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Wednesday, April 27, 2005

-9:29 pm

okok.. now really a short post.. later that pao cai complain again.. haha.. of course my o level sure no problem lahz.. better wish me good luck.. lolx.. alrite.. juz came back from the Parade Of School Dance.. haha.. So fun man.. learn so many dance moves.. and the cheer is a bit weird lahz.. haha.. but still ok.. lolx.. but really very fun man.. den after the thing den we went to JP's LJS to eat... whaa.. so many people man.. lolx.. but we still managed to get seats.. haha.. den eat le den went back home le lohz.. wahaha.. the funniest part was on the train back home man.. haha.. shiok man.. lolx.. we were like talking and laughing so loud.. we were like the COA.. (Centre of Attraction) haha.. so damn funny man.. Jacky did the monkey face.. it was like so funny.. haha.. den got another guy act with Jacky the caveman show.. lolx.. den that guy the english damn pro man.. haha.. unisex can let him say until unsex.. haha.. whaa.. that one can laugh until like siao man.. haha.. you never see jowell.. lolx.. laugh until siao man.. haha.. so exaggerating.. haha.. den went home with joanne and pamyloo.. wahaha.. den so sickening man that pam.. haha.. she keep pulling my hair.. wha lao eh.. damn pain lohz.. haha.. i only pulled like a few strands.. den she pulled one whole bunch of my hair.. wha lao eh... damn painful man.. another sad thing happened man.. today after school i went to play soccer mahz.. den i met jowell and pamela.. was supposed to meet them for POS wad.. alamak.. den i have to pay for their taxi fare lehz.. damn ex lohz.. 5+ lehz.. wha pengz man !! my money fly away juz like that.. haha.. die le lahz.. haha.. sianz man.. ok lahz.. better stop already.. cause i can like keep writing.. later that kim-chi complain so much.. haha.. alrite.. bye guys !!

Tuesday, April 26, 2005

-5:55 pm

haha.. so tired.. juz came back from school.. better write a short and quick one to update you guys how my life had been.. lolx.. well.. so far.. NO good.. haha.. very stress as exams are round the corner.. haha.. den so many tests coming up.. not really prepared for so many tests.. can die man.. lolx.. anyway.. on monday.. nothing much really happened in school.. we got 3 tests on that day.. haha.. den damn stress lohz.. lolx.. so we after school go de-stress... but after school oso got chemistry test.. haha.. I get 16/25.. Oh boy !! sucks man.. how can i live with this kinda results ? haha.. i seriously need to buck up.. i need my chemistry to pull my biology up.. cause biology is really hard..haha.. so ya.. after school.. right after the test, i walked out of class and ernest call me.. he asked me to go to causway point with them to ahve lunch.. haha.. so we went to pizza hut in cwp.. so fun man.. so much food !! so yummy !! wahaha.. den got people cannot finish.. so its yeah for me !! wahaha.. i help ernest drink the extra bowl of chicken stew soup.. haha.. woo !! lolx.. cool.. den got a lot of nice food lahz.. I ate Beef Lasagne.. dunno whether spelled correctly a not.. haha.. but it is really very nice man !! woo !! lolx.. den after we pay the bill.. kai meng found out that still got service charge.. den we have to pay him an extra buck.. haha.. he was like making a big fuss out of nothing.. lolx.. so funny !! den he accidentally touched.. oh nvm.. better not say.. lolx.. but it is super funny !! wahaha.. he was like blushing.. LOLX.. den we went to sports link and walk around lohz.. den outside sports link got 2 lesbian kissing and holding hands together.. haha.. den kyler and I was like hey look look !! lolx.. den its like so Ewww.. wahaha.. den they walked away soon after we stared at them.. haha.. den we walked around lohz.. den walk and walk.. den after all.. we decided to go home le.. den we took our own paths back home.. haha.. den kyler and I walked the same road.. haha.. den we were like playing throughout the whole journey.. wahaha.. den suddenly she asked me whether i'm a gentleman.. den she asked me to carry her bag for her.. haha.. so I had to carry it for her.. lolx.. den after a while.. I refuse to return the bag to her.. den she lied to me.. haha.. den i reluctantly gave her bag back to me.. Kyler !! you liar.. haha.. girls cannot be trusted.. lolx.. den today.. sherry cut my hair.. not one strand mind you !! Its like one whole bunch.. i was shocked ok !! she told me only one strand.. this shows that girls cannot be trusted.. and tomorrow i got Parade Of School Dance Rehearsal.. alamak.. oso dunno how lahz... she ah.. haiz... girls are not trustworthy man.. haha.. well not all lahz.. juz some.. well.. i'm not saying that sherry and kyler cannot be trusted.. they juz love to play.. haha.. naughty girls.. *shakes head*.. haha.. okok.. den today after school i played soccer till around 4.45.. den went home.. yeah !! i scored 3 goals.. during practice and match.. haha.. nice pass by ernest.. lolx.. yeah !! at least i scored.. very long never get that feeling already.. wahaha.. sianz man.. still missed the old sec 1/5 soccer team.. i think thats like the best team man !! wahaha.. alrite.. guess i'll juz write till here.. oh ya !! 2 of my toe nails oso bled.. cause the nails kind of came off or something.. its still intact.. but kinda loose.. but i can't pluck it out as it is very painful.. haha.. oh boy !! so guess i'll juz wait for it to drop out by itself.. this process is called moulding.. wahaha.. ok lahz.. better go already.. bye guys !! take care.. haha.. oh ya.. my cell group leader is pretty sick.. haha.. please pray for her.. lolx.. i fasted and prayed for her today.. that's why you guys never see me eat today cause i'm fasting today.. haha.. take care people !! exam periods around the corner.. haha.. buaiz !! =)

