and drop shot was very good.. lolx.. I was like kinda injured.. very pain when i stretch.. lolx.. but den there is no excuse for not playing well today lahz.. haha.. a lose is a lose.. juz face the fact that he is better than me and i juz need to practise more.. lolx.. after next year den no more badminton for me le.. have to concentrate for my O levels.. haha.. sianz man.. time really go past so fast lohz.. lolx.. den my timing for physical training today is <15:20.. that cheng ken lahz.. haha.. i come in that time he was not there.. lolx.. i muz shout den he tell me the time.. so not accurate.. lolx.. but i was aiming for 15 minutes lohz, although the coach set the time as 18 minutes.. haha..nvm.. i'll juz try harder next time.. i juz need to keep pushing myself... lolx.. juz give my best shot in everything and end of well for my badminton den i happy le.. i really do agree with my coach.. We have all started well, so we should end it well.. haha.. really enjoyed my time in badminton.. guess everyone oso enjoy it, although sometimes it was a bit tedious.. lolx.. i oso dunno why some people juz quit badminton... I think it trains up your physical body as well as mentally.. the spirit to go on no matter wad happens.. well.. i guess different people have different point of view.. lolx..so i respect ya if you have made your decision.. haha.. lolx.. my dear is online already.. okok.. write some other time.. lolx.. take care guys.. bye bye.. love you !! YaWn...

Sianz..

2004-11-19T22:36:00.000+08:00

haha.. sianz man.. now oso nothing to do.. juz write to say..

I LOVE YOU DEAR...

*Sigh

2004-11-19T16:07:00.000+08:00

I thought today was gonna be a happy day for me.. well.. probably only in the morning.. I really hoped that today was the day that i had been waiting for.. this is when it really starts.. but i guess not.. I was late for CO cause Yang Sheng nv reply my sms den he call me when co like start for around 30 minutes liaoz.. den i was like rushing and stuff to school.. even skipped my lunch.. Xp But everything juz wasn't right lahz.. go CO den oso nothing to do again.. sit down and talk and listen to them play.. den my dear oso weird weird de.. today.. dunno lehz.. the feelings juz not right.. i wanted everything today to be positive and stuff.. but looks like its juz an ordinary day with some mixed feelings within me. WHATEVER !! I'll juz stay as me.. that's all.. Looks like i have to entertain myself again.. haha.. since my dear is in cell now.. lolx... but there's nothing to entertain myself, so i guess i'll juz have to sleep... till she messages me and stuff.. haha.. Goodnight ! Love you dear ... *sigh*

19 NOVEMBER 2004 - 1 MONTH OF LOVE...

2004-11-19T09:15:00.000+08:00

First THINGS First.. Wahaha.. 19 November 2004, 1 month le lehz.. lolx... kinda fast though.. haha.. cool sia.. i'm kinda happy.. the first thing i woke up, den i have like some kinda weird feeling.. haha.. den i suddenly remember that it was like 19 Oct.. den i was like what the.. so fast arz ? lolx.. time realy flies man ! haha.. its probably we spent the time properly.. like the nights ? you know at night at night we do that ? you know you know ? haha... I mean talking on the phone lehz.. wad you thinking sia ? lolx.. woOps.. haha..

