Dennis Cheok
06/03/1989
Singapore Polytechnic - Information Communication Techonology (DICT)
City Harvest Church - N384 (AN Zone)
godfreak@gmail.com
Fav. Food: Beef Noodles
Fav. Drink: Bandung
Fav. Person: Jesus
Fav. Song: Majesty(Here I Am)[Delirious?]
Fav. Singers: BoA & Jay Chou
Fav. Bands: Fort Minor, Linkin Park & Delirious?
Dennis can Dance!
Dennis can Sing!
Dennis can Compose Songs!
Dennis can Speak Well!
Dennis is an Animal Lover!
Dennis Loves God!
What more do you expect man ? X)
Key.Of.Heart
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hmmm... yesterday had my cell group.. oso dunno why muz change to friday man.. lolx.. i got tuition one lohz..den i nv go for tuition.. i chose god first... haha.. yesterday's cellgroup was marvellous.. the presence of god was really there man.. everyone was weeping and crying and moaning loudly.. its like wow ! the presence of god juz came and BAMMM !! it hit us.. i wasn't crying when everyone started.. but instead.. i opened my eyes and looked at every single one of them.. I smiled and thank god for touching people lives.. I dunno why i opened my eyes and smiled too.. haha.. its like i'm loosing my focus.. but everytime i see God moving around us, i juz feel happy.. that means that i'm not worshipping a dead god.. he's still moving and is still living among our presence.. It was really great man ! Den yesterday my cgl, sister catherine said this.. "I wasn't a very good counsellor.. Because all i ever said was, Our God is a good God.." den this kinda speaks to me when i counsel people.. haha.. All i could ever say is.. Have faith in the Lord.. Den Lee kian got kinda "irritated" by it.. he says that it doesn't really helps.. haha.. but wad else could i say huh ? lolx.. If you juz renew your thinking, Faith can bring you through anywhere.. Dun forget that Faith can moves mountains when you speak to it.. It was my brother's birthday last week.. and i sent a message to him and encouraged him that Faith is the foundation to all truths.. Have faith and God is gonna bless your life greatly.. Speak to the mountain and it will move whenever you ask it too.. isn't it great ? haha.. den during worship that time i oso got cry lohz.. sometimes i juz feel like crying every single time.. but i dunno why.. i would juz hold back.. But images do flash in my mind and it kinda disturbed me.. Its not about the recent thigs that bothers me.. I even had images that flashes when i was young.. What i didn't shared last night was.. The reason why i cried was because i regret living a life like my own.. There are so many people around me that supports me.. but then i juz ignored them.. I tried as hard.. but my flesh always wins.. its hard to comprehend.. Words can break a person's heart.. but it can oso brighten someone's day up.. it all depends.. hence.. i juz received a revelation.. its from ephesians 4:29-32..
29Let no corrupt word proceed out of your mouth, but what is good for necessary edification, that it may impart grace to the hearers. 30And do not grieve the Holy Spirit of God, by whom you were sealed for the day of redemption. 31Let all bitterness, wrath, anger, clamor, and evil speaking be put away from you, with all malice. 32And be kind to one another, tenderhearted, forgiving one another, even as God in Christ forgave you.
(Adapted from the New King James Version Holy Bible)
God is great !! Amen ? =))
Yesterday i went with Pamela, Alycia, Lee Kian, Qian Qi & Elaine to meet pastor Audrey.. whaa.. muz fly all the way to suntec tower 3 there man.. lolx.. super far ah.. haha.. den i nv go for d&t class since they say that its optional.. later wait until is compulsory hor.. den i cannot meet pastor liaoz.. i finish school at 4.15pm everyday lohz.. its like killing me already.. den go home oso very tired lohz.. den some more got so many homework.. its like killing me ah.. haha.. den pastor talked about the arise & build thing.. lolx.. a while only lahz.. den can go le.. haha.. i met chewie there oso.. lolx.. but when i came, she was about to go.. haha.. anyway.. ya.. it was like that.. oso dunno wad to write liaoz lahz.. i now oso feeling a bit bored already.. lolx.. den sec 2 juz came back from camp.. everyone is like telling me about it lahz.. make me jealous only.. haha.. we dun have any camps or anything ever since we step into christ church lohz.. the principal bias lahz.. haha.. always like that one.. never mind.. i'm used to it.. wahha.. take care ya ? cyaz !!
Thursday, July 07, 2005
-6:15 pm
oh man.. today screwed up man.. lolx... especially during biology practical test lohz.. only misread the instruction and took excess hot water only mahz.. den muz shout at me from one corner to the other mehz ? alamak.. make me feel so... errr.. malu... haha... but never mind.. i forgive her lahz.. she still new to christ church.. i dun blame her for not knowing.. haha.. Days gone by.. I'm really living my life meaninglessly.. I'm like driving on an highway.. juz keep driving where there's no ending.. i dunno where to stop.. or should i say.. i dunno where to stop.. should i ever make a u-turn back ? But they keep telling me to look forward.. I've been trying hard.. But its like i'm driving forward.. And while i'm driving, i'm thinking of the backtrack that i've walked.. And i know i should go back.. This ain't over yet.. I really tried to go on like I've never known you.. But you were the reason why i kept driving on.. you are like my fuel.. without the fiel, the car would never start moving.. how had this hapened.. the pasenger seat was never meant to be empty.. Physically its empty.. But i know, all these while, there's someone that is always there. A feeling that could never be described. I always have beautiful visions.. visions that gives me hope and motivation to move on. But then.. That was not it.. Why do you want to have visions that doesn't come to past ? Many images and future images appeared to me. And i feel that my talent is somehow related to this vision things.. My purpose is looking for me.. But i can't seem to grab hold onto it. WHY ?? there are many whys in my life... I can't seem to find the answer myself. Everytime i try to motivate my friends.. But i dunno why.. i juz can't seem to get two parties to feel my presence at the same time.. That is the problem with me.. If i focus on party A, party B would feel neglected.. If i fellowship with party B, party A would feel rejected.. I've been facing all these during my secondary school years. And sometimes when you become mr. nice.. people kinda take advantage of you.. wad's the point of being mr nice even when no one appreciates it ? People dislikes you for being mr nice.. haha.. wad a funny world.. aren't we living in a realistic world where i thought good people are well liked by people.. who likes mr nasty ? no one ritez ? oh man.. i really dunno wad's up in my life.. Do you know i get goosebumps when i watched initial d.. people were laughing at the movie, but i was getting goosebumps and smiled reluctantly with them.. hello ? its initial d.. why would anyone gets goosebump when watching that show ? its such a good show.. haiz.. the song "一路向北“really inspires me.. i'm trying hard.. but i know.. its never gonna be possible.. The impact is too deep. the scar is still there.. i can cover it, but in reality, it's still gonna be there.. I got the analogy of the driving thing from the show initial d... watching how the father and son work together was really great man.. if only my dad was like that.. passing down some talents and skills down.. But i know.. Pride always comes before a destruction.. i really hope i could do something man.. Help me lord !! i'm getting dry.. and i'm living a day by day basis.. i dunno where i'm going.. sigh.. after watching the show.. i realised that good endings do not always come by.. SO MUCH FOR MY HAPPY ENDING !!