Saturday, April 23, 2005

-12:19 am

how are you ppl ? haha.. sorry ah.. one whole week nv post anything.. got miss me ? haha.. anyway.. this whole week i was very busy with SYF and Live Recording.. so much stress ah.. lolx.. Monday got co practice.. den mr lee came.. den help us a while.. den until around 4.30 den go home.. haha..nothing much happened this week lahz.,.. lolx.. den tuesday got practice until around 4 den go home le.. den after that went for Live Recording Rehearsal..wha.. den end at 11.15pm.. den my dad came to fetch me.. den joanne and bao yi oso came along.. so we brought her home 1st den i go home.. den i reached home 12+.. bathe and eat.. so hungry man.. lolx.. den i take my medicine and sleep le.. haha.. so tired the next day man.. den i have to wake up at 5am on wednesday due to the SYF.. haha.. we were all very tensed up and so stressful when we reach SYF.. but by the grace of God.. We've got Silver !!!! yeah..you dunno the pressure that i felt.. haha.. any wrong mistake from my instrument and that's it.. haha.. but heng ah.. everything went smoothly.. although the percussion dropped something and the flute rush a bit.. haha.. but by the grace of God.. We still managed to get silver !! yeah.. haha.. den we're gonna get a treat from the teachers.. yeah !! haha.. den some more hor.. wednesday got POS meeting.. wahaha.. den after POS went for Live Recording.. alamak.. so tiring man.. lolx.. den thursday so tired man.. haha.. den thursday went home after schoool to sleep a while.. and den wake up and went for live recording.. lolx.. den went home oso very late lohz.. den sleep.. den today !!! so tired ah.. cannot wake up in the morning.. den my hair always no time to make.. lolx.. but who cares.. lolx.. sianz man.. nowdays nothihng much to do.. haha.. kiki is jealous that i am not talking to her and i am talking to jannah.. haha.. she said i was mean.. she said that i wasn't talking anymore.. haha..it was so funny.. den went causeway to look for a bag.. haha.. den went home to sleep.. lolx.. den wake up for dinner.. den rush for tuition.. lolx.. got test today man.. i dunno sia.. lolx.. die liaoz lahz.. haha.. den nothing much really happened lahz.. haha... den came home.. very boring.. lolx.. oso dunno whether tomorrow whether got chi remedial a not.. haha.. sianz !! cyaz guys !! bb..