wahaha... today pon again.. yeah !! woOps.. getting form bad to worse.. lolx.. but school really nothing to do lohz.. haha.. go there juz like keep playing.. dunno how to let me sleep mehz ? haha.. sleeping so shiok lehz.. lolx.. but today i only sleep till around 8am.. haha.. stupid man.. but i slept at around 10.15pm last night lahz.. quite early lohz.. cause someone sleep liaoz mahz.. haha.. so nothing to do lohz.. some more the show all so boring one.. computer oso use until sianz liaoz.. lolx.. den sleep lohz.. actually wanna watch some dvd one... but den thinking of the duration of the show, i sian diao.. haha.. so it is better to sleep lohz.. lolx.. sleeping is so shiok.. haha.. but i sleep for around 10 hours is more than enough le lahz.. haha.. i will like automatic wake up after that long duration of sleep de lohz.. haha... den wash up and use my com liaoz lohz.. lolx.. den first thing i do is to listen to the song that i've been listening all my life like since i was 2 ?? wahaha.. i knew how to sing that song like 4 - 5 years old.. I keep practising it lohz.. but den kinda lost touch to that song during my primary school years.. but now the feeling come back liaoz.. haha.. so cool man.. likes bring back memories ! lolx.. later got chinese orchestra man... i think i sure sleep there again lohz.. haha.. they sure practise the 星空 one.. haha... den i'll be like sleeping there le lohz.. listening to my MP3 player and sitting on the chair, trying to find a comfortable spot to sleep.. lolx.. cool man.. haha.. very hard to sleep on the chair lohz.. lolx.. so i'll be like juz sitting there listening and singing silently.. lolx.. den if can sleep den sleep lohz.. haha.. WAHAHA.. damn happy today man.. 1 month le lehz.. lolx.. but too bad we cannot spend this day together.. i've got chinese orchestra and she's got cell today.. haiz.. maybe we should try something like belated one-month day.. sia lahz.. pro man.. lolx.. k lahz.. write till here lahz.. this morning wake up, my back aching, leg thighs aching, den left arm muscle pain.. wha piang.. yesterday training damn siao lohz.. haha.. ok lahz.. write till here ba.. take care guys !! bye bye !! Love you dear.. Xp

Soooooo Tired man !!

2004-11-18T19:55:00.000+08:00

wahaha.. today badminton damn hiong man ! lolx.. well, juz in case some people who dunno the meaning of hiong it means tedious.. so its a very tedious day for me man ! wahaha...doing all the multiples makes my head goes spinning and spinning... lolx.. den oso feel like vomitting lohz.. wahaha.. but lucky i strong and fit man, wun die that easily.. lolx.. really damn tiring lohz.. it's like 8 - 10 times of continuos multiples lehz.. you may think its easy.. haha.. try doing it and yo u will know the taste of it.. lolx.. anyway.. today, stella today oso had a slight twist in her knee.. haha.. heard from some people that she's ok.. thank god man.. haha.. take care girl !! all the best !! lolx.. den after everything over den we go le lohz.. den i found out that my wallet is missing.. pengz.. frighten me man ! haha.. den samantha call me. say that the wallet is with her.. sharity had taken it.. diaoz man.. like that oso wanna play... lolx.. den we all talk at the bus stop lohz.. the bus took quite long to come lohz.. haha.. but we really had a great chat man.. lolx.. Stef was like so eager to go to Malaysia and kayak and stuff... haha.. everytime so active one lahz.. lolx.. suddenly talking about kayaking makes me think of OBS man.. lolx.. so shiok.. kayak like a distance of 10km... woo hoo.. so cool.. lolx.. its like an achievement lohz.. haha.. its really really very fun.. lolx.. this morning, when my dad was driving me to school.. den he told me that my house de phone bill has gone up from a few dollars to 20+... woOps.. lolx.. looks like i really have to cut down on my talking time.. haha.. that's like quite a major change... haha.. den i suddenly decided to ask him to change my starhub plan from 7am -7pm TO 7pm - 7am.. haha.. tactic arz.. den can talk for as long as i want and nobody will disturb me lohz.. haha..so shiok.. lolx.. but den dunno he lahz.. i like asked him to change quite long ago lohz.. den he like never change like that... lolx.. stupid sia.. haha.. like that we can compromise le mahz.. lolx.. we will save phone bills.. wahaha... school was like so diaoz lohz... so boring and stuffs... lolx.. but den got the prize presentation for the inter house games.. haha.. i can hear people cheering for me sia.. lolx.. woOps.. wahaha... but the trophy looks kinda fake though.. haha.. never mind.. we muz be appreciative ritez ? haha.. sianz man.. many changes in school in terms of attire.. lolx.. next years batch whose coming to sec 3 will wear long green pants... wahaha.. how pathetic sia.. this makes us, the pioneer batch kinda weird though.. lolx.. only we wear white long pants.. haha.. never mind lahz.. i'll take it as we are special.. lolx.. how cool man !! haha.. dunno whether wanna buy the new pe shirt a not oso lehz.. haha.. den uniform oso change.. got tuck out one.. dunno nice a not.. lolx.. damn sianz man.. everything oso change den i oso dunno whether to change a not ... lolx.. pathetic.. wahaha.. Sianz man.. the tag board had not been working for like the past few days man.. dunno wad happened to the site man.. stupid arz.. if by this week still not up hor.. i'm gonna change arz.. my dear's blog using the dunno wad doodle board.. lolx.. wad a weird name.. wahaha.. but never mind lahz.. can use can le.. lolx.. sianz man !! really nothing to do lohz.. i message her, she never reply.. and i guess she's not using the com now although she's online.. haha.. cause talk to her oso never reply.. sianz.. oso dunno wanna call her later a not.. she never even reply.. haha.. SIANZ AHHHHH... lolx.. School totally sucks man.. haha.. it is juz so boring.. my dear some more go and dye her hair.. siao one.. waste money and spoil the hair lohz.. muz be like me mahz.. haha.. natural brown and you know you know ? dun wanna say much lahz.. muz be humble ya see ? lolx... sianz ah.. guess i'll write till here den.. lolx.. you take care k ? Love you guys !! YaWn.. Sianz.. i think i tomorrow oso pon lahz.. haha... somebody teach me de mahz.. dunno who arz.. haha.. bleah.. Xp

