Made In Twenty-*

Wednesday, January 26, 2005

-9:09 pm

ok.. things are looking kinda bad right now... my gosh.. 6 March.. such a beautiful day can let a field trip destroy its beauty.. haha.. i oso dunno lahz.. actually dun wanna blog one.. but oso dunno wad's bothering me right now.. trying hard to figure it out, but still could not find the answer.. something is juz not right about me.. something is happening and yet i'm forgetting something.. oh boy.. STRESSEDDDDD.... haha.. i think i under performed this year so far man.. gosh ! hate it man.. can't stand it.. lolx.. anyway, i think i might need to pon man.. haha.. i need a break.. but den come to think of it.. after next week is chinese new year, den we will have a long weekend break.. hmmm... gonna do some visitation.. lolx.. and maybe some shopping before it starts.. anyone wanna follow me ? lolx.. i oso dunno wad to buy.. i very choosy one.. haha.. i want those that is nice and cannot be too ex de.. 20+ for me is very ex liaoz lohz.. haha.. oso dunno why.. but i dun like to spend unnecessary money.. lolx.. oh boy oh boy !! My birthday.. i'm now thinking of wad plans i wanna make.. its on a sunday.. should i go out with friends or stay after service and fellowship with church friends.. haiz.. so many things !!! AHHHH... haha.. many things are not going very well for me.. especially for my badminton tournament.. haiz.. den recently my favourite racket bought by my parents for my birthday present broke.. oh boy.. i'm like running out of luck.. Lady LUCK !! When will you come back to me huh ? haha.. i'm like mad.. lolx.. alamak.. why i still cannot get why am i feeling some kinda discomfort in my heart ? its very weird lehz.. alamak.. den go to school some more additional stress.. lolx.. whaaa... cannot stand it man.. I think its the China field trip thing that is bothering me.. haha.. Thanks lahz huh.. lolx.. blame the school !! wahaha.. so many dates dun choose, choose my birthday.. i know you all like my birthday lahz.. but dun need to like that ritez ? wah freak man ! headache ah headache ah... PENGZ !!!

Dear ah.. haha.. can't say that i am not sad or anything.. but there is nothing i can do too.. so ya.. really sorry.. unless i go china ? lolx.. but doubt so lahz.. my O level coming.. need to study hard man... lolx.. ya.. haiz.. dun worry.. juz go and enjoy yourself k ? you paid one hell load of money lohz.. haha.. juz remember to bring back many things k ? lolx.. den share with us.. wahaha.. how clever.. lolx.. looks like i need to find sophie liaoz.. ask her to take care of you.. especially on your diet.. oso dunno the food there suits your taste a not.. haha.. got me all worried and sick.. lolx.. alamak.. k lahz.. better stop liaoz lahz.. haha.. oh boy.. 1 week without you.. hmmm.. very bad.. haha.. I'm gonna miss you loads man.. haha.. k baby, i love you !! lolx.. BYE BYE..

Thursday, January 20, 2005

-7:56 pm

first things first.. juz wanna apologise to you k ? i dun want things to end up in a bad way.. i've thought it through and i think i need to prioritize my things.. the only thing that i am very concerned about is you.. I hope you understand the stress i am having.. but i think its all over now.. i decided to put all this things aside.. well.. but of course i want to put aside my studies, but i think its quite impossible to do that.. cause i'm gonna get whacked by parents.. lolx.. bleah.. i think a more stable time is probably after all my CCA has stopped.. and i can fully put my concentration on you, my God almighty and my studies.. i think step by step should be the idea now.. i need to clear one before i can proceed to the second one.. rite ?? haha.. dun wanna be a loner anymore !! yeah !! lolx.. i'll try to mix more even if people rejects me.. haha.. its the perserverance attitude.. i only learned it yesterday.. you gotta take things lightly and stand tall among all.. its very true.. you cannot juz get respect juz like that.. you gotta EARN it.. okok.. dun wanna write liaoz.. wanna help my darling change blogskin.. hehe.. take care guys ! thanks too.. God bless..