Friday, April 15, 2005

-10:55 pm

oh boy.. its so boring man.. today was totally so tiring.. CO has like taken up my whole afternoon.. and it was kinda boring too.. den school oso nothing interesting happened too.. lolx.. and school was kinda boring without sherry.. seriously.. but lizzie was there.. thanks for your concern lizzie.. but i'm really ok.. haha.. Life still have to go on ritez ? Things might not go the way we always want it to be.. How could we say forever when you know that there is nothing that last eternally except for wad God has given to us.. We definitely cannot compare God and the world.. its like 2 completely different thing.. haha.. it takes time to comprehend such stuff.. haha.. anyway.. my coach didn't bring my racket !! ahhh... its the second time already.. alamak.. alwasy like that one.. he say he busy.. lolx.. alamak.. so boring ah. today co end at around 6.45 man.. whaa.. den reach home oso around 7 liaoz.. den have to faster eat.. den still need to burn BoA's Best of Soul's album for one of my tuition friend before going for tuition.. cause he had been asking it from me since before i went to china.. haha.. i was like kinda busy lohz.. but i think i shan't delay anymore already.. so i quickly rushed to burn the disc for him.. haha.. den my dad drove me to the tuition centre.. lolx.. den reached there on time.. den only got 2 person there lohz.. haha.. so pathetic.. den after a while, people started strolling in already.. haha.. if i knew, den i oso no need to rush so quickly lohz.. should ask my dad to take his time.. haha.. cause go there oso nothing to do one.. haha.. still muz wait for everybody to come.. haha.. den tuition was until around 9 lahz.. reached home at around 9.15.. I was so freaking tired man.. haha.. but i didn't sleep.. cause i went to bathe and watch the 9pm kidney show.. haha.. very nice to watch.. but the ending not nice lehz.. haha.. den after the show finish, i went to shift my computer from my study room to my bedroom.. woo !! shiok ah.. lolx.. at least got something to do in my room now.. den more convenient oso.. but my parents didn't liked the idea of placing the computer in my room.. haha.. but who cares.. lolx.. wad's done is done.. I took alot of effort to unplug everything and shifting it from one room to another room den plugging everything back again.. tiring ok !! i was like perspiring and my hands even got black.. haha.. how disgusting.. lolx.. but anyway, now more convenient le. haha.. sianz ah !! nowadays nothing much to do.. juz slacking and sleeping.. really very tired.. but after next week's SYF, i can be free !! yeah.. finally man ! haha.. den today during co.. i oso borrowed 2 christian books.. from the school library.. it was a book on unanswered prayers., and the other was experiencing the holy spirit.. that book is really good man.. i glanced through it and saw that it was really good.. so i gave up one of the teens book.. haha.. den i faster rushed up back for co.. lolx.. den today after practicing.. Mr Toh showed us Northland Sec Chinese Orchestra standard.. he said that it was at least a silver standard.. haha.. their posture is really very good.. esp. the bowed string people.. haha.. its like a tree being blown by the wind to and fro.. lolx.. so damn super funny ah.. haha.. anyway.. their standard was really better compared to ours... oh no.. how sad.. haha.. anyway.. so far all the SYF has gotten a medal.. let's juz hope that on our competition.. nothing crops up and we should at least get a bronze back.. But we are aiming for silver.. But Mr Ang wanted Gold.. that is like super impossible.. haha.. you can tell man.. lolx.. although we participated in the mega concert, but it was like we squeezed our way thru one.. haha.. kinda stupid though.. lolx.. bu really enjoyed myself during the rehearsals and real performance.. it was so cool man.. wad an honour to be part of such an event.. haha.. anyway.. gtg soon.. need to do my quiet time soon.. den maybe read some books before sleeping.. haha.. I was reading the bible yesterday and this morning.. and i found out the the old testament's on Ruth was really very interesting.. it juz made me want to read on and on.. haha.. so guess that's it huh.. take care guyz.. blog another time.. God bless ya !! haha.. Xp