I'm Down On Bended Knees

2004-11-17T11:20:00.000+08:00

wahaha... yesterday no time to update my blog.. lolx.. came home oso 6 plus liaoz... got badminton mahz.. sia lahz.. den some more my badminton training clash with the chalet thingy sia.. den the coach say wanna drive us to school.. diaoz.. can't we like juz skip one training ? haha.. very tiring de lohz.. lolx.. but nvm lahz.. haha.. hopefully i can still take it.. lolx.. ya.. den came home and bathe den eat lohz.. sia lahz.. lucky my mother test whether the fish cook already a not.. haha.. if not i eat i oso dunno ah.. lolx.. cause anything that is edible, i juz eat.. lolx.. she nv put into the mouth and eat like that lahz.. juz like scrap the fish meat den say not cook le.. pro... lolx.. so have to wait for my fish den can eat lohz.. got some other side dish oso lohz... like celery and luncheon meat... wahaha.. luncheon meat damn shiok sia.. lolx.. den some more black bean soup.. not bad lahz.. haha... den i go up oso around 8pm le lohz.. lolx.. den i check my mail, surf the net and stuff lohz.. regular procedure lahz.. haha.. den have to wait for Esther to come online cause she watching show.. cause i need to help her do the blog stuff and send her the neoprint that i scanned.. lolx.. den i thought can finish helping her b4 9 den can call my dear lohz.. haha.. cause i told her before 9pm mahz.. lolx.. den i finished doing at around 8.55pm.. lolx.. den actually wanna call her one.. but my maid using the phone to make overseas call.. wahaha.. so i have to wait lohz.. haha.. den she finish her phone call at around 9.15pm lohz.. lolx.. den i call her... den tell her that i pon sch tomorrow which is today !! lolx.. so cool... my first time pon-ing sch... lolx.. scared man.. later they question me or wad.. haha.. den say wad ? sick arz ? haha... but they oso wun believe me de lohz.. i so fit and strong.. have high endurance de lohz.. haha.. wo0ps.. lolx.. so muz like give other excuses lehz.. haha.. die le lahz.. lolx.. den my tie with someone mahz.. so she muz come on thursday, cannot pon sch !! yeah.. haha.. sianz man.. nv go sch oso sianz.. go sch oso sianz..pengz.. lolx.. nvm.. i can still tahan.. haha.. later muz go co some more.. if not later miss fong anyhow scold people and call our house le.. haha.. k lahz.. write till here.. see whether today got any interesting thing a not.. haha.. den write again lohz.. tc people !! bye bye.. Xp

Sianz..