Wednesday, January 19, 2005

-8:27 pm

ok.. i oso dunno wad happen man.. 19 January 2005.. it is supposed to be a happy day for me.. its our 3rd month anniversary.. but sad to say.. today was so screwed up man.. that i had to endure everything within me.. in the morning, my darling woke up late.. den i cannot meet her.. so i took my dad's car to school lohz.. reached school at 7 plus.. den wanted to wait for her in the canteen.. but i supposed she reached later than the bell ring lohz.. so i had no choice lohz.. had to go and line up.. yeah.. den i go class oso sianz lohz.. starting of the day oso already like that liaoz.. wanna see her oso cannot.. haiz.. den no choice lohz.. went back to class.. tried to cheer myself up and be a bit siao siao.. haha.. but in the end kena scolded be friends.. lolx.. so nvm lohz. den i remain quiet lohz..really very sianz lohz.. den recess.. i never even see her.. haiz.. everything was like so totally screwed up lohz.. wanted to find her but cannot even see her in the canteen.. den i oso dunno go where find her.. den bell ring liaoz oso nv see her.. only met her when we returned to class.. juz managed to take a quick glance.. seeing her leaving me was like ahhhhh.... a stab in my heart.. haha.. den return to class got chemistry test lohz.. haha.. i sianz already lahz.. lolx.. dun care anymore.. cause i was waiting for 12.45pm to come.. so that i can leave for my badminton tournament.. alamak.. today play against ang mo kio secondary school.. haha.. we lost.. 4 - 1.. quite a few cried lahz.. seeing them like that i oso wanna cry liaoz lohz.. but wad could i do ? i'm the captain.. if even i myself cannot stand firm, how can i lead my members.. so i tried to endure lohz.. nobody can understand how i feel.. wanted to cry lahz.. haha.. cause see you all fight until so hard. den in the end we still lost.. like very disappointing lahz.. but yeah.. its a very difficult feeling to overcome.. but i guessed i did.. tried very hard to keep myself away from negative thoughts.. it was like a double combo attack to me.. first it was my anniversary and everything went wrong.. and den the badminton we lose.. wad could we ask for man ? haha.. i'm so stressful man.. no one gets as much stress as from me.. i'm feeling stress for almost everything in my life.. i'm stressed about school work, about my spiritual life, about my badminton, about my family, about my girlfriend, about my friends, well.. almost everything that concerns my life.. how could anyone comprehend that ? i think i should be conservative and be ME myself kinda thing.. i'm so sick and tired already lahz.. lolx.. really dun wanna feel stress lahz.. its driving me nuts.. you guys wanna leave me den leave me lahz.. dun care anymore.. studies.. fail den fail lahz.. big deal.. at most stay back lohz.. so tired of trying to cope with stress.. shall let everything be as it is.. you dun disturb me.. i dun disturb you.. that's the kind of theory.. YEAH !!!

SO FREAKING TIRED WITH LIFE>>> I dun even know why i'm even stress about you.. but i guess that's the way it is.. so forget it.. you dun give a damn, i oso dun give a damn.. haha.. YEAH !!! Mess off people !! COOL...