Thursday, April 14, 2005

-8:29 pm

wha.. these few days so tired.. had been sleeping and sleeping.. den also my life slackened quite alot.. wanted to do many things but still never do.. the world is so tempting.. got tv and computer and music.. wha.. can die man.. everyday never do wad i'm supposed to do.. but i'm trying very hard to be on par with my schoolwork.. I think I'm improving already.. after my SYF.. even more shiok ah !! Free from any school activites.. woo !! haha.. but den.. that means more studying after all.. not that relax anymore.. but at least i'll have more free time.. that is so cool.. but i oso dunno how to spend my free time sia.. oh man.. its been quite a stressful month for me.. needed to catch up quite a bit after i came back from chi-na.. haha.. and also.. many things lahz.. needed some time to focus on my work.. haha.. woo.. now got the new msn.. very cool.. lolx.. anyway.. i today actually wanted to go with my class to the Jurong Island thing one lohz.. but den because of the POS briefing.. den i cannot go.. den hor.. today last minute tell me that the briefing is cancelled.. alamak.. sianz man.. den have to go with 4/3 on 21st i think.. haha.. sianz.. 4/3 i dun have much friends.. but i think sherry and lizzie is coming along too.. haha.. heng ah.. i wun be that bored after all.. lolx.. den today is oso the SYF for modern dance.. haha.. things doesn't really look good.. many told me that they made quite a few mistakes.. dun worry.. juz hope that everything will go smoothly for you people.. I think it is confidence that lacks.. during rehearsals and competition is definitely a completely different feeling.. its like my badminton.. during training.. we can play our 100%.. but when it comes to competition, we can probably only give in 60 - 70% of all our skills.. cause there is something in our human body called fear in our life.. this is affecting everybody.. so its really normal.. cause you are holding the name of the school and representing the school, hence causing your hormones to react and your anxiety started to gush through your body and your heart thumps as though a truck came crashing over you.. so dun worry too muh people.. its all normal.. even my 3 years of competition, that feeling never left me.. we will feel scared.. everything is different even at the same place.. The situation is different thus the effects of the outcome.. Dun lose heart if you did not achieve your goal.. Pereserverance is wad everyone needs.. it should not be a one person thing but a whole team muz have had this thinking.. Dun give up juz because of one failure.. Even up till now, i cannot forget the day when we lose to Ang Mo Kio Secondary School in badminton.. oh man.. everyone was so depressed.. the match was oso very complicating due to the wrong umpiring.. but it is ok.. let bygones be bygones.. Maybe some things you do have to let go.. This oso applies to life.. One man cannot have everything in life.. But one Man can have what he needs in life.. Believe that God will provide every neccessity in life.. oh man.. I better not get drowned in this.. Later the more i write, the more i fall deeper.. i could continue writing all night long.. haha.. alrite.. better stop lahz.. juz hope that everything goes smoothly for you guys.. there are defnitely hard times in life.. and sometimes indeed you are a little stubborn in life if you think about it.. You want to have what you think is right for yourself.. Comments and advice do come in.. But you only heed them when you've settled down.. really.. think about it.. How can you ever measure faith ? haha.. Cyaz..

Wednesday, April 13, 2005

-7:23 pm

Oh man !! Why muz things really happened to me ? If i never opened the folder den nothing would have happened.. oh boy !! Me and my itchy hands.. I opened the chat logs that was in one of my folder.. wha sianz.. depressed once again.. oh boy !! Anyway.. school today was kinda tiring.. cause i could not sleep last night.. maybe i'm suffering from insomnia or something.. haha.. dunno why lahz.. these few weeks hor.. Been sick on and off quite a few times.. man !! I dun think that i'm that strong anymore.. Body's weakening.. oh boy.. I'm so crazy.. Anyway.. Today is my mum's birthday.. i wanted to find someone to accompany me to go and buy a gift for her.. but den no one was free.. hence, i went for badminton for a while first.. den went to causway point alone to look for something.. den i went in to popular den a book already caught my eye.. The word "Christ" is really significant.. Whenever i see it, I would surely turn my attention to it.. so i bought a christian book for my mum.. I think its God's Shoulder on me or something like that.. oh ya.. its for women too.. haha.. so its kinda weird for a guy to buy.. haha.. alamak.. den my racket which i ordered from my coach still haven't come yet.. die le lahz.. I play a while den perspire le.. My fitness level oso decreased le.. But what to do.. O level.. I cannot go for badminton le.. if not i can maintain my fitness.. I juz scared of my NAPFA.. Its next tuesday.. oh gosh.. Den next tuesday got the Live Recording in Church.. oh no.. gonna be so tired man.. whole day lehz !! Wednesday oso got the Recording thing.. Monday too.. Monday is the rehearsal.. wooo !! So exciting.. den tomorrow got the POS briefing.. I have to go.. so i cannot go with my class to the Jurong Island.. oh man !! so sad..so i'm gonna be a loner again if i go with other classes.. sianz !! haha.. Anyway.. I oso changed my blogskin already.. cause some people said that they could not access to my blog.. so i think its probably because of the picture.. Its down or something.. so i decided to change blogskin lohz.. haha.. not bad ritez ? I love this song man !! ONE WAY !! JESUS !! Wooo... Oh man !! So tired.. but still got many things to do.. I better be healed before the live recording man.. if not i cannot sing properly.. oh boy !! haha.. I love singing so so so much.. lolx.. Do you guys ever compose your own lyrics ? I think that's the best man.. You just listen to a song and compose your own song.. How cool is that.. You can even make the song to fit into the situation that you are in now.. haha.. that's why i love writing songs.. Maybe I should start on Christian Praise And Worship songs.. haha.. cause all my past works were sad songs.. haha.. I dunno whether i can enter the music industry next time a not.. lolx.. Its juz my dream.. But the competition is really tight... Dunno whether i can take the stress a not.. haha.. alrite guys.. gtg already.. i need to eat den do my hw.. Alot of things to do.. Still got my daily devotion or quiet time... I haven't do it yet.. so i got plenty of things to rush today.. so sorry !! Blog another day !! God bless you !! cyaz..