2004-11-15T20:27:00.000+08:00

Wahaha... sianz man.. lolx.. today early morning at around 8am.. Yong kai call me.. "eh dennis, wanna play badminton a not?" den i was like diaoz.. haha.. so early ask me go play badminton but i still reluctantly got up of bed and go wash up lohz.. i can't believe i actually agreed man.. haha.. if not i'll be like still sleeping lohz.. yesterday i slept quite late oso lohz.. haha.. nothing much to do.. ChrRo again down.. haha.. so nothing to do.. but this time.. i nv walk around the whole house.. lolx.. i juz use my com a while den eat my lunch and go to sleep.. haha.. cool man.. sleeping is so fun.. makes you enjoy it and time also past very quickly when you sleep lohz.. lolx.. den woke up.. wanted to use the com, but my dad playing AVP.. so nvm lohz.. let him continue play.. den i go and watch tv.. den tv oso nothing to watch.. haha.. i mean like, how boring can life get.. lolx.. so i turned on the Mega Concert for the chinese orchestra thingy and start listening and playing with my recorder instead.. cause i nv bring my instrument home.. haha.. den after the whole concert is over, actually wanted to watch my BoA's Love and Honesty concert.. but den the time was like 6.45pm already... so i decided to eat my dinner first, if not after finish watching my concert, it would be like between 7 - 8pm + already.. haha.. you guys know i can't live without food.. lolx.. eating is so cool.. wahaha.. but dunno who ahh, say i OVER EATING.. lolx.. sia lahz.. i eat a bit only lohz.. when hungry den try to dig some small snacks lohz.. haha.. where got over eat ? haha.. so after dinner, i went upstairs and my dad turned off the com and head for dinner den i was like -.-"... i want to use the com and her switched it off.. lolx.. so never mind lohz.. haha.. i faster turn it on and check whether the server is up a not lohz.. lolx.. den i was so happy that server was up.. den as i played for a while only, server down again, due to hackers.. diaoz.. this kinda game oso wanna hack.. private server only lehz.. haha.. stupid sia.. wahaha.. den i started talking to aaron lohz.. den he say will have a rollback.. lolx.. den i was so shocked.. haha... level still about the same lahz, but my MONEY !! ahhh... so need to claim lohz.. that's all.. haha..

sia lahz.. yesterday ask someone to message me before she sleep den nv.. claims to be too tired.. never mind.. haha.. used to it already... and its been 2 days since i've talked to her le.. lolx.. 2 DAYS lehz.. it is 172800 seconds ok ??!! haha.. den as you watch the clock or watch, you sure know how slow one second is ritez ? lolx.. so it is a very long time man... haha.. ok lahz.. need to call her now.. if not will die man.. well, not physically but mentally ! lolx... take care guys ! haha.. bleah... Xp

WAHAHA.. Finally !!