Saturday, January 08, 2005

-11:50 pm

oh boy !! school started.. and one week has juz ended.. juz one week and i start to feel that school sucks man.. lolx.. lessons is so boring man.. haha.. some more my badminton tournament is coming liaoz.. some more it is held in school.. die liaoz lahz.. i'm so freaking stressed.. lolx.. i'm not here to show to my schoolmates how pro i am, definitely not during the monfort match.. haha... I know it in my heart that we would surely lose.. so i'm trying to figure out a way how to turn around the tables.. I think badminton is really about mental strength and of cuz some physical strength oso lahz.. haha... dun worry.. Miracles do happen ! lolx.. Coach always say give in more than 100%.. i'm still figuring how.. haha.. cause i dunno how much is 100%.. so if there is no limit, how do i do better than the limit ? lolx.. so i'm still figuring out.. he's like some old wise man telling us all the stuffs.. haha.. anyway.. sorry guys for not blogging so long.. lolx.. so juz check on every sundays if you are my regular customer.. lolx.. cause i would blog at least once a week ba.. unless i very free lohz, which i doubt so lahz huh... i'm a busy person.. lolx.. wahaha.. so much stress this year.. i'm so scared man.. haha.. but everytime the bible verse would come to me.. 1 Peter 5:7 "Cast all your anxiety on Him, because He cares for you." haha.. true eh ? lolx.. so i always tell myself.. dun worry dun worry.. haha.. yeah.. I've gotten my O level paper for Design and Technology le lohz.. lolx.. den as i look at it.. den i say to myself.. this is it !! i've studied 9-10years juz for this.. haha.. ya.. so i would get stress at times lohz.. especially when i look at my last year's results.. whaa.. can pengz man ! lolx.. ya.. den many things coming lahz.. Badminton tournament starting at 17 January 2005 in Christ Church Secondary School.. Poo !! and den my SYE Chinese Orchestra Competition is on 5 May 2005.. At the Singapore Conference Hall.. Haiz.. so many big events coming up man.. Benn training so hard juz for the competitions to come.. it like my O levels man.. studying so hard juz for this to come man.. haha.. never mind.. i think i better do my best in everything i do this year.. cause its the last chance ya see ? wahaha.. really need to study hard sia.. lolx.. anyway.. tomorrow got church man.. lolx.. shiok ah.. haha.. but oso got a bit scared lahz.. the people and things there i oso dunno one.. haha.. i'm like a invader entering a building.. haha.. oso dunno where to go and stuff.. lolx.. sianz.. ok lahz.. this whole week really nothing much lohz.. lolx.. i think next week really would get tough man ! haha.. got chemistry mock exam next tuesday some more.. aaaahhhh !! school is driving me nuts man..i would rather rot at home than going to school lohz.. haha.. seirously speaking !! lolx.. at least when you rot, you dun feel stress, but juz sianz.. lolx.. ya.. but den when i think about the future, about raising up my wife and my kids.. den i suddenly have the urge to work hard for it.. lolx.. i'm gonna bring up my kids well and not let them lead astray.. i've already planned myself within me already.. like wad to do when i have my kid.. all well prepared.. too fast huh ? lolx.. well.. that's me.. i'm excited about my family.. MY FAMILY !! wahaha.. its gonna be exciting man !! woo... haha... can't wait to get married man !! lolx.. i mean officially lahz.. haha.. ok lahz.. i better go and sleep already, tomorrow still muz wake up early and meet my friends tomorrow for church.. haha.. take care guys !! lolx.. goodnight.. wahaha.. God bless you !! YOU !! the one reading this !! YOU !! lolx.. ok. trying to be lame here.. wahaha.. okok.. bye bye.. *yAwN*

Haha.. i definitely would not miss you out every single entry lahz huh.. lolx.. first week of school.. haha.. met her quite a couple of times.. i think 3 times this week ba.. haha.. shiok seh.. but den muz wake up early.. sianz.. tired seh.. wahaha.. den friday i was late.. lolx.. cause thursday i stayed up late to do my barrons mahz.. but teacher say next week den pass up.. diaoz.. lolx.. ya.. den really happy lahz.. at least can spend some time with her.. not like the hols.. alamak.. holiday times with her was crap man !! lolx.. ya.. so at least really got to spend some time together.. wednesday after school oso got go out lohz.. haha.. but dun really enjoyed that one.. lolx.. prefer the one on friday.. lolx.. heng man.. friday no CO den this whole week no cell mahz.. haha.. so we can meet up lohz.. lolx.. really very zhun lohz.. like destined or something.. haha.. den badminton got training de mahz, but den got meet the parent session.. so no training lohz.. juz physical training.. haha.. den we ran and do pumping lohz.. and once again !! Coming first in place, DENNIS CHEOK !!! thank you thank you.. i wanna thank my God, my father, my mother and etc.. blah blah blah.. lolx.. haha.. den was bout to leave for causeway and meet her de lohz.. but den i noticed ernest at the field playing soccer.. lolx.. shiok man.. wahaha.. den i go and play a while lohz.. den suddenly Soon Wee ask me to go to street soccer court and join them.. lolx.. cool seh.. wahaha.. at least i scored one goal.. yeah !! haha..den i left and met her lohz.. lolx.. she, wan shin and sophie was there.. haha.. they were at the 6th level of cwp.. oso dunno why always go there sia.. lolx.. they were like playing with butter corns that pelyn ate.. haha.. den juz keep talking lohz.. lolx.. den talk until the sec 2 science textbook.. den as always.. teengers are so curious about such stuff.. haha.. den they turn to chap 6 & 7.. haha.. yeah.. den joke around a bit lohz.. wahaha.. den some more the fire alarm rang lohz.. wahaha.. shiok seh.. lolx.. den the security guard come.. haha.. ya.. den after that walk around lohz.. den i and her went to mac to eat.. well.. only i eat lahz.. haha.. shiok seh.. lolx.. very long nv eat mac.. wahaha.. den oso nothing much lahz.. after that den we went home already lohz. .cause she is in pain.. haha.. better not say too much lahz.. lolx.. ok lahz.. better stop here.. very late liaoz.. take care k ? nowadays raining, cause of the north east monsoon.. i think.. lolx.. ya.. so really muz take care of yourself k ? haha.. I love you.. miss you so much !! hehe.. k... bye bye !!