Enjoy the songs people !! I really like this song.. haha.. I love you pplz !! Especially YOU !!

Thursday, April 07, 2005

-8:19 pm

oh man.. today's totally boring.. nothing to do one.. den nothing much happened oso.. can i have a happening class ? Everyone seems to be depressed and seems to be getting into trouble quite often now.. oh boy.. i'm gonna die like soon if this continues man.. Early in the morning during the 1st period i wanna die already lahz.. it juz spoiled all my mood during the maths lesson.. oh boy.. driving me nutz man.. i wanna faster go church.. the place where i can find rest.. i'm so gonna die.. maybe i should go for the stress management thing.. haha.. but i think dun want lahz.. i got co.. den SYF oso coming already.. oh man.. muz reach sch by 6am lehz.. i think most cca oso like that ? den 6.45 we have to leave liaoz.. alamak.. so sianz lehz.. everytime the phrase always appear on my mind "So near yet so far.." oh boy.. Some more yesterday i saw all the things that kyler and vera wrote on my history book.. oh man.. i'm so going crazy.. den i oso saw the comment that vera wrote on my history notebook.. alamak.. even worse ah.. not that all those are bad comments.. but its juz that it brings something back to me.. ahh.. you guys wun understand.. these few days had been studying like mad.. woo.. yesterday i was slacking the whole day.. oso dunno wad was i doing.. die liaoz lahz.. dun think i can accumulate my 20 hours by this saturday during cell group.. hope everything is gonna be alright for me man.. and yeah !! My cough and chest pain not there anymore le.. last time i breathe that time den the chest very pain cause i think it compressed my lungs or something.. but now ok le.. i prayed for my own healing.. haha.. yeah !! lolx.. ok lahz.. gtg le.. cyaz..

What should i DO ???

Wednesday, April 06, 2005

-7:37 pm

well.. wanted to blog yesterday one.. but it seems to be under maintanence or something.. so i never blog lohz.. Yesterday really very jia lat ah.. super depressed.. especially persecution by all my friends.. well.. some close one and some who i dun really know.. School and everything was still ok.. it was only after school that i was like super sad man.. firstly.. i kena persecuted by some of my soccer friends.. den that one not so serious lahz.. juz a bit disappointed only.. den after that some girls which i dunno who go and say wad dennis flirt.. i'm like wth.. luckily i dunno who are those girls.. but ys know.. so i wait for him to show me, den i'll juz watch my back whenever i see them.. juz wanna stay out of troubles.. you know i hate such stuffz.. den after that.. den i oso kena persecuted once more lahz.. dun wanna say anymore le lahz.. so tired.. but never mind.. blessed are those being persecuted.. I was very weary le lahz.. those girls juz spoiled all my mood cause everytime when someone criticize me.. I've got to do reflection.. Man !! I wanted to go buy bag one lahz.. wanted to go see one.. but den i oso no mood already lahz.. i go there and took a glance only.. den after that went to look at handphones cause my dad wanna upgrade my plan or maybe change my plan to M1's student plan.. not sure lahz.. so i went to look for phone lohz.. no phone interest me lohz.. i want nokia phone.. den oso wanted a flip phone.. but dun have any one that realy interest me.. its like the phone got all the features i need.. but no bluetooth.. den got one is got bluetooth but the camera not so good.. so i really confused at wad to buy lohz.. den dun care le lahz.. den we met kok chye and accompanied him to go and eat.. den we always steal and eat his food.. lolx.. after that den we went home le lohz.. alamak.. totally depressed already.. den i went to bathe and did my devotion and prayer.. i was like so distracted.. but i still finished everything lahz.. den i slept for a while.. Macson oso morning message me to remember to pray for Sisi and her baby. den i suddenly remember that about her situation... so i went home and pray that God will heal her baby lohz.. her baby has got 2 tumours on the head.. If i never remembered wrongly.. den i oso keep praying and praying lohz.. Sisi oso received salvation i think.. so yeah !!! haha.. but she very poor thing lahz.. juz hope that everything is in God's hands.. ya.. den i woke up and eat my dinner lohz.. den study for my biology test and do some research on the rice cultivation in india.. so ya.. after that i very sianz already.. den i watched Sy Rogers' Life Testimony.. so ya.. learned alot of things.. and many things started running through my head.. den i went to sleep le lohz.. the most surprising thing was that i dreamt that i was homosexual.. you dun really get these kinda dreams these few days.. its considered rare for a straight person to start dreaming about all these.. but I think Sy Roger really impacted my life.. Not that I am Gay now.. but you have to learn to respect and look at homosexuals juz the way as how you look at a straight person.. God doesn't abandon you juz because you are homosexual.. God still loves you.. There is a place for everyone.. I rememered him saying that he was in the military, 2 of his friends which was oso homosexuals, invited him to church.. And he went to fellowhip with the people there.. And his whole group was all homosexuals.. Can you imagine ? I'm like wow... I was amazed.. At least they still had the love for God.. His life story is really very cool.. you guys should check it out.. Sherry today oso told me something that let me pondered over.. Does angels have genders ? How do you know ? Does the bible state that the angels had no genders ? If anyone has the answer, please let me know.. haha.. its juz interesting to know such stuff.. But this world oso dunno becoming wad already lahz.. so many backsliders.. and some more got people make fun of Jesus name.. wanted to persecute him.. You know wad he said ? You know the Chinese dish "Buddha Jump Over The Wall" ? He go and change it to Jesus.. I'm like.. err ok.. very disappointed with how the world is thinking now.. that guy some more is a christian lehz.. but he swears and stuff too.. so maybe he's not really a very strong faith christian... Juz when i was about to persecute him.. Den i remembered about the girl that committed adultery and the pharisees caught her.. and they brought her to Jesus.. Den According to the laws of Moses, the woman should be stoned to death.. Den Jesus said something very interesting.. "Let those of you who have no Sin to cast the first stone".. Everyone was convicted and no one threw the stone.. Den Jesus picked her up and gave her a new beginning.. I will never ever forget this story.. Hence, i decided not to persecute him.. I juz kept quiet and sigh in my heart.. This whole world is changing man ! So disappointed with many things.. sigh.. Den Jes said that i was against her today.. but i wasn't.. i juz didn't have the mood to crack any jokes today.. so sorry.. give me more time.. if possible, i'll try to bring the old "dennis" back.. haha.. i'm like scouting at this world looking at everything.. and indeed, this world is full of sins.. It's time i start my evangelism already.. This people needs to hear the Word Of God.. I've already planned to fork out 40 dollars of my own pocket money and buy 4 bibles.. I'm gonna invite my friends den give them a bible.. that might make them come back again !! wahaha.. that was wad brother Don taught me.. haha.. tactic lahz.. guess i'll write till here.. sorry if i've not been online or busy these few days.. cause my cell group leader wants us to study 20 hours.. if not i cannot go for cell group.. I very scared of this kinda thing one.. I cannot leave without the church.. so i've been studying and studying.. So far i've accumulated 12 hours le.. still got 8 hours !! AHHHh.. ok.. gtg already !! you guys take care ya ? anything can come find me.. cyaz.. God bless ya..