2004-11-14T11:44:00.000+08:00

lolx... yeah.. my blog is finally done !! lalala.. last night slept at around 3 am.. figuring out many things... haha.. and finally.. this morining, i finished my blog.. haha... Sia lahz.. yesterday my darling reach home like at around 11+ close to 12.. lolx.. But den she managed to stay up late till like around 2+.. not bad arz.. tonight sure very tired one.. den some more today wake up so early.. lolx.. yesterday i slept at 3 den woke up at around 9am.. lolx.. only 6 hours of sleep lehz.. haha.. so sianz man... yesterday i was like walking around the whole house doing nothing man.. jzu walk and walk.. ChrRo server down, den cannot play.. some more my dear at some kinda church stuff.. den television nothing to watch.. play PS2 play until sianz.. wahaha.. it was damn boring lohz.. lolx.. lucky i managed to pull it off by sleeping for a while.. like only 2 hours.. den woke up and surf the net and some more yesterday not many people online.. but Kyler came back from Genting ! haha.. quite happy to see her back.. all the nonsense and stuffs will be back on tuesday.. wahaha... talking about tuesday.. gonna get back my report book.. no need to see liaoz lahz, i know my results... haha.. my maths get 44.. sia lahz.. one more mark den D7 lehz.. although still fail... lolx.. but at least D7 means a little bit more to the passing mark mahz.. haha.. man ! maths juz sucks man.. lolx.. Dunno whether now got any show to watch a not lehz.. haha.. as in movies lahz.. wanna watch the incredibles, shark tale and the forgotten.. but den scared waste money man... lolx.. movies which doesn't makes you waste your money are comedy shows man.. haha... like White Chicks ! [I am so FREAKING pissed and I am gonna have a B.F.] lolx.. i think she oso kinda like that show lahz.. always say that she's so freaking pissed.. haha.. The best bet oso not bad arz.. haha.. although they always speak in hokkien and i dun understand a single thing they say.. it is also very funny man !! haha... [7272]... lolx.. But wanna watch show with my dear oso difficult arz.. she always so busy doing her own stuffs one.. but i'm quite happy that she kinda visit thr arcade less often.. unless she's doing it behind my back which i doubt she would.. haha.. nvm.. i trust her.. lolx.. It's the faith within two persons that creates the chemistry between them.. haha.. now she's in the indoor stadium again.. lolx.. burning for the passion of the lord.. not bad arz.. trying to imitate me.. lolx.. always claim to be holy ! Poo.. wahaha... SIANZ ah... Go to school oso sianz.. stay at home oso sianz.. sia lahz.. life in singapore is so boring man.. wanna migrate if possible.. but there are many things you have to consider when you migrate lohz.. haha.. like NS.. man ! it juz sucks.. lolx.. my brother is now in australia, receiving training for his NS shit.. i think army is so boring.. getting tortured physically and mentally lohz.. haha.. lucky people like me have high endurance, can withstand such pressure.. lolx.. Wha piang eh.. that time co i really do nothing lohz.. haha.. i was like sitting there trying to sleep and reading my comic [Rave Master Vol. 10 & 11]... Although i already finished reading, i read again cause too sianz man.. lucky i got bring my Mp3 player to school sia.. well.. not exactly mine.. but its my bro's.. haha.. since he's overseas, den can use lohz.. lolx.. tactic arz.. haha..hmm.. later got cg man.. got BS.. sometimes it is fun and sometimes it is boring.. haha.. sia lahz.. but the good thing is, every week, you'll get to eat food !! yeah !! lolx.. someone always brings food.. and i'm like trying to control myself and you know ? hide my true self.. if not i'll gobble everything up... wahaha... juz kidding lahz.. haha.. k lahz.. next time den write again.. take care guys ! cyaz.. *YaWn*.. Tired sia.. haha.. buaiz...

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Live Life Five !

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It draws closer..

Schools been the last days..

New Adventure..

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Take a hold of me..

Sentosa

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Life's moving on..

Lagging Dennis..

Cracked Up !

Crazy

TOTALLY OFF-GUARD

Happy Chinese New Year !!

SLEEP ROCKS !!

Everything's NEW..

O levels..

Girls On Top !!

Life's Great !

Keep moving on..

You Were Always There..

School starts..

POS

phew..

Depressed..

depressed..

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Woooo

HmmZ/.

boring..

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Sianz..

Man !!

Oosh !!

sianz..

lolp

PM

Over !

Shattered !

Poo !!

THANKS !!

sianz..

HmmZ..

Strange..

Right here waiting..

I'm dying..

China [Jinan,Shandong]

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Leaving

OOPS

VD

sorry..

Happy CNY !

poo !!

Sianz

DYING SOON !! lolx..

ok..

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AHHHHHHHHH !!!

Haiz.. sorry

haha.. woo !! lolx..

Screwed up !

Pelyn is a great dancer ^_^

Hmm..

I really do love you... (:

Sianz...

Finally !

So tired..

Sianz..

Confused...

Chalet (30 November 2004 - 2 December 2004)

What a day !! poo...

Sick...

Hmmm...